ZOMGXZXZ.

I look super freaky now cause my red patches somehow mutated into leopard spots.
You know, the kind which is like a ring, cause the inside becomes skin colour?
Yeah that's what my spots look like now. And instead of it looking cool, it looks freaky cause the 'rings' are red -.-

Oh well. Say hello to the Hideous Spotty Leopard Monster.


I'm pretty useless cause I just can't get myself to do what I should do-
Get over you.

The Spotty Monster.

Ah, it's a wednesday morning and here I am at home while everyone else is in school. Sports day is about to commence haha.

And why am I at home? Well, it's cause I'VE GOT SPOTS/RASHES. Went to see the doctor yesterday and he said that it's cause of an allergy. What am I allergic to? We don't know. My guess is that it's probably due to the Chinese medicine I've been taking due to my sprained foot. And cause of this STOOPID allergy, I got an injection. Blah. You'd think that the doctor would be gentle about it, but no, he just stabbed the syringe into my arm, wihout a warning. Ouch.

Thank goodness I requested an MC from him, because I look simply hideous today. The spots from yesterday has expanded into patches. And it's all over my body:( AH. I can't stand looking so ugly. Everytime I look at my hand, I cringe.

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO OUT TMR LOOKING LIKE THIS?!?! RAH.

I thought the spots would get better today, cause I had an injection and all, but it's not working. I've got spots on my FINGERS alright. =/ Really hope I recover by tmr morning, cause I've got no clothes which can wrap me up from head to toe. :(

Stoopid lah why did this come at such a bad timing.


And I know you don't care anymore.

Say No to Emo.

I desperately need you here, to help me through this.
But no, You're never going to appear.

When it is dark enough, you can see the stars.
;Ralph Waldo Emerson

I've never felt more alone, but not to worry, I'll pull through this.

Freudian Slips.

You know what,
I still write '06v11' on most of my worksheets.

And I don't even realise it!
Most of the time it's WenSiu who does haha. And she bursts out laughing everytime.

Very funny meh?! Haha.
And she realised today that the notes that are produced when you blow air into the 3 different sizes of test-tubes form a chord. D F# A. Like woah, the wonders of perfect pitch.

Okay I know I'm being random.

Stronger.

And I've learnt, after today, that I've got to be strong.

For I am, afterall, a source of strength for many.

(And no, I'm not trying to be BHB.)


I'm fine.

Save Me.

Why is it that it's always those who shouldn't matter that matter the most?

I got to cure this silly little brain of mine, and stop my silly thoughts from popping out.

In Repair; John Mayer

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, I am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh it's taking so long I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, I am in repair

And now I'm walking in the park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me
Oh it's taking so long I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady

Oh I'm never really ready, yeah, oh, I'm never really ready
I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there
I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there
I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there
I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there
I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there
I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there

The Usual People.

Great day today:)

It's always nice meeting up with the YearThrees, and everyone came today. All ten of the usual people haha. Kenny, Dawn, YuTing, WanTing, ShuWei, Oliver, HuPing, YiZha, Jerrold.

Had an awesome time hearing all the jokes/suaning etc.

HuPing left after a while to go to his aunt's place, while the rest of us went to HongSheng's house for his birthday party. The food was gooooood :) SharksFin soup and what not. It was nice singing all our old songs again.

Love the Usual People :D

'Pop' goes the Ankle.

I never sprained my ankle before, so this is a first haha. And mind you, I was not carrying out any dangerous/sprain-attracting activities. I was just walking innocently down the stairs by the koi pond to Econs Lecture, when I tripped and felt my ankle twist, then, I heard a 'pop' sound. Well seriously, I was pretty scared when I heard the 'pop', it hurt quite a lot at that point of time, but well, as I was alone, I had to hobble slowly back to the choir room.

So, rested at the choir room. All this while, my ankle didn't feel painful, it just felt rather numb and achey. So, I thought I just strained it, though it didn't explain the 'pop' sound. After about 2/3 periods, I tried to rotate my ankle and Boy, did it hurt. Decided to call my father, and after a while, he brought me to the sinseh.

After seeing the sinseh (and doing loads of embarrassing things,) I came back to school. Carried on with the rest of my lessons, I'm such an extremely guai student ain't I?

Okay, so nothing much happened, except for the Astons linner that I had with Alicea. The food was good :) Okay so anyway, I came back and hanged around a while before going for MusicFest.

Well, the show was pretty good, am just not happy with some of the results though, but I guess it's okay cause MusicFest's over already isn't it? Well, anyway, my Best Friend and OEY came back :)

VJChoir 05/06 LOL :)

Okay nothing much to say now, my eyes are closing anyway, so bye everyone :)

Sigh.

我真的真的真的不要。

I think you've got no manners.
Not even a bye? That tells me a lot doesn't it.

You don't even know how lucky you are.

Irony.

Sometimes I feel like there are so many people who take me for granted.
Likewise, I realised that I take some people for granted too,
for that, I'm Sorry.

**

Btw, I need to qualify this,
I GOT A DAO FACE OKAY, so when I'm not smiling, I look like I'm pissed/angry.
The fact is, I'm probably just tired/thinking hard about something.
So people, please don't think that I'm angry with you/I don't like you when I'm not smiling yeah? I'm just.. thinking. Haha I can't help it that I've got a fierce face when I'm not smiling.
I'm actually a very friendly person!! HEH.


Why am I still allowing myself to get affected by you?

I just HAD to post this haha!

X says:
haiz im bored
may says:
haha go watch america's next top model!
X says :
nah
may says:
damn nice haha
may says:
i watching now
X says:
watch for wad?
watch u can
le
X says:
lol
jkjkjkjkjkjk

HAHAHAHA! :D
okayokay don't kill me heh.

A Few Photos.

Met up with my dear 2B friends muahaha. We should meet up more often my dears:)

Went out to watch Vocal Consort's concert. Cam whored VERY LITTLE :( haha but here's a few.

Donuts and XiaoLongBaos.

Met up with some of the YearThrees today :) Oliver, Yizha, Jerrold, Dawn, Sindhu, Kenny, Yuting. Kinda sad that Shuwei, Huping and Wan Ting didn't join us. But all in all, it was a fun outing :) Really miss those days when they were still in VJ haha. All the stupid evaluating sessions, the 'oh-my'ing, the crazy laughter.

We had dinner at Din Tai Fung, where we spammed XiaoLongBaos. It's nice hearing them talk about their NS lifes, teaching lives, interveiw experiences etc, with the occasional bit of gossip of course haha! Went to buy donuts and cakes after that, and proceeded to the esplanade rooftop to eat and talk. It was pretty fun hearing our dear teachers Dawn and Yuting bitch about their students. Haha I never realised that teachers actually bitched like that! So horrible haha but it was pretty interesting lah:)

Shucks I Really Miss Huping and WanTing. (Shuwei dont be jealous, I can't exactly miss you right, cos I see you quite often, but don't worry, you're still loved heh.)

Helplessness.

Doesn't it suck when you watch everything you've tried for so long to hang on to crumble to pieces?

No matter what you do, you just can't change anything. You can't change people's attitudes, you can't change the way they think. No matter how much you love/care for them, you just can't get their stubborn minds to budge one bit.

And it sucks to see the person you once loved so much become like this. Where did you go? I don't know how I can get you back, back to being how you were like before. It seems so impossible, but I'm willing to try. I can't bear to let you go, not yet.

I promise you that I'll be there for you, so will you please just take that step forward? Just one tiny step and things will improve infinitely. Look inside you and find your courage, you've got it in you, just believe.

Choirr.

There was Choir today.

Felt that prac today was alright. I like the songs we did today, but it's kinda slack now.
One month plus abit left to SOV! Oh man I'm starting to worry, let's all work hard okay? I'm sure we can do it if we all put in the effort.

Anyway, the number of people going to Wales is so small! And that's such a sad thing :( Really hope the Year Twos can join us, that way, the choir will have so much more fun there! Please please please reconsider alright Year Twos, I really think you guys will regret it if you don't go :(

Went out for dinner today with KaSheng, Pocks, Keith, Wayne, HoHo, Zheng Whye. Haha it was pretty fun cause we were talking about ____. Haha stupid one it was like some internal joke cause they refused to tell me what ____ means. It was fun laughing like crazy though HAHA. Oh and CC thanks for pangsehing me man! Haha okay I was joking :) Oh Philip was studying there too so he came to join us after a while heh. We stayed there for quite a long discussing ____. Haha stupid but good fun :)

Went home after that, and chionged out my PI=/ Had to shorten it like crazy though. Hope I didn't lose the essential idea. Okay nothing much to say.

Random, but it's nice to know we've matured :)

Anyway I'm in love with John Mayer because he writes such good music (I'm assuming that he writes his own songs, not too sure whether that's the case). Great thanks to Zheng Yi for intoducing JM's music to me! Slow Dancing rocks, Wheel too :) Shall research more on him next time when I'm free. A post about him coming up(soon)!

I believe that my life's gonna see,
The love I give,
Return to me.