Monday, August 29, 2005

rahh. the long long long entry i typed just now. which i spent FORTY mins to type just now has DISAPPEARED. RAHH!

I HATE BLOGGER! I HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT! BLEAH SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!! RAHH-

Thursday, August 25, 2005

so many things going on these fews days. hmm, really miss choir. i really seriously miss choir alot. at least there's choir tmr! (: but i think its just a very short prac rites? i mean, how long can debriefing get? but looking on the bright side, i may be able to go out with the choir peeps tmr. aint that great? after a whole WEEK of waiting. yeah really wonder how i survived my week without choir after school to motivate me. guess the prospect of having choir tmr pulled me through. see how big the impact choir has on me? (:

life these few days has been quite ok, even fun actually. i realised that my class is actually quite ok. i mean, if you dont go and think about the bad points of people, you wont see them, and it'll prolly make you enjoy your time more in class. been slacking and taking pictures with the sexy famm, and vivian and angmian too. and im actually starting to hangout with the guys sometimes. i guess things are back to normal, with the exception of a new sexy fam. love yall mans. (: yupps.

anyway, today was quite fun, after school. i mean, we were like listening to wendy sing, and i was being one of the juedui cai pan. LOL. im SHUI SHANG PIAO. lol. and audrey's lee wei song. sher's ye pei fen and vivian's i-forgot-wad's-his-name. LOL. yeah and we were like criticizing wendy's singing. hahas. hmm wendy, dont take it to heart ks? we scold you for your own good! hahas. and audrey's like pro lar can. hahas. i think she sing jj's songs v nice. JIAYOU! (:


choir tmr, i cant wait! (:


maybe it was all just a big misunderstanding.
maybe you hadnt meant it.
maybe you hadnt meant to hurt me.

right?

i guess i am just deluding myself.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

YOU

hmm i really dont know wad you are thinking abt.

you seem to care for me. but do you really?

i dont matter much to you. do i?

i think not.

what do you want? ive already tried my best. im not going to care about you anymore. FULLSTOP.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

choir concert (:

Today is the best day of my life.

omg. choir concert rawked. it really did. to think that i was so worried for it, but i feel that we've really improved alot. yupps. i mean yeah, really. in just a short span of a few weeks, we've improved so much. this shows that dhschoir really does have the potential to do well.

i feel so happy today, really.

im so touched by all the support my frens gave me. really. i never did expect that from yall. yall really have made me seen something different. mayb there really is something that i will miss out of twobee when we all seperate. i am really really touched. i din expect so many people from my class to go. but i guess there are always people i can depend on. lurve yall so much. thanks ok. and i want to say a big thanks to jasvin, leanne, yunching, angmian, vivian, jocelyn for the flowers. thanks so much yeah. (: love yall lots!

today's choir concert was a success. i mean. seriously, i was shocked by how well we did. sure we did flop a few songs, but im sure many people will agree that most of the songs were quite nice. hmm. and this concert is quite touching. i mean, afterall, this is my last concert with dhschoir already. yeah. i was really touched. almost cried when i sang to everything there is a season. i was so happy when all the seniors came up and sang with us. i mean, its been so long since with last sung together with them. im really very happy and very touched. hopefully when i come back next year, i can do the same(:

i went out for a sista supper wid the sistas, except for wenwen, cos she had to go home. yupps. it was very fun talking and gossiping about stuffs. SISTA POWER!

the above reasons are just three of the many reasons i am so happy today. the other reasons are just too personal to disclose here. LOL. yupps. anyway, i really wanna say a big thank you to all those people who came for the concert and all those people who have supported me and dhschoir.

to choir famm, thanks so much. thanks thanks so much for making my life so wonderful. i love yall. yall rock my world (:

and to sexy fam, vivian, angmian and the guys, thanks for not maluating me. (:

time passes really fast. treasure it while you can. cos you might not be able to get that same feeling back again.



no we dont,
we cant,
we wont.
im just not good enough.


i think i am falling in love wit h you.

Friday, August 19, 2005

in schl

lol. hi everyone! im in sch now, for geog lesson. think we're supposed to surf the net or something. dun think we're supposed to hand up. so im here to blog. im such a guaikia ks. LOL.

hmm. tmr's the choir concert. there's choir later. somehow, we are not prepared enough. i mean, everything's in a big rush. and we dont exactly know wad we are supposed to do. but i guess we are gonna sort everything out today barhs. yupps. hmm. there are actions for cuidongcui, but we havent even learnt them yet. hmm. wad exactly is happening?

hmm. im not really feeling anything now, just feel like its an ordinary day. and maybe a bit of wonder that the choir concerts TMR. i mean, everything that we've been working for, these few months, there are all for the concert. but sometimes, i really feel that we need more time. the concert's very messy and everything. but i guess tmr we shall just have to get up there and give a BOOM performance. let's wow everyone! (:

somehow, i dont want the concert to come so soon. this is my last formal concert with dhschoir. and i want it to drag a little longer. i mean, after this performance, there is prolly gna be a break, and then we'll be broken for exams. after that we prolly dont really have a chance to perform. haii. that is so sad lar. and i dont want a break! really. i dont mind choir, no matter how tiring it is. anything is ok for choir. really.

and after this fri[the concert], there will be no more saturday choral workshops for a LONG LONG time i think. and that is SO SAD. no more saturday outings with the the sistas, rayrui, papa, stranger, mama etc. no more fun for me. no more outings. no more going crazy. i'll have to wait a long long time for those saturday outings again. and maybe things wont be the same anymore? i dont know. i really dont know. i want my good times with the choir fam to last a lil longer. just a lil longer. sometimes, time is passin too fast. i want to be able to be with the choir fam for as long as i can. but sometimes, the time passes so fast. ZOOM! and it wheezes away. i really cant bear to leave the choir fam. but i guess change is inevitable?

i can still come back next year, but things will be different. yeah i can still come back and hang out with the choir fam. but i wont understand all the inside jokes, and when they talk about all the things happening in choir, i wont understand too. i will feel so outcasted, that is really saddening. sometimes i envy sher. she still gets to spend another half a year with the sec3s and another year with xuan and fei. true i may be going with dada to vj. but it'll only be the two of us there. haii. everything's so sad now. maybe getting too attached to somethings and some people have a negative impact on you. but i guess right now the only thing i can do is to cherish and grab hold of all the time i can spend with the choir fam. i must always stay cheerful and have fun with the fam. yay choir fam. WE ROCK.

anyways, wen if you are reading this, get well soon and come back to sing. two days never see you le. I MISS YOU. miss you and your spastic expressions. miss your spastic way of walking and running. and i missy your voice! never hear your voice for so long le. come back tmr oks. i really really miss you. <3!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

outdated

hmm. sometimes. i feel so out of place. so outdated in class.

was surfing around reading people's blogs when it struck me that all this was due to my own actions. mayb im just concentrating to much on choir ppl. and neglecting my other frens. and at the rate im neglecting them, you cant expect them to stick around waiting for me forever. they just moved on and found new replacements/substitudes, whatever you call them.

i really cannot blame them. but sometimes. i feel a pang of jealousy. is it really me? or is it them. mayb im just the one who's not making the effect to keep up with my friends, to just show them that i care. i dont know, but really. i do regret somethings ive done. im feeling the effects of what i have done wrong now. i dont what this. i feel very terrible. but there is nothing i can do now. things will never be the same. im just that hot-headed gurl who's so rash and will just do ANYTHING. and after ive done it, i'll start reflecting and regretting.

mayb its just my character. im just that type of person. should i change? i dont know. changing is hard. its not something that can be done in a day or two. but seriously, i dont see the point in salvaging the situation now. im leaving. i might as well just make do with what i have.

im really concentrating too much on choir ppl. i tink about them all the time, even in class. my whole world is about them. when i go out, i go out with them. in the morning, i will go out and look for the sistas and just spend the time with them until morning assembly. im hardly ever in class. seriously, i think all this is taking a toll on my social life. i feel that i dont have close frenships in class anymore. at most a few. and even so, im not THAT close to them.

even though i hate my class, i realized that i can get through my class. with just some acting skills and optimism, i really can get through my class. they arent all that bad. as for the people i dislike, i can just treat them as invisible people. im thankful for my frens in 2B. people lke leanne, vivian, angmian, yunjing, shunjie, weiliang, manching. they actually bought tickets for the choir concert. esp the guys, im really surprised they bought. haii. sometimes things are surprising.

but really, mayb of my frenships which have gone sour are all caused by myself. why couldnt i have just controlled myself and not be so rash to rant and rave? if i had the self control, i probably would still have my frenships with me now. this is really such a sad thing. i really regret all those things dat i have did to drive certain friends away from me. and even if we are still frens, the frenship is not as strong as before, and i feel awkward arnd them. i really want to change this, but can i?

Monday, August 08, 2005

long time no see

its been a long time since ive blogged. cos my com was like spoiled? LOL. for over a week. ohmans i so miss the internet lar. yeah. LOL.

went to mountbatten cc for the national day observance thingy today. it was quite fun. but the beginning of the day was definitely NOT GOOD for me.

woke up in the morn and felt unwell. very unwell. like who person aching. had a splitting headache. yupps. but decided to go to sch todae. as in the mountbatten cc lar. cos my fave choir peeps going marhs. LOL. fun ymy. so dragged myself off my bed and got ready. was actly supposed to meet sher and rayrin at bedok interchange de. den in the morn sher sms-ed me and said that rayrin's dad was fetching him there. den asked whether we wanted a lift. we said ok lor. we met at princess. then i was there like at 0640 ldat. den went to macs to like shit lar. so terrible oks. den finish shitting le felt even more terrible lar oks. den had to wait for sher to come. den after dat we went to the carpark behind macs to wait for rayrin lor. yupps. his sis is quite chio. LOL. den after dat we saw this 8days mag on the car. den sher was saying that one of the guys had a strand of hair poking out or something. like so LOL lar. yupps reach mountbatten. we were the earliest lar. so damn sian oks. den wait and wait lor.

after dat everyone came and all that la. den go and line up for our standing positions. mr yeo was SUPER ap. cant stand him. must he be so ap? lke i know he's frustrated. but is there a need for ap-ness? i dont think so. yupps.

newaes, weirui's kids are SO adorable! they were trained the wave their flags the min we started singing. so cute lke cans. LOL. weirui gives birth to UHH-dorable kids! lol. so bimbo. nvm. hahas. louis counted the no of kids. length x breadth arnd 208 ldat. LOL. weirui so pro. can give birth to so many kids yeah. lol.

i almost fainted during singing lar. was already feeling v not well liao. lke whole person no energy ldat. den made us stand for so long lar. i wanted to lke die. sing until the last song i couldnt continue. den just stand there and tried to keep myself standing. after dat the min finish zhuofei look at me wid the scared expression and told me to go rest. cos she said that my lips v pale and everything. LOL, i wld have liked to take a look at myself. i mean, this is the first time ive even come remotely close to fainting lar. LOL. den after dat sherry brought me to rest lor. yupps. den everyone was stuffing food to me. lke so funny lar. i ate my breakfast oks. i really did lar. LOL. but they still keep pushing food to me. LOL. thanks everyone for the concern! really thanks alot. yupps. den after dat some ppl went to play bball. den we went to go watch them lor. i wanted to join in, but i knew i din hv the energy. dno why oso leh. cos i din hv fever lahhs.

yupps. in the end decided to lke da qi jing shen. i mean, no point being so sian rites. so kinda pia-ed lor. and tried to make myself high. went wid the sistas to the playground. den i kinda succeeded getting myself to forget my pains cos we were dancing lor. i mean it was super fun lar. i LOVE the sistas! LOL. and fei's so cute! the best holder ymy. hahas. den i kinda felt better and had more energy. den we were lke dancing the chicken dance and macarena. LOL. its fun twisting butts! LOL. i tink its super fun lar. yupps den we went to do the indian dance thingy. yupps. was quite weird? cos we all din know wad to do. LOL. so funny lar. den was under the hot sun for so long. den we were all lke so hot and sweating. den once again. i couldnt tahan. yupps. so went to the shade lor. den felt v unwell again. squatted at the corner. den everyone started crowding round again. made me felt damn bad lor. so decided to da qi jing shen lai again. cos no point being so sian. den rayrin started dancing munaeru vaaliba. LOL. den i just jumped up and started dancing. den the sistas were lke looking at me wid surprise/shock? LOL. den i just told them i could do it and stuff ldat. yupps. so got high all over again lar.

den after dat went to the bball court there, the sheltered area. den we were all sitting there, sian sian one lar. yupps. den after dat munaeru vaaliba started playing again. den we all jumped up and started dancing. so funny lar. den for all the songs we just kept dancing. lke so funny cans. LOL. its real fun lar. yupps. after dat the carpainting was up. den we went over to take a look at the car. its so nice lor. lol. v v nice lar. den after dat we were cheering. at first only the choir ppl cheering. den we were all so high lar ymy. LOL. imagine 440 hard claps at your vocal cords every sec? and we were SCREAMING. lke pls. wad's gna happen to our voice lar. den after dat the scouts and guides and choir ppl were all cheering tgt. the first time we've seen such unitedness amg the dh ppl lor. really lar. yupps. quite touching lar ymy.

den after dat we were dismissed den we went to eat lunch lor. along the way we went playground again. den after dat i accidently kicked sand all over rayrin. PAISEHH- din mean it! yupps. den we were just kinda slacking arnd. and sher kicked her leg on the stairs. OUCHH. so painful lar. den dada was helping her to lke rub it. den sher was lke practically gna cry liao? dno lar. yupps. den after dat ran for the 30 bus. yupps. decided to go payarlebar. den after dat rayrin said he din wna go lahh. lke so sad lar. but i tink he's grounded or something barh. yupps. so cant blame him lar. den after dat we all went to eat kfc. yupps. fried food. GREAT. yeah. eat finish le den we just went our seperate ways lor. yupps.

in the end went to go tm wid sher. we walked the whole of tm and the whole of century square larh. lol. walked for 2 and a half hrs. yupps. den talkked alot wid sher. real fun lor. LOL. yupps. so i tink todae was quite a fun dae lar. although up until NOW, im still feeling unwell. i wonder how i am gna survive tmr. nvm. there's choir tmr. it'll keep me there. i'll go sch for choir. i dun care even if im gna die le im still gna go sch. and btw, we are gna sing the national anthem tmr. shall sing it wid pride and gusto. cos im feeling quite patriotic! LOL. dun care im gna get maluated to death i dun care. LOL. so funny lar oks. yupps.

tt's all le barh. LOL. yupps.


REACH OUT FOR SKIES

At a time when hope was low
The journey seems unsure
But through it all
We’ve kept the flame alive

Now standing proud and tall
Our spirit strong and free
Building on hopes and dreams
It’s here we want to be



Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
We’ll make our destiny

Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies


When I think about my dreams
The future it can be
The time has come for me
To strive and to achieve

With hopes within our hearts
As one hand in hand
For family and our friends
Let’s do the best we can


Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
We’ll make our destiny

Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies


Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies



We can touch the skies




i dont know wad you are thinking.
we will never be.
go awayy.