MY INDIEVENTURE'S SCREWED.

tmr is the presentation, and our concept, presentation and scripts are not out yet. great.

hello people.

indieventure's started.

my project's quite fun actually, but then. its rather tedious. i kinda hate doing projects. uh. hate it hate it. and i hate presenting. =/

oh well today was alright la. rather irritating at some points, but it was bearable. uhhuh.

was thinking a lot today. hmm.
thinking of you mainly.
oh and anyway, im really tired. tired of everything. bleah.
im craving for your hug, can you hug me again?
anyway ive realised that ive been through a lot this year. nevermind let's hope next year will be a better year. (:

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ok so let me continue from my previous post.

yeap so after that guowei came, and we decided to watch.. THE OTHERS! it's this supposedly horror movie. but it wasnt very horrorful, and it wasnt very scary. the story line is cool though, and the twist at the end is so unexpected! (: its quite a good movie la. i love nicole kidman! yeap.

after that elroy came! yippee yay. yep so we watched charlie and the chocolate factory. i never watched it before anyway hahaha. its not too bad la. oh and we were folding cranes out of the gold foil from ferrero rocher. haha. quite cool, wonder if althea took a picture.

yep after that we had our dinner. (: althea's house the meals all quite nice haha. we had fried rice just now, yep with a few vegetables. uhhuh. talked quite a big during the meal. it was nice (: haha, before i left we took a few group shots too. not bad la! haha. hope althea posts it up soon :D

yeap, im quite thankful for having 06v11 as a class, we're really a nice class! the people are nice and we're quite bonded haha. im happy. (: lucky we bonded early, and now we still have one more year to enjoy the bondedness. yay. hope nothing else happens.

i realised ive learnt a lot this year. valuable lessons that cannot be learned elsewhere. and yes i've learnt how to appreciate. maybe i havent learnt how to cherish, but at the very least, i know how to appreciate. and i know how to look at the bright side of life, even though i've learnt not to be naive. sounds complicated yeah. haha. (:

oh i really gotta thank althea! thanks so much for opening up your house these two days, its been really fun! (: we did simple things but it had been fun all the same. wahaha. yes and thanks for all the food. i think we ate quite a lot of stuff at your house hahaha. hope we have more such sessions next time (x

i know you,
i know you from once upon a dream.

hello people.

im at althea's house now. wahaha. disney princesses woots! (: super nice. we've watched sleeping beauty, little mermaid and cinderella so far. no idea what we're gonna watch later.. perhaps aladdin (: waha.

the music is so nice. ok so anyway i had a great lunch, super nice and filling wahaha. let's see, we ordered hawaiian pizza, and althea's NICE mum cooked sphaghetti for us (: its really nice yay. later we're gonna have fried rice. hahaha.

i sat on the massage chair for like one hour. think im suffering from side effects now. =/ my muscles are aching more than before i sat on the chair hahaha. yep anyway i love the disney princess music! (: so dreamy and lovely. whee.

oh we played mahjong too. wahaha. i dint win ): but nevermind it was fun!

althea's going down to fetch guowei now, elroy just left. lol. hope there'll be more people next time. yep.

yay i think althea's coming up now. off to more movies!

im dreaming of our own fairytale (:

you know what?

youre such a sucker. ive had enough of you. ive tried my best to the best and most supportive friend you can ever have. perhaps ive tried too hard, and you're just taking me for granted.
if you dont care about whatever that's happening to me, fine. 'whatever im not interested'. have you any idea how much it hurt me? i care so much for you, but to you, im just a nobody whom you dont care two hoots about.

ive always thought you were a nice and thoughtful guy. well you've proved me wrong. this is not the first time you've hurt me. it sucks to know that ive judged a person wrongly, but at least, i can comfort myself by knowing that im not continuing this one-sided friendship anymore. i've told you so many times about how i feel. i bet you've never cared. and i was stupid to think that i could change you.

youre such a self-centred person. your world is just filled with her. your friends dont matter to you at all. so much for trying to change you, so much for trying to be a good friend, so much for the whole cfs thing. i tried to make you care for your friends, i've realised that it will never work. you dont care about others, you only care about yourself. you only care about your own feelings. 'its not that i dont care, its just that ive got other priorities'. that's bullshit i tell you, B U L L S H I T.

thanks, for making me realise that ive wasted my time and effort.
thanks, for letting me save myself from wasting my time next year.
thanks, for letting me realise what a lousy friend is.
thanks, for letting me see what you're really like.

thanks ah.

i know that when you read this, you'll probably roll your eyes and think that im over-reacting.

and you know what? this time round, im not caring. im not even expecting an apology from you. im not expecting anything from you anymore. thanks for relieving me of this burden, of being obliged to care for you. of course, i dont deny that i will still care for you, i cant help it. but i'll get used to knowing that i dont and never had your friendship. and maybe i'll stop caring for you soon.

maybe we'll be superficial friends, ive gotta see you for two more years anyway. who knows.

btw, forget the whole cfs thing, we were never good friends anyway.

HELLO PEOPLE.

went swimming today. wahaha. and i watched princess hours! hahaha. so we watched the sweet parts only (: we skipped all the boring parts, where the old tarts talked. hahaha. I LOVE SHIN. shin is absolutely cool. OMG. (:

so, alicea arrived VERY late. and then we went to swim (: yep swam a few laps, den we played some games, like finding the goggles, crocodile, mr wolf etc. hahaha. in the end we just sat down and gossiped and talked hahaha. it was rather fun. yes and i got a NICE DEEP tan. wheehee! i kinda look like an indian, but the tan is really not bad (: YAY.
this brings back memories of us. :D
after that we played a bit of mahjong. but i can feel like im falling sick. aww sad ): i feel hot all over my body. and there's a bit of a headache. blah i dont wanna fall sick! i still needa sing, and play, and do work. -.- which reminds me, there's still chinese and maths homework to do. im feeling so cold now, and so tired. hahaha swimming tires you out.

uhh after playing mahjong we went to do a makeover for alicea! super cool alright. haha we ended up drawing make up on each other. and we then styled annette's (althea's youngest sister) hair. haha. after that we watched the final episode of goong! whoots. it was super cool yeah. SHIN and the caijing, they're like omg so sweet and cute together! ((: gives you that warm fuzzy feeling when you watch them together haha.

yep after that ate dinner and went home (:

there's disney princess movie marathon tmr! it'll sorta be like a party. haha. we're ordering pizza, and reliving our childhood. elroy and guowei are coming tmr too, hope they dont pangseh! haha. ok im tired. >< shall go and read the MANYMANY books i borrowed from althea (x

oh, and im too lazy to reply my tags alr. haha. people when yall tag dont expect a reply alright (: i still like to see people tag anyway (x oh and grace, my blog very emo meh? :P

hello people!

so, i slacked for the first part of today.
thought about you.
and i did a few things.

half-memorised my scores,
almost completed my cross-stitch,
ironed most of my clothes,
read a bit of narnia.
was hoping to be able to see you too.
uhhuh, went out to meet huping, wan ting and yu ting after that. it was fun. hahaha, walked around, laughed alot and talked. (: yep it was funnnn!

tmr im going to althea's house to watch GOONG. whoots! think we're gonna swim before that, hope the haze's not too bad. ooh and i dint tell my dad that i'm gonna swim, feel so uneasy about that. =/ if he finds out im dead shit. i hate this type of sneaky sneaky feeling. uhh i'd rather tell him and get everything over and done with. den can do everything openly. but still, i dont dare to say =/ bloops.

nevermind, still. GOONG tmr! so exciting (:

and there's disney princess movie marathon on tues. wahaha. the next two days will be spent at althea's hse, then on wed, THERE'LL BE CHOIR! (:
shant keep thinking of you. its bittersweet.
wahaha i love vjchoir! love all the people, although of course i get irritated by some people sometimes, but most of the time, i like them la. (:

im thinking a lot nowadays.

life is so wonderful, sometimes.

but sometimes, it just downright sucks.

but its really an amazing thing, that we all gotta admit.

life in itself is a miracle. have you every wondered how some simple elements can combine together to form life? have you wondered how we can think, and feel and analyse? have you every wondered why some things are not alive? have you ever wondered why you are you, a human, and not an animal? have you ever wondered why you look the way you do, be it pretty or ugly?

there are just so many unanswerable questions in life. the answer is just fate. and its really a miraculous thing. fate is what brings us to meet who we meet in life, and it decides our family, and our friends, and our environment.

its just so fascinating isnt it? ok i know im talking nonsense, but sometimes i just think about this and feel so amazed by how everything works.

nevermind let me talk about something comprehensive hahaha. there was choir today. it was sort of disappointing for me, because i wanted to sing il coro. not everybody was here, so the musical was kinda fei too. ohwell at least we know how to sing all the songs already. the musical will be interesting, what with the many different types of scenes. hahaha. lovely ladies is FUNNEH. i think choir has many talents, and the singers are mostly good. haha. yay love vj choir.

hmm, sometimes im just so fed up with hormones. it makes me do impulsive things. and it makes me think too much. and it makes me feel upset easily. sometimes when im upset, i'll think about the reason, and i realise that the reason is particularly dumb. its just those stupid stuff. ><

you affect me particularly so.

anyway, i just dont understand the whole thing about love. what's so great about it? i think its just overrated. i crave for love myself, every human being does, but i believe that true love doesnt exist. the feeling will fade away. only the commitment is left, and how long this commitment can last depends on the willpower of the individuals. of course, sometimes i wonder how it feels like to find your right one. a person to love, and trust, and to love you. its really sweet isnt it. but with happiness comes troubles, happiness doesnt last. and anyway what makes a relationship strong is the trials that the couple has gone through. i dont believe in true love without quarrels and whatnot. that's just plain puppy love. hmm, sometimes i wonder if i will ever find true love. i guess not. and although im hoping that i will find true love, it wouldnt affect me much if i dont find it. i'm a realistic person, although i do admit i am a romantic at heart. ah how conflicting. hmm, what will come will come i guess. no point rushing into things.

i believe in you. i know i do mean something to you.

so weird why am i talking about L-O-V-E? im supposed to be heartless, or as some people call it, have a heart of steel. hahaha. but then, a really strong fire can still melt steel you know. (: a really really really strong one. (: you will be able to melt it. will you try?

jealousy is a really strong emotion. sometimes i wonder, what's wrong with feeling jealous? everybody feels jealous at some points. what's so bad about feeling jealous? its a sour feeling, but maybe acknowledging it may make you feel better? ah i dont know. i do admit that i keep getting jealous recently, shant say about what. but its a feeling that really manifests quite frequently nowadays. hope it stops soon, cause it doesnt feel good =X its all bec

ause of you.

ah i think im quite possessive. and attention seeking. ): i dont like.

esp when it comes to you.

oh my love language's touch! (: so people, if you wanna make me feel loved, give me more hugs:D guys and girls are all welcome! hahaha, but dont anyhow touch la. that applies for both guys and girls (you never know what girls can do =/). heh. you make me feel so safe and warm when you hug me. that's when i started loving hugs.

i dont like having my emotions control me, but it does pretty much. this is so shit. teenage hood. hormones. EURGH.

i really really really have to learn to cherish. esp when it comes to you.

and be forgiving.

would you still love me in the morning?

forever and ever, babe.

i miss our old times.

you know im such a fool for you.

hello people!

uh, so got back the rest of the results today.
hmm, 4As and 3Cs. sighh.
what extremes man.

lang arts; 59.6
ss; 56
bio; 74.5

im really such a science person.
can i just fast forward to j1? den can skip all the ss and langarts part and all that. AHH. siann!

ok nevermind, i went to dhs after school. dhschoir was.. erm. yeah its not very good. the members a bit.. i feel like saying some things. but shant say. oh well, all i can say is, JIAYOU choir!

uhhuh went with sherry to eat. talked a bit la. and i waited 20+ mins for 67. with my super heavy bag. eurgh. super tired now. there's choir tmr. maybe i'll sleep early.

hmm. i wanna watch GONG! its such a nice show. SHIN is super cool, super cute. whee i love him mans! ((:

im looking forward to choir tmr. hope it'll be fun. il coro's quite nice to sing, and i wanna do the musical songs! yep quite fun all the choreo, and i wanna do carols! whee. ((:

ok im trying to be happy. yepyep. dont worry be happy!

hello everyone (:

ok so today wasnt exactly the best. but it was meaningful nonetheless. yep so the first lesson was CT, it was really meaningful, and it basically summarized all that ive learnt in the IP. i really think that im very priviledged to be in the IP, and to know all these amazing people in my class. sure, there are some people in the cohort that i dont like, but i really do like my class, and im really happy with how things are in class now. we're all nice people and i think we're starting to enjoy the times spent with each other(: we still have one more year together, so people, let's all cherish the times we have left (: yes and then mr boy asked us to affirm some people in the class, yes and i think that it was really meaningful that we are able to recognize each other's strengths and everything. yes. (:

ok after that we went for 'parent trap', which is a theatre forum. uhhuh it was fun(: the warming up sessions were fun. hahaha all the running around and screaming etc. it was really fun! oosh. so after that it was the play. it was cool la, the actors were good, so convincing (: but that daughter was really too rude. yeah but the issues that she was facing were just about the same as mine, just that im not so rude. yeah. hmm guowei's performance was really entertaining. hahaha. yes and i see a likeness between lemuel and yiling. haha they're both so calm! yep.

after that was a talk by some weird speaker. so i hardly listened, was basically sleeping la. my eyes were closing x.x yep. was telling alicea about my family. she was quite shocked, hahaha. 'ive never seen someone who has so little trust in her family.' hmm i dint know i gave her that impression, seriously im fine with my family, just that the tone i use when talking about them isnt very nice. but that's just the way i was brought up la. yep. im fine with my family really.

yep and then there was a break. we were spending some time with the prc scholars analysing the juniors. hahaha. so interesting we're already bitching about them, oops. hahaha. shant say more =/

yeah after that was chem igniculus. hahaha it was retarded la. and then we got back our chem results.
cohort average: 57
no. of distinctions: 21
mean grade for v11: 3.9
mean grade for v12: 5++
mean grade for v13: 5.o
mean grade for v14: 4.5
so cool. 06v11 did the best again. omg it sounds so bigheaded, but we're really smart (: hahaha. i love 06v11! i heard we did the best overall too. owned physics and owned chem. hope we own bio and langarts too. lol and let's hope we dont disappoint ms toh again. =/ oh well. tmr will be a big day. oh i got 69 anyway, if anyone's interested.

uhhuh went to disturb my sister and her 'boyfriend'. LOL, super interesting.

ok so anyway i went home and then i practised il coro. its quite easy actually. x.x but im scared that when it comes to combined we'll not be able to get our note again. bloops. four/five people nia. cannot rely on anyone. poo. yeah but im looking forward to choir pracs. i wanna SING (:

yeah tmr gotta go school early. must reach by 0715. so irritating. blah. and im going back to dhs tmr. yep. hope rhoda's well now. take care dearie, i know you wont see this, but please get well soon (:

hmm.

today, was kinda crap.

haha we were supposed to go treetop walk.

in the end there were just some briefings,

and we watched spirited away.

hahaha. haku and chihiro so sweet! (:

it's like we were awwing and awwing.

haha. too bad they werent together in the end ):

yep so school ended.

went to find rhoda and we had a nice talk,

for close to two hours. (:

we talked about practically everything.

haha, her problems,

my problems,

choir stuffs etc etc.

i love rhoda!

just feeling so glad that im still so close to her after a year (:

sistas rock!

uhhuh, went for choir after that.

the rehearsal for farewell assembly for mrs chan.

yep after that we finished learning il coro.

i wonder if its spelled correctly =/

anyway, point is,

i think soprani part is so cool.

haha. ok the learning part was easy.

but the singing part is quite difficult,

because there's only four of us (shuwei's helping contralti one),

we cant really catch our note.

esp when we come in after the contralti ones come in.

we're always flat

cos we cant catch the note.

x.x

but its quite fun singing sop1 range la.

hahah. easy to blast.

four people sound like MANY people.

lol! yeah, but since there are only four/five people.

i shall have to go and learn my part better.

yeah.

felt really tired after singing high notes for so long,

but tired in a satisfied sort of way (:

i think choir on sat will be cool.

sing the syf songs, and the musical songs,

and hopefully carols.

whee (x

went out with huping and yuting to eat.

went bedok bk. yep huping left soon after.

so i was just left with yuting, who (thankfully) didnt rape me.

hahaha.

talked quite a lot.

it was nice sharing stuffs with her too.

(:

uhhuh. so its like,

i talked a whole lot today.

feel better about lotsa stuff.

which is good i guess.

love my friends (:

yep getting back chem tmr.

i dont know what to expect.

oh i got 70% for chinese btw.

yeah.

anyway,

MR KOH IS LEAVING.

that is SERIOUSLY so saddening! ):

i like mr koh,

he's been a good ip head,

and a good teacher.

in fact,

he's one of the best teachers i've ever had.

i was looking forward to having him teach me again next year,

and he had to leave ):

ok maybe we should all be happy for him,

that he got a promotion,

but still,

i cant help feeling sad that i wont see him anymore.

he's like, the ICON of VIP.

vip will be different without him.

sigh. ohwell,

mr koh, all the best!

hmm.
got back a few of my results.
ok only two.
so irritating,
lol one paper per day.
its like, killing me!
all the anticipation and everything.
bleah.
wanna know my results?
i dont mind sharing.
lol two extremes, x.x
physics: 146/180 (81%)
maths: 54/100

oh well.
chinese tmr, hope i dont screw up.
and the treetop walk is like, postponed.
because of the dumb haze.
how sad! ):
oh well i wonder what we're gonna do tmr.

there's choir tmr.
i dont mind.
haha.
i kinda like learning the new syf song.
cos the soprani part is easy compared to the contralti I part
heh.
im heng.

uhhuh.
been tearing myself up these few days.
im wondering,
if you even care.
if you knew that i was sad,
would you even show any concern.
well, i know you wouldnt.
i know you too well.
but i just cant help hoping.
and its because of this that gets me hurt
and sad, again and again.
oh well.
this sucks .
you ruined everything.

once again, dont's bother asking me people (:

i wanna go out with my friends!
2b, sistas, sexyfam etc etc.
argh but no time. x.x

was looking at all those vjchoir photos i have.

felt a wave of nostalgia.

hmm, we've really spent so much time together.

good and bad.

and looking at the many events,

woah.

there was seamoe, sov, sco, singapore idol. etc etc.

and those fun times when we went out,

the siglap concert, choir treat, choir bbq.

its funny how we transform from people who barely knew each other,

to such close friends now.

and thinking about it,

they really are the people whom i can trust.

love them (:

haha all those past thingys that we had.

like the temporary choir family,

the big hooha about my eyecandy,

and my lipcandy hahaha.

and all those scandals.

hahaha so fun! (:

i love vjchoir.

we really are a bunch of funloving people.

yes and we all care for each other dont we.

regardless of what others say, those outsiders who are not in vjchoir,

i still believe that vjchoir is a big family.

and our choir anthem really holds true to us. (:

i'll really miss these people when they graduate.

sigh,

shant think about it.

enjoy the times with them now! (:

i realised ive kinda neglected them.

and forgotten about how much i depended on them.

i feel like such an ingrate.

shall always remember how much they mean to me.

haha its always like that, when you spend too much time with someone

you tend to neglect them and forget about how much they mean to you.

i love you all.

thanks for everything:D

vjchoir rocks! (:

pangsehhed four times in two days.
thanks ah.

HELLO PEOPLE.

there was farewell assembly in the morning.
hmm not very sad la.
but still,
its a bit sad to know that the year twos are graduating already.
):
oh well.
and next year it'll be yuting them's turn already. x.x
that's damn sad.
):
farewell assembly was cool though.
i realised vj has a damn lame sense of humor.
haha.
but it's still cool la. (:

im happy today.
i talked to lotsa people during choir,
all those people whom i dont normally talk to.
and im happy really (:

well our rehearsal was bad.
like super bad.
we were flat and then we were sharp hahaha.
interesting.
i think its really time to buck up.
we havent been at our best ever since italy.
and we really needa sing well to show everyone,
that we ARE vjchoir.
yeap.
(:

uhhuh,
so im kinda happy cos i talked alot and was kinda high.
and like i said,
i really like the sopsies (:
yeah actually i like choir people.
all so funny and nice.

yeah after that we went to david's hse.
did nothing much there la.
DEE or D the dog was super funny la.
kinda cowardly hahaha.
but he's still cute (:
and dawnie and me were fondling it hahaha.
we took DEE out for a walk.
and we went to the playground.
i kinda just sat at the swing,
and stoned,
and got a bit emo.
haha. but it dint really affect my mood la (:

went back to david's house and i was
REALLY tired.
huping them went to play monopoly
and yizha oliver sx and their friend, soo played xbox that soccer game thingy.
i was just too tired to play.
and my shoulders were aching.
so i played neither.
and just sat there and watched them play the soccer thing.
yeah den i played one round.
haha oliver says im not bad for a girl!
(: waha so song.
uhhuh.
and huping david sindhu and dawnie were like going crazy over monopoly haha.
bargaining and trading like a bunch of AUNTIES.
haha i watched them and was laughing like shit. lol!
crazy people la them (:
uhhuh den i kinda just fell asleep.
really tired.
lol after that we went home.

oliver yizha huping and me went to eat.
ok technically its just oliver yizha me eating.
huping was nice and accompanied us (:
THANKS HUPING.
second time le. ((:
yeah talked and gossiped and ate.
waha.
not too bad.
it was fun.
eat sumo house.
(:

uhhuh.
i love choir people (:
tmr will be cool la.
though tiring.
hahaha.
i wanna go out at like 12plus. after the choir performance.
haha. hope we dont screw up.
vjchoir rules ((:

he wasnt mine to lose.

and now the night is near

and i can make believe he's here.

**

uhh im getting emo.

my heart is like breaking into a million pieces.

uh.

i dont like this.

ok so today was rather boring.

i did a bit of cross stitch.

haha leftover stuff from last year.

yep and then my sister came home,

we decided to go out and eat something good.

hahaha.

so we went out.

ate pastamania in the end x.x

so much for eating something good.

hahaha.

yep and she bought a shirt for me (:

from pink industrie.

i think pink industrie clothes are REALLY so nice.

hahaha.

i like the shorts, and the skirt.

and the shirts.

and the bags.

and the shoes.

uh everything!

and its 50% off storewide.

someone buy me the whole shop please.

lol. yeah so my sis bought a shirt for me.

dont think that she so nice la,

its my long overdue birthday present haha.

yep (:

so we came home.

yah just like that lor.

hahahaha.

sian.

my day passed in boringness.

LOL.

ok and heartbreak.

bah whatever.

people dont come and ask me.

i wont say hahaha.

**

you were never mine to lose

and im just staring at you

wondering if you will notice me.

oosh.
im happy today! (:

ok so as a continuation of my post just now,
jingjing and me decided to go to the library(:
guai muggers we are.
lol.
read books (:
and i borrowed some voice book,
and the whole series of the chronicles of narnia.
WOOTS. (:
super cool.
im finally able to read in peace!
yippee yay.

uhhuh so we spent a long time reading.
and then we went to eat.
yep just me and jingjing.
alone in our world.
so romantic.
LOL!
yeah.

soon, the lit people finished their exams.
and they were ecstatic hahaha.
screaming and jumping around like a bunch of monkeys.
lol. well they are anyway. =P

yeap and den most of us left for haagen daz!
met some of the rest at esplanade.
haha.
so there was a total of around 21people.
which is good,
cos that's two-thirds of the class.
yeah.
i sat with the girls! (:
puen, debby, jolyn, yiling,
alicea, althea, jingjing, jiemin.
yeah we shared two fondues.
super cool ok.
the fondues are SO NICE!
omg eat until SONG. (:
yesyes it was nice!
there were cookies, and wafers,
and fruits, and different flavours of icecream,
and nuts and woots it was all so nice! (:
yeah and den we stuffed ourselves until we were full haha.
and then we played zong ji mi ma.
and made the chocolate semi harden.
haha. can you imagine how torturous it is,
to eat some semi hardened chocolate,
which looked like shit,
when we are alr like,
scarily full. LOL.
yes. haha. but it was rather fun luh.
and then we played a short round of 'i never'.
haha the scandalous stuff were coming out.
but we hada leave.
ah sad ): hahaha.
yeah so went to esplanade library.
and then i found another book on vocal techniques (:
yeah.
and then, they decided to go to watch world trade center.
haha.
which is sad cos i dont get to go ):
because my retarded father insisted on me going home. argh.
nvm shant get pissed because of that.
but all in all, imma happy girl today!
exams are finally over,
and i had a fun time going out with my class (:
really glad for that.
the girls are all so nice!
(:
i think my class got more united through the exams.
haha what irony.
heh.

uhhuh speaking of world trade centre,
huping them are going to watch today too.
so irritating.
now everybody go and watch le,
nobody to pei me alr ):
yeah, lol.
oosh speaking of choir,
WE'RE HAVING CHOIR AT SIGLAP TMR.
can you imagine how happy i am?
(((:
its been ages since we've been to siglap!
i love siglap. yay!
uhhuh.
im sick of going to school anyway.
haha. maybe i shall mug my scores later.
work hard for choir later wheehee.
siglap makes me think that we're REALLY having a practice.
cos all the practices held in school are quite crap anyway.
haha.
im excited for choir pracs!
i can finally sing in peace now.
wahaha with out all the worries for exams.
yeahhh. (:

uhhuh speaking of all the post exams activities,
i realised i have quite a lot of stuff going on.
1) meeting up with the sistas.

2) meeting up with the sexy fam.

3) meeting up with sj fee them.

4) going cycling with the triplets (i hope)

5) going to althea's hse for the disney princess movie marathon

6) going out with the girls in my class (if there are any more outings)

7) choir pracs!

uhhuh. and some stuff that i wanna do for myself now that ive got more time.

8) read.

9) improve on my singing.

10) improve on my maths and chem and physics.

11) finish my last year's cross stitching.

12) tidy up my table.

13) tidy up my study area.

yes and goodness knows what else.

im looking forward to meeting my friends! (:

whoots i shall go and read the chronicles now.

yes and mug my choir scores.

imma responsible choir member wahahaha.

i got something BIG to announce.

I AM FREE! (:

langarts paper was easy.
haha.
i finished sections A,B and C in one hour.
den i took my time for section D.
hahaha.
so interesting.
ok at least the exams ended on a good note.
hope my results come back ok.

lol chem is screwed.
but i dont care.
because everyone else screwed too.
i think mr shi is cute,
he set the whole paper on chewing gum.
haha. (:

oh.
the tags on my tagboard,im lazy to reply.
haha. but thanks people anyway (:
i love you guys (:

now we're waiting for the lit people to finish their exams,
and we've got nothing to do now.
sigh.
SO SIAN!

anyway,
im sudden excited for carolling!
its gonna be SO SO SO fun! (:
hahaha.
my enthu ness all come back liao.
oosh. and i love the sopsies too!
we're so nice people(:

debbie;
lydia;
juitlian;
jasmine;
kenny;
isabelle;
yvonne;
francesca;
he li;
shuwei;
yuting;

yay i love all of you (:
seriously i think the sopsies are all nice people!
i used to be biased against some of them,
but not anymore!

ok im looking forward to all those choir practices,
it'll be fun yeah people ((:
YAY.

i like my class too.
haagen daz, at long last.
woots! (:
ok so my life is going fine now,
just for that particular aspect.
ah shant think about it.
shant display my EMO-ness.
yeah.
happy happy! (:

yay.
happy but sian.
lol cos i dunno what to do now.
x.x

maybe can go back dhs. haha.
let's see first. (:

went out with the triplets to study today.
it was fun!
(:
i am happy.

the only thing is that im always worrying about my exams.
sigh.
3 more days.
to liberation.
but somehow that liberation doesnt really feel good?
because i know i've flopped my exams.

sigh.
i wish i could do well.
and get good results.
i know i wont.
and im starting to get REALLY worried for chem.
and LA.
i read through my past tests,
and i wonder,
how did i manage to come up with these answers?
cos the answers i write now are totally different.
sigh.

ok i feel like getting a private blog.
shall get one now.
although i know i wont write in it much.
LOL.
i've got nothing much to hide what.
im a very open person yay (:

yes as i was saying,
today was fun!
i miss the triplets!
and it was really nice going to study with them.
like how we used to in july/august that time.
haha.
its been a few months since ive known them.
i mean, wayne and xianyong.
ive know rayrin since, erm sec1? LOL.
so fast! soon they'll be leaving vj.
and going ns ):
that's sad.
but nevermind,
i shall enjoy the times when i still have them with me(:
they're so crap.
haha. and always bullying me.
but im glad everything's fine between us all now (:
YAY.

i shall try my best for chem on mon.
there's nothing much i can do now.
i think i'll still continue working hard after exams.
i wanna pull up my socks for maths.
anyway i should be studying maths since i gotta take r papers anyway.
hmm.
that's such a sad thing.

i have so much to get off my chest.
but i realise i cant say all these here.
so ciao people (:

oh ya.
the haze ah.
my god.
can die!
my throat felt so dry after coming home.
and my eyes hurt.
all indonesia's fault la!
go burn forest for what!

okok bye people! (:

back for my third post.

haha i saw sj's tag,

and i remember that i used to leech off chinese.

haha. all those little little stuff.

i forgot already.

glad to have my memory refreshed (:

i cant wait to meet up with the 2b peeps!

den we can talk about the past.

and talk about all the funny things that we've done. (:

i miss the 2b people!

oh anyway.

i wanted to say.

LILY'S DYING.

oh that's my rabbit anyway.

i dont mention her much cos i dont really touch her a lot.

last time i carried her when she was a baby,

and she scratched me.

from then on i never carry her le.

never really touch her also.

guess im quite a bad owner.

but still,

im quite sad that she's dying.

last time she was fat and everything.

now she's like, skin and bones.

dunno what's happening to her.

she's only 3yrs old!

omg she's dying a premature death.

rabbits are supposed to live till 8yrs old or something.

ohk so maybe she dint really recieve a lot of care from me.

and i dint exactly let her out to play too.

just kept her inside her cage all the time.

guess those muscles of hers didnt get any exercise.

so it shrunk or something.

that's why her legs are so weird now.

sighh.

but i really dint know what to do.

cos i dint exactly love her.

and last time had to keep feeding her,

and changing her bedding.

so irritating and irksome.

was kinda wishing for her to die.

now that she's dying,

i feel kinda sad.

its like im just waiting for her to die anyday now.

she so poor thing.

x.x

my whole family is blaming me for her condition now.

they say i never take care of her properly.

and say i very heartless.

wth its my rabbit leh,

i more xin tong than them la.

i just never show only mah!

and what's done is done alr what.

what they want me to do?

chop off my legs and give her ah?

cant stand it when they keep saying me about lily.

i dint wish for this to happen too right.

hai.

im kinda having mixed feelings too.

i want her to die so she wont have to keep suffering.

its quite saddening to see her so xin ku everyday.

but i'll be sad if she dies.

ha i wont cry.

but i'll be sad.

sigh.

my rabbit leh.

LILY.

sigh.

rest in peace.

my sister's in lurve!
hahahaha.

i have such a whale of a time suaning her everyday.
cos she goes out to study with *ahem* him everyday.
hahaha.

she says they only like each other,
but that's all.
haha but to me that's enough.
they're considered together already.
and she says no, cos they havent held hands.

like wth? there's no need to hold hands what.
what matters is that they know they like each other right?
LOL.

so weird.

yeah its fun to suan her man.
hahahaha.
everytime she comes home i get so much fun.

haha. hope she doesnt get hurt or something.
love isnt something to play around with. =/
mm,
think its quite stupid for people to keep holding on to it.
move on. haha.
i know i will if i were in such a position.
but then again,
ive never been deeply in love before.
hah so i wouldnt know.
but still.
as an outsider,
these types of things arh.
haha.
quite stupid to me.
i laugh when i see it.

ok nvm random rantings.
but still,
MY SISTER'S IN LOVE!
hahaha.
hope she doesnt see this,
if not she'll kill me. hahaha.

this time its gone,
never feel the same.
but we had some good times,
guess its sad just the same.

**

exams have started.

i screwed everything up.

ok so let's see;

mon; lang arts paper1 and 2. (screwed la. but i did my best.)
chinese paper 1 (not screwed, but you'll never know what can happen)
tues; social studies (comfirm screwed)
wed; biology (the paper that i wanted to do well for, and yet i screwed it up)
chinese paper2 (it was fine, but then again, you'll never know)
thurs; physics (screwed)
physics practical (i went to change my answers. x.x so its screwed too)
fri; maths. (TOTALLY SCREWED. its the paper i HAD to pass. and i screwed it up.)

HELLO MATHS R PAPER (:
nice to meet you!

zzz.

what's bloody wrong with me?
i studied so hard.
and its all going down the drain.
i wanted to prove to my daddy that im putting in effort for my studies too.
not just for choir.
and now i cant.
and he can just keep suaning me about choir.
ARGH.

i want a high overall grade.
but its gone now.
hello to low grades.
bye to high grades.
what happened to that may from dhs?

this sucks.
i thought i did alright.
see now i dint.
and even when i play,
i'll just be thinking,
play so hard for what, you didnt do well.

sigh.
i feel so inferior,
esp when it comes to maths.
i really wanted to do well for maths.
i needed the pass.
guess im failing it.
ah.

hello r papers (:
zzz.

i wanted to do well for bio.
i thought i could.
and guess what?
hello mr thermophillic bacteria.
and there, my results,
gone down the drain.

ah.
i know you must be thinking,
nevermind la,
next time work harder lor.

but then,
i think nobody knows how much these results mean to me.
and how much i need to get good grades.
so dont bother trying to console me.
yall are just gonna say the wrong things anyway.

i feel stupid.
no wait.
i am stupid.

and i feel ugly.
stupid exams made all my pimples pop out.
my skin was never good,
but not THIS bad.
sigh.
im ugly.
fugly.
ah.

i kinda lost my passion for choir.
i lost my choral voice too.
im super airy now.
im disgusted when i hear myself sing.
yuck.
and yeah i havent been down to the stone tables this whole week.
mainly because i dint want to see somebody's face.
that disgusting piece of shit.
yeah.
so i havent seen the choir people for a long time.
rayrin asked me if i missed them,
i said no.
ha it was true.
harsh but true.
oh well.

i dont have that drive to sing anymore.
i dont have the drive to do anything anymore.

think i grew up over the exam period.
im like
tired of everything.
sigh.

my friendships.
they're all going down the drain.
esp this one,
which i treasured so much.
ah nvm.
i expected it.
since when have my friendships lasted very long?
ok maybe for the sistas and those dhs people yes.
but that's all.
ah nevermind. im spouting nonsense.

i think im a bad friend.
and i cant be bothered to be nice
and listen to my friend's rantings anymore.
i dont care anymore.
if my friend wants to be sad, emo or whatever.
i'll just let him/her be.
i dont really care.
i mean, its not like whatever i say will have any effect anyway.
it'll just make me feel inferior.

blah.

there's still chem and la paper 3.
im quite confident for la paper 3.
cos they're only stimulus questions.
ahha.
its when i get confident that i do badly.
guess im gonna screw it up again.

and chem.
mr shi said its gonna be easy.
den he added that the first question was quite hard.
which means it'll be tough.
see.
screwed again.

oh and our dearest mrs khet said that maths paper was easy.
'cannot fail one.'
those were her words.
and see.
im gonna fail.
i know i am.

and that physics teacher who invigilated us.
'dont worry la the paper's not that hard.'
yeah right.

see teachers cant be trusted.
eurgh.

**

i think i can say,
i dont want you anymore.