due to popular demand, i shall blog now.

hmm. im at rayrin's house. lol, which explain's why i can blog(my comp's still spoilt).

yep so anyway, i went to try a quiz that shuwei, oliver, wan ting and dawn did. lol. it's really rather accurate.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
that's what many people think of me. lol. i think.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
quite true. lol that's provided i fall in love.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
hmm that depends cos i havent met the right person yet.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
VERY VERY VERY true. wahaha. im a mugger what.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
that is true too. lol.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
hmm, i used to think success was everything. but im starting to doubt that. so maybe it's true to an extent.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
that is quite true. about the showing anger part. lol.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
quite true. lol look ppl, im mature, reasonable and honest. wahaha.

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im quite sick of choir pracs recently. quite tiring. everyday 9am. cool ah.

hmm, its interesting that the year zeros are joining us now. lol i really feel like a senior. yay, MAY THE SENIOR :D

uhhuh, im tired. tired. tired. blah.

sian. i really shouldnt have done all the read between the lines. argh! now the whole world knows. and rayrin and xianyong found out today too. SUCKS.

ok i shall go play mahjong now since xianyong wants to surf the net.

dont expect another entry from me anytime soon.

BYE.
i told you. no more read between the lines. shoo!

alright, so i havent been blogging cos my comp's spoilt, again.

yeah, so i dont think ill have regular updates anymore.

no more read between the lines.

bye people (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUPING.
the love of your life so nice right ;D

im happy today! :D see huping it's your loss for not joining us. hahaha, no la. what matters is that you had fun today yeah (:

oohhoo. im happy! happy happy happy :D i think i have nice friends wahaha.
i l y.
shant say more lalala.

im playing the role of young eponine.
who grows up to become eponine.
and i tell you, i am destined to be eponine.
i have the fate of eponine.

'if he asked,
i'll be his..'

so. was supposed to go swimming today hahaha. but dint! we went to shixuan's house, and in the end it was so cloudy we decided not to swim. aw sad. so we went to play cards. yeap. haha quite dumb la. and we watched jerrold suan dawn like siao hahahaha. yeah so we decided to go to yuting's house to watch movies since we werent swimming anymore. yeah, so we walked from shixuan's house to parkway. like O.O! lol.

met wan ting and yizha at parkway and proceeded to yuting's house together. lol yeah they were suaning jerrold like mad on the bus la, and being the nice me, i dint really join in hahaha. im so nice right :D
im happy to just be beside you.
yeah after that we walked a LONG way to yuting's house. yeap. watched billy elliot and HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL! hahaha. billy elliot was.. ok la. lol, high school musical was nice :D as always haha. yeap and we played mahjong too. i won two times! haha im on a lucky streak today man. yay. uhhuh so that's basically my day. lol dint do much actually la.
i know you care.
im wondering what we're gonna do tmr. hmm. huping's not going out with us lo. hahaha.

see. youre always like that.

what gives you the right to take it out on me just because youre troubled. im not your punching bag that you can insult just to relieve stress alright.

i dont uds why im still so nice to you. argh. freak man i really was quite irritated.

sorry cant solve everything.

there was choir today. hah.
you made me sad.
my dearest poh wan ting was freaking late again as usual. well we were supposed to meet at 1130 to go and buy our tops but YET, she woke up at 1130. hahaha. so we met at 1230 instead. i waited for ONE HOUR for poh wan ting ok! LOL. yeah so she owes me a kiss now(:

yeah so we spent some quality time together, talked about a few things hahaha. not like PRIVATELY intimate things la. but it was kinda like a sharing session. hahaha see wan ting loves me. no matter what she says. uh yeah. haha so we bought our tops. wan ting and me are wearing matching tops for the factory worker scene YAY. :D yeah so we ate lunch and then went back to vj. ohh we saw an albino during lunch! freaking cool i tell you, his eyelashes were WHITE! omg right. i think being an albino's cool, but quite poor thing too, there's definitely a lot of staring everywhere you go. which is quite irritating i think.

yeah after that we went for choir. aye they cheated my feelings la! debbie said on mon that we might have carolling prac today, in the end she say dont have! )): damn sad i brought my carolling book somemore, so heavy la! was looking so forward to having carolling prac alright. sighh. ooh yeah so we did musical today. hmm i think its tiring to do the musical. yeah. after that we did il coro for a while. it felt so great to sing il coro after singing all those crappy musical songs alright wahaha :D
why are you being so cold again?
yeap anyway, i finally know my carolling group! wan ting, shuwei, yizha, oliver, martin, wayne, xianyong and possibly yuting will be in my carolling group. YAY (: huping was supposed to be here too, aww he got switched with jeremy gan. sad right! ): nevermind, at least my group's nice, ANNDD, we're going ritz! YAY. double YAY la. hahaha. :D i hope there'll be no more shuffles! LOL. hope everything stays. dont change le lol!
be nice to me please?
uhhuh so after choir i went with yuting wan ting and jerrold to eat bak kut teh. haha they ate other stuff, but it felt so good to eat bak kut teh after so long alright. i love bak kut teh! :D yeah so had quite a lot of fun talking to them. we were talking about babies, and husbands and all those stuff. haha rather interesting yeah, laughed a lot la :D

i wanna go out tmr! feel a bit like mugging hahaha. cos i feel that i really needa revise on my stuff and to catch up with whatever i am lagging behind. yes finish my homework too. i need tuition for maths la. sigh i always wonder why i am so dumb when it comes to maths. zzz. ooh i need to study my sciences too. improve on them lol. yeah. mugger may! :D

gosh. i cant believe i just spent like 3hours ++ playing shopmania. hahaha see this is what you get when you download a game just because you're bored. i played until my wrist is aching and my fingers are numb from clicking. and i should actually be sleeping now. ok i guess im too energetic now cos i slept such a humongous lot today hahaha. i shouldnt keep sleeping uh. cos then i'll be a pig. and im not one. hahaha. this reminds me of the time when the triplets called me 'zhu'. hahaha. they even bought me a pink pig keychain. aww so sweet right. it's still on my handphone :D wahaha. but that's not the point. uhh. so now im blogging about how much my fingers and hands are aching. my lovely nice pretty fingers. hahaha. i should do some exercises for my hands uh. loosen up the muscles yeah baby.

so, i spent all my time at home basically cross stitching and playing the computer. hardly did anything constructive. oh yeah speaking of cross stitching, im so proud of myself! i finally finished the cross stitch from last year! (: waha slow but at least i finished it. my sister's not even 3/4 done with hers hahaha. yeah. and yes i slept. whee. it feels so good to be able to slack huh. finding time for oneself is very important (:

my room is in SUCH a huge mess now i totally dont even want to turn around to look at it. see im such a procrastinator. i know i should clean up my room, and i want to, but im to lazy to do it. blah. i hate dirty and messy places. but i just cant help it. BLAH.

oh yeah im not even sleepy now hahaha basically typing a crap post. hmm, what should i wear for choir tmr? hahaha. what a bimbo question. but that's what i always ask myself. hmm. shall think uhh.
thinking of you :D
ok so can anyone tell im in a good mood today? hahaha. shall keep thinking, and thinking, and thinking. puts me in a good mood lalala. im happy with the situation now. i know it'll change. but just let me be happy with it? wahaha. haha. hahaha. (: cant help being in a good mood sorry. hahaha. let's just hope tmr will be fine yeah. i hope my mood wont go down again. cos i realise that 50% of the time im always in a bad mood during choir =/ i cant help it you know, i want to be in a good mood too. but sometimes, things just happen to put me in a bad mood. blahh.

im not exactly like, darn excited about the musical. im more excited about malacca and carolling hahaha. let's just hope i dont get my period in malacca. cos having your period when youre overseas is one of the worst things that can happen. ): uhhuh. let's just hope and hope hahaha. carolling will be fun. lol. i miss singing competition songs though. lol that's why i like to sing il coro so much, even though its like so freaking high. blah. the jap song sucks, but still, it's a competition song at least haha. i miss the italy songs. ): and i was thinking about sov too. i miss our choreo. it was really darn fun! (: miss dancing with martin too hahaha. he was really a great dance partner :D yay ip power!

uhhuh. there's tons of homework to be completed if im not wrong. what chinese project etc etc. crap la. one more year and chinese will be OVER for me! yay. but im fine with chinese anyway, i dont exactly do VERY badly for it yepyep. im still worried about maths. ): ive been worried about maths since sec2 luh! how sad. i wonder why my maths is so lousy when my sciences are so good. that's weird man. i shall TRY HARDER for maths. yes yes listen in class more attentively and all that.
i love my ring tone, zha zha zha zha chu zhou lub chou la ja ja ja zhao zha zha zha zhao.
oh anyway, i need props for the musical. so far, i havent managed to get a prostitute accessory (furry fan/mary poppins umbrella/lacey hanky). anyone has? please lend me! (: yeap and i still need to buy a top to complete my outfits lol. i dont really like all my outfits for les mis. abit the revealing uh. sigh. dont like dont like. ):
i shall think positive. hughughug.
ok this is enough crap for you people to put up with lol. tmr going with wanting to buy my lacey top. yeap so i shall catch up on MORE beauty sleep wahaha. (: cya people!

was just browsing through althea's flickr.

uh see, this is why i hate althea. humph.


anyway, did i tell yall, that i absolutely LOVE dove amicelli? omg it is simply heaven. yeah.
now you know what to get me for.. um.. CHIRSTMAS wahaha.
ily. ily. ily. :D
i think i am a meanie pok.

its been a few days since i last blogged. lol, miss me? xD

anyway, life's been fine nowadays. ive decided to drop RM. hope im not making the wrong decisions. hmm.

yeah, i shall forgive and forget. what for keep holding a grudge just for my face? saving a friendship is more important i guess. anyway, you're dumb cos you dont even know im talking about you ><

anyway, its been getting better. hahaha. somehow its not so distant now. the 'it' is another totally different matter btw hahaha. i hope this lasts. although i know it wont, but ah i shall just treasure it for now. maybe those days will come back. hahaha, april :D

i wonder if anyone knows what im talking about. so vague ><

yeahh i know my carolling group already. basses not comfirmed yet, but i really really hope that my group will be the bitchy group (i.e. have hp and yizha and oliver hahaha), sigh no jerr. that's sad. and no yuting, that's sad too. ): NO RAYRIN. even sadder. ahhh.

nevermind carolling will be fun anyway, martin's conducting! YAY :D ohh there's carolling prac tmr anyway hahaha. its been a long time. anyway, people, buy tickets from me leh!

i just got that RM email from mr teo, said i got into the second round, and now its up to the SMP to approve. hmm i should be feeling happy now? but im not exactly.. urgh. was starting to think whether it would be a bad choice to apply for SMP, cos i seriously dunno if i can commit. i hope it doesnt clash with choir =/ see i dont like troublesome things and the SMP is really troublesome. and youknow what, i really hate doing projects. and SMP will just be ANOTHER imagineering, although of course SMP will be more interesting and more useful. eurgh. shant think about it. i just hope i dont give up on SMP.

**

i just spent an hour and a half reading through our past msn convos, and memories came flooding back. i kinda forgotten all about you this past week or so, and i was just seriously SO dumb to go and read the saved msg convos.

'anyway, i wont hate you la!
haha
why you think that way'
'lol just think that way la'
'must have faith in me
im your good friend'

'i still remember what you said the other day
wad wo xuan ze le ni
LOL that was hilarious la'
'oh lol
trying to make some link ma
also to cheer you up'

'im really glad to have you as a friend
hope nothing changes'
'yay i managed to get you to say it a 2nd time'
'eh arent you thankful you have me as a friend too'
'yeah im doubly thankful'

'i dun take it to heart cos i know you like me alot'
'HUMPH
i like you alot
but you dont like me alot
SEEE'
'i like you alot la'

'u gotta trust me can'
'i dont
so how?'
'gotta learn how to'

'because i expect you to go ma
and look forward to seeing you'
'i also look forward to seeing u what. im sad too'

'do you like me alot?'
'yes if not i wouldnt regard you as my close fren'

'i can uds why i like you alot
but i dont uds why you like me alot'
'then why you like me alot'
'because youre very nice?'
'i like u alot cuz u can cheer me up and make life happier for me
and oso i find it very easy and comfortable to talk to you'

'will you ever dislike me?
i scared
i dont want our friendship to change
i like it the way it is now'
'thr's only one ans to it as for now
i cant say i will dislike you'
'i dont uds'
'lol
im your close fren
just bear in mind that'

'i treasure my frens
unless they dont treasure me'
'i treasure you leh
you should be honoured'

'i'll learn to cherish you as a friend (:'
'dont worry la we'll learn to cherish'

'haha did you have fun today?'
'i really had fun la'
'ok that's good :D'
'then did u have fun?'
'haha
was very fun'

that's just some exerpts of what we said to each other last time. HA. how ironic to look back and to compare it with the situation now. where did all the 'treasuring', 'cherishing', 'i wont dislike you la' go to? its really sad you know. when i read through our past convos, i realised that you did care for me. but i guess it doesnt apply anymore. sigh. its rather sad to lose something that i really wanted to keep. i guess my worst fears came true. sigh. im really miss our friendship back then, i wonder who had changed. is it me or is it you? or maybe it was just the both of us, or maybe we both just got sick of each other.

but then, i realise that what you SAY doenst tally with what you do. i bet you dont miss our friendship at all. and i was thinking, maybe you SAID you cared, but you didnt in actual fact. sigh. i dont like guessing games. and i guess i was quite stupid to have read the convo, cos it just made me miss our friendship. sigh.

i know it'll be a long time before you read this thing. and im wondering if you would even feel anything upon reading this post. i bet you will just think im being emo again. sigh.

this is an emo post. blah.
'but hey i dont mind being best friends'. ):

sometimes i get so weird,
i even freak myself out.

**

uh. boring boring boring.

i am SUCH a procrastinator.

ive been telling myself that i needa mug, but im in a slacker mood now. and what's worse, after the o levels are over, i'll be even more slack, cos it'll be carolling time, and teaparty time, and malacca time, and concert time.

bleah. i should make full use of this week to mug a little, tidy up my room etc.

but im just simply too lazy.

i meant to do it today, but yet i came online, and there's absolutely nothing to do online, so guess what? i went to download a game. x.x im being so retarded seriously.

BLAH.
ive decided that i cant click with cat high guys.
**

im not missing you.
goodbye to you.

these songs are playing in my zen,
guess im trying to psycho myself.

this is really funny hahahahaha.

Ripped from huping's blog.

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. i like to pluck guys' leg hair.
2. i like skinny guys.
3. i dont like anyone now.
4. i dont believe in love.
5. i think that kids are horrible things.
6. ive never dated before.
7. i love hugs.
8. ive never had a single nosebleed.
9. my psl aggregate was 261, with 2As and 2A*s
10. ill only marry a guy who can sing.
11. i love sports.
12. i think wearing contacts are uncomfortable.
13. ive been singing for six years already.
14. i hated choir when i was in primary school.
15. i hate chocolate.
16. my favourite colour is purple.
17. my favourite disney princess is sleeping beauty.
18. i think that arts enslaves and science liberates.
19. i just want to be happy.
20. i think yul is super cute.

im not tagging anyone haha. but people, do try to guess which are the false ones. tag on my tagboard! (:

ok, so indieventure's over. finally.

yeah i really wanna thank ian and yiling for the hard work they put in last night to complete our slide presentations and the ads. yes, they hardly slept at all if im not wrong. thanks so much yeah (:

anyway, we presented today, and it was alright. i mean, seeing as it being something that was done in one night. i really think we did fine. we dint get into the finals, and i guess ian was a bit upset cos he thought that his effort was kinda wasted. hmm, ian dont be sad already right! we appreciate all your hard work (:

yes today, i realised that im not very involved in ip. im not even helping out for the symposium. i dunno if its a good or bad thing to not be involved, i kinda feel left out of everything. sometimes i think i shouldnt be so 'unenthu' about ip. afterall, im gonna be here for only a year more, and i should really appreciate the times spent in the ip. maybe i should have a more 'go for it' attitude, instead of saying, 'aiya heck la' all the time. hmm, i guess one of my new year resolutions will be to improve my attitude. yes, i shall TRY to be more enthu. but i know myself, i'll give up trying soon after that. haii. see that's the problem with me. im lazy, lazy to change the parts of myself that i know are imperfect. nevermind, i'll see what happens. i'll still try..

anyway, was reading the choir people's blogs. haha most of them blogged about the trip to dawn's house. hahaha. it was really fun, thanks dawn! (: anyway i think vjchoir's full of himbos and bimbos, except me of course (: im too intellectual to be a bimbo please. hahaha. yeah i really have fun with these people sometimes, love you guys :D

anyway, i know i get moody very easily sometimes, and that's very bad, for i'll just give everybody the black face. i know i shouldn't show my feelings so outright.. but yeah most of the time when i get moody, i dont even care about what others feel. sigh. i really should try to hide my emotions more.

i think i have a lot of flaws in my character, but i cant seem to change them. sigh, maybe i'm too used to behaving this way because i grew up like this. i think i've really matured a lot this year. on the same day last year, i wouldnt think that i had so many flaws and imperfections, and i wouldnt be able to see my weaknesses so clearly. sigh.
haizy.
i hope next year will be a better year, for this year has really been a year with a lot of troubling times for me, especially at the beginning of the year. yes. hope people (: