im thinking a lot nowadays.

life is so wonderful, sometimes.

but sometimes, it just downright sucks.

but its really an amazing thing, that we all gotta admit.

life in itself is a miracle. have you every wondered how some simple elements can combine together to form life? have you wondered how we can think, and feel and analyse? have you every wondered why some things are not alive? have you ever wondered why you are you, a human, and not an animal? have you ever wondered why you look the way you do, be it pretty or ugly?

there are just so many unanswerable questions in life. the answer is just fate. and its really a miraculous thing. fate is what brings us to meet who we meet in life, and it decides our family, and our friends, and our environment.

its just so fascinating isnt it? ok i know im talking nonsense, but sometimes i just think about this and feel so amazed by how everything works.

nevermind let me talk about something comprehensive hahaha. there was choir today. it was sort of disappointing for me, because i wanted to sing il coro. not everybody was here, so the musical was kinda fei too. ohwell at least we know how to sing all the songs already. the musical will be interesting, what with the many different types of scenes. hahaha. lovely ladies is FUNNEH. i think choir has many talents, and the singers are mostly good. haha. yay love vj choir.

hmm, sometimes im just so fed up with hormones. it makes me do impulsive things. and it makes me think too much. and it makes me feel upset easily. sometimes when im upset, i'll think about the reason, and i realise that the reason is particularly dumb. its just those stupid stuff. ><

you affect me particularly so.

anyway, i just dont understand the whole thing about love. what's so great about it? i think its just overrated. i crave for love myself, every human being does, but i believe that true love doesnt exist. the feeling will fade away. only the commitment is left, and how long this commitment can last depends on the willpower of the individuals. of course, sometimes i wonder how it feels like to find your right one. a person to love, and trust, and to love you. its really sweet isnt it. but with happiness comes troubles, happiness doesnt last. and anyway what makes a relationship strong is the trials that the couple has gone through. i dont believe in true love without quarrels and whatnot. that's just plain puppy love. hmm, sometimes i wonder if i will ever find true love. i guess not. and although im hoping that i will find true love, it wouldnt affect me much if i dont find it. i'm a realistic person, although i do admit i am a romantic at heart. ah how conflicting. hmm, what will come will come i guess. no point rushing into things.

i believe in you. i know i do mean something to you.

so weird why am i talking about L-O-V-E? im supposed to be heartless, or as some people call it, have a heart of steel. hahaha. but then, a really strong fire can still melt steel you know. (: a really really really strong one. (: you will be able to melt it. will you try?

jealousy is a really strong emotion. sometimes i wonder, what's wrong with feeling jealous? everybody feels jealous at some points. what's so bad about feeling jealous? its a sour feeling, but maybe acknowledging it may make you feel better? ah i dont know. i do admit that i keep getting jealous recently, shant say about what. but its a feeling that really manifests quite frequently nowadays. hope it stops soon, cause it doesnt feel good =X its all bec

ause of you.

ah i think im quite possessive. and attention seeking. ): i dont like.

esp when it comes to you.

oh my love language's touch! (: so people, if you wanna make me feel loved, give me more hugs:D guys and girls are all welcome! hahaha, but dont anyhow touch la. that applies for both guys and girls (you never know what girls can do =/). heh. you make me feel so safe and warm when you hug me. that's when i started loving hugs.

i dont like having my emotions control me, but it does pretty much. this is so shit. teenage hood. hormones. EURGH.

i really really really have to learn to cherish. esp when it comes to you.

and be forgiving.

would you still love me in the morning?

forever and ever, babe.

i miss our old times.

you know im such a fool for you.