what's mine once will not stay mine forever.

ah, the soul society arc in bleach has come to an end.
how sad :(

I LIKE AIZEN!
shant spoil it for people.. but ahh! lol.

i love bleach :D the first 20 episodes werent that good, but the next 40 were like, WOAH. the many different battles, and watching the ryoka growing and becoming stronger.. it was so cool. haha. now i know why so many people are addicted to bleach. heh.

ah im really sad that the whole soul society bit is over for now :(
i loved the soul society bit lah! the captains are all so cool, and it was damn exciting to watch them releasing their bankai. haha. yes and i loved how there are so many stories behind the different characters in the show, and how they are all interconnected.

lol okay i know its weird to blog about bleach.. but i just wanted to okay! haha. yeah everyone, go watch bleach! im serious you wont be disappointed :D

the map of the world is on you,
the moon gravitates you,
the seasons escape you.

is it my overactive imagination?

omg i am so tired now.
yawn.

watched bleach from 7pm to about 10.45 pm. close to 4 hrs. watch until my eyes so pain and everything. lol but its good cause im at episode 31 now! 2 episodes away from jerald, and im ahead of althea already :D heh.

okay so anyway, there's chinese mock tmr! rah. need to go read some fan wens later.. although im very sure i'll fall asleep. ah but who cares lah i shall try at least.

today was a good and a bad day.
i dont really know.
sigh.

**

i think its back to how it was like.
ah how naive i was to have thought that perhaps i was different.
i guess im just one of the lot afterall.
eurgh.

i wish, and i wish, and i wish.
and it never comes true.
damn.

and like i said, when there's an up, there's always a down.
it's a down now.
tmr will be worse,
we'll revert to our old ways.

of ignoring.
ah.

sometimes i wish things were different, that circumstances are not what it's like today.

if i had done things differently in the past, would things have been different? would it have progressed to be how i want it to be? it sucks that i've to sit here and watch, knowing that what i want is so distant and untouchable.

there's little time left now. what's going to happen next year? will everything just fade off? much as i try to drive everything out of my mind, there's this small part of me that doesnt want things to go away. its stupid i know, but that dumb part is hoping for something to happen, that what i want will come true.

i dont even know what in the world is happening right now. its just on and off. i hate having to play mind games, but im doing that everyday.

its exciting i agree, but tiring too. i dont want this to end, but i dont want it to continue too. ah im stupidly contradicting myself. its been going on for a whole year. when will it finally stop? will i have to be the one to put a stop to it, or will you be kind enough to stop everything?

ah i dont know.

huggies dri comfort!

i like :D

does he see what i see,
does he feel what i feel?

in my life,
im no longer alone..
now the love of my life is so near.

find me now,
find me here.


in my life,
she has burst like the music of angels,
the light of the song.

and my life,
seems to stop as if something is over
and something has scarcely begun.

**

things are going well now,
but how long would it last?

happiness,
even if that is only for a short moment.
it's enough to last me for a long long time.
:)

cyber space

sometimes i really marvel at the powers of the computer screen. especially how it helps you to hide your feelings so well. the computer screen provides a safe place for you to talk without betraying your feelings, because more often than not, what you feel is shown through your expression and your tone. and the computer screen is something you can hide behind, to prevent others from reading exactly what you are thinking, for we can only try to infer more about a situation only by the other party's diction, which doesnt really tell much.

for example, you might be holding your head in your hands one moment, and in the next, youre showing a huge smiley face (:D) to the person you are talking to, even though you probably have tears in your eyes. see how the computer screen helps you to stow away all those excess expressions and what not that give away what certain feelings that you want to hide from the other party?

you see, even right now, you dont know what i am feeling. i might be happy and high and yet im pretending to be serious while i might just be sad and emo and trying to express what i feel through this blogpost.

i think nobody will ever know. so, happy guessing. :D

i dunno what the hell i was thinking today.
i dunno why i did what i did.
i dunno why i said what i said.

i shouldnt have. argh now its gonna be damn weird i agree. but being weird is much better than talking about all these and making things go even worse. i know i shouldnt have even mentioned it, cos i bet it sucks that i left things hanging.

well i didnt want to continue partly cos i didnt know how to phrase what i feel. and i realised there's no point in me talking about all these because its just a problem on my part.

im sorry.

**

'youre reminding me of last year'

ah i still havent grown up. childish and immature and unreasonable. that's what i am. a leopard never changes its spots. im such a failure.. no matter how much i try to change myself, to stop being so unreasonable. i just cannot do it. im still that same person from two years back. and im ashamed of that. seeing that comment really hurt. :(

we're just from two completely different worlds.
there's no point chasing the impossible.

this takes plenty of courage,
which neither of us possess.

jealousy sucks.
its just not the same anymore.
i want my triplets :(

haha this is damn crazy lah. went althea's house today, ended up camwhoring. xD

i think im obsessed. with you.

im in a dilemma.
why do i feel so much for you?

I LOVE 06v11!

thank you for all the happy memories.

inv!gorate was the BEST! yes we are all tired, most are sunburnt, and some are injured, but still, it's all these that make the memories so beautiful. :D

im really proud of 06v11. (:

ah, im sunburnt.
first time in my life haha.
quite pain leh ):

seriously. why do i effing care so much?

cos it sucks to care so much.

OH MY GOSH.

I AM FREEEEEE!

ive been looking forward to this day since 1 mth again. OMG, its been really long. all those days of endless studying, ALL GONE! muahaha.

yeah so i had class outing today, it was really really fun (: we were supposed to go cycling at first, but the rest of the class zoomed off straight after physics ended. so it was left with only the girls. and as it was raining, we decided to go bugis and have lunch before catching a movie. i was rather disappointed at first cos i expected everyone to go for class outing but the response turned out to be so =/

haha but im glad i still went for it cos it was really fun being out with the girls! puen, alicea, althea, jingjing, debby, jolyn, yiling. haha yeah i really thought it was very very fun. we talked and talked and got high and laughed like mad women hahaha! (: i love these girls man, seriously damn fun!

yeah so spent a lot of time sitting around and walking around gossiping. also went to kinokuniya for quite long. haha we were just talking about all the different books and stuff. haha intellectual ip talk :D

went for the nc16 movie- lust, caution. i thought it was really really good (: haha its got a really good plot. everybody, go catch it!

yeah the guys came to join us after that. yiliang, kelvin, jerald, alvin, cephas. haha puen, debby and yiling had to leave though. so it was left with the 10 of us. went to siam kitchen for dinner in the end cos the other places were packed.

i had fun during dinner too. what with the whole 'speed dating seating arrangement' and stuff. haha. and all the crap talk. damn fun. (:

okay so all in all, i really really had fun today. thank you to all those who made my day such a great day (: we should have more class outings, and include more people. it'll be much more fun. haha.

i love 06v11. (:

世界上最远的距离（泰戈尔）

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是生与死
而是我就站在你的面前，
你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱，
却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念，
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心，
对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

re-posting this. cos i still think this is really beautiful.

sorry :(

stupid wannabe.

oh, and 3 things made me happy yesterday.

#1 i managed to install dota onto my computer!
#2 (says in the cephas voice) dont tell you!
#3 this is a secret :D

heh, what a meaningless post right.

xianyong and rayrin bought the green meiji chocolate for me.
aww, thank you my dears (:
i was really happy to get it.

and to think xianyong made it sound like i did something wrong haha!
love you guys (:

why does it always seem like im the only one making the effort?

things to do after exams:


DOTA!!
class outings!
sims!
JAM like mad.
READ!
watch movies.
catch up on current affairs.
practice maths.
meet up with viv they all.
meet up with the sistas (:


PLAY LIKE CRAZY LA.