hello ppl

im in school now. haha just had this water fight. HOW DUMB. and i wasted like my time away ):

ohwell at least i had fun. haha.


so anyway, im gonna waste somemore time. going out to parkway with shixuan later. cos he wanna buy ankle socks -.- so lame. HAHA.


i wanna see HIM =X

had choir today.

somehow it dint feel as good as it did last wed.

im looking forward to mon's prac, where it'll be a year one prac. so yeah. haha hopefully it'll be better la.

went to eat with shixuan, huping and jerrold after choir. somehow dint feel very happy also. sigh.

sian.

ahh i dont know what to do. i dont know how i feel now. sigh what's it about you? i never thought that i'll like you. ahh but do i really like you? or is it just infatuation. sigh i dont know! but somehow, i feel that it might just be one sided. if you really do like me, make a move. serious. ahh, i dont know! i guess time will tell.. youre affecting me terribly. sigh.

sci centre

HELLO everyone!

began the day rather badly, as always.

yeap so anyway had 'free' ss today. but also did quite some work la. haha anyway i think 11's turning into the nasi lemak class already la. lol cephas bought up like 10 packets of nasi lemak today la. LOL! yeap so any ways was quite anti la.

after that was maths, AHH so confusing and all that la. lol but when enlightenment comes, the feeling is really very good :D

haha so after that was a double period break. went to the choir room for the second period. lol shixuan and huping came up to look for me. and den after that went down with damn, huping went home though. yeap and then went into the choir room lor. i brought my maths there to do lor :D yep so there were very little people inside, genrong, daniel, jgan and this guy called frederick. lol yeap so kinda slacked around abit. was quite fun la. haha played the capcom puzzle fighter thing. heh :D i lost daniel, but won shixuan. so look who's the biggest loser around=D and i managed to do two maths questions, when i thought i would be able to do none =P lol so yep. some people were saying that lne = 0 arhs. lol. left the room at around 1.55pm. cos had to go for some sci center trip thingy.

set with jerald on the bus, had a good talk with him and sorted out somethings. so how i guess my problems are being solved la. yep so had relatively good fun at the sci centre. sang with rhoda and ylynn some of the old dhschoir songs. lol. was reliving my memories. haha was rather fun :D so anyway, yep went for this talk. damn gay la, me and althea were like fighting over who was kelvin's biggest love. lol and kelvin and althea signed the marriage papers. HAHA.

yep after that was kinda free and easy la. we moved around and looked at some of the exhibits. haha was quite fun la. the whole testing of strength thing. haha some guy managed to use his arms muscles to hit 150 arhs! lol. haha so yep it was rather fun la. you can call it kiddy/childish, but hey some of the funnest things are done when we're young alright.

after that went to macs, saw my nehneh! yep and talked quite a bit with her. lol. after that went back le. sat with jerald again. lol and he was like helping me reply my msgs to sherry because i was eating. lol forgot to say thanks, so THANKS JERALD! =DD

yep anyway, the day progressively got better la. so think today's a good day.

and i'd like to go choir room more often, lol its rather fun:D

choir

choir today was unbelievably fun!

haha ok shall talk about my day. the day in class was alright la. hmm. the same patterns la, have lotsa fun, person X appears and i'll lose all my fun. yep. oh well whatever la, it will take some getting used to i guess. my life in ip1 & ip2 is gonna be like that from now one =/

yep so anyway had psl session today. it was rather fun la. lol better than last weeks one anyway. lol. some game whr we had to shift our butts and shoot ppl with the toy guns. lol it was rather spastic. whr at some point me and kelvin ended up squeezing into one chair, and me, being the nice may, decided to give up the fight and let kelvin win. and thus i had to have a forfeit =/ the people who stood in the middle had to go over to v13 and model or something. lol because darryl came over to do a forfeit and we had to repay them the favour. =X and althea ended up shooting darryl's *ahem*. LOL.

so yep after that was choir. today was year1 prac. quite fun la. lol. dunno how to say, but overall the atmosphere was more friendly. and it felt more warm la. haha. this is how choir's gonna be like for the 2nd semester i guess. haha.

yep after choir crapped around a lot. lol. damn fun la. crap and crap and crap with the year 1s. and there were three year 2s there also, marcus, jeremy yeo and irvin. yep crapped abit with them too. esp jeremy yeo. den he was like so -.- haha! yep so went for lunch with the people at parkway. was rather fun and crappy la. yep im starting to like choir. this is wad the type of practices that i like la. haha. yep.

i have decided to socialise more now. choir people are actually quite nice :D

Ive had enough

ive really had enough.

all these shit, all these crap, all these problems. from now on im not gonna care.

I HATE EFFING DAOKIAS AND PANGSEHERS.

stop talking about expectations. I TOLD yall my expectations. DONT GIVE ME THE CRAP SAYING THAT I DINT, i know bloody well that i did.

stop talking about all these problems and trying to solve them. LOOK we dont click and that's that. go live your own life and i'll live MY life. i cant stand the way you pacify me. really im not like a kid. i dont think that im in the wrong. so stop it. ive really had enough of you.

and you, stop saying that you care. you dont and i bloody well know it. you pangseh me, you dao me. and you can say that you care? SHUT UP. really. youre not worth crying over. much as i care about you, it doesnt matter anymore.

althea[&beau]'s right, dont cry over someone who wont cry over you.


i miss my friends, i miss dhschoir, i even miss twobee.

i miss the sistas, i miss the sexyfam, i miss the choirfam, i miss my laogong, i miss my feevian, i miss angmian, i miss all my old friends.

i miss all those times when i had someone always there for me.

i miss those times when i loved people whole heartedly.

i miss those times when people loved me whole heartedly.

i miss dunman high, i miss the culture there.

much as i love vj, i dont love the people there. i dont even look forward to going to school anymore. maybe i really did make the wrong choice.

***

and the hwk. WALAU what's with the teachers. give hwk like free like that. look we havent got like 50 hrs in one day. and even if we had, we prolly wont get them done.

look at the truckload of work i have:

1) chinese scrapbook
2) lang arts reader
3) maths assignment [exponential equations]
4) maths assignment [logarithms]
5) imagineering
6) electives
7) discussion for maths project
8) study for physics test
9) study for chemistry test
10) study for lang arts test
11) mug choir songs

on top of that, i still have TOTALLY hiong choir practices. and what's worse is that im not even going italy. like what crap is this la.

***

IM NOT HAPPY. i really am not. i need my old friends. ohman.

SCHOOL

today's valentine's day.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

yep so anyway, it was a rather special day today. came into the school being rather happy and hyper. hmm was talking to jerald and was saying that i'll prolly get moodswing later on in the day.

well, im moodswinging now. what can i say? with great expectations come great disappointment. im acting yknow, now. acting happy, i was laughing so happily and all that with alvin and j.t. oh well, i enjoyed their company, but i guess i wasnt really laughing whole heartedly. im sad. i dont know why, this is so shit. maybe its the fatigue that's been accumulating. sigh. i was acting happy, but i cant possibly act happy all the time. ohwell wadever. nobody cares anyway.

maybe im being unreasonable. sigh.

school again

hello people! im in sch again.

lol its 2.43pm now and im waiting for choir, which starts at 4pm. the rest are all gone, because they went to parkway to get stuff. think im gonna go do my chinese hwk first. :D i think imma such a nice hardworking studious gurl.

dont know what's got into me today. im not very happy about some stuffs, and yet im not blowing my top over small things that irritate me. that's good i guess, in a way, it shows im learning how to keep my feelings to myself. i kept laughing the whole day, but somehow, i find myself questioning, am i really laughing? or am i laughing for the sake of laughing? i dont want to sound depressing or anything, i mean im not depressed la [i hope], but recently i see nothing for me to be happy about. i think sometimes i set too high expectations for myself, and for other people. thus i tend to get disappointed more easily. maybe i should just remove my expectations, that way i wont get sad and i wont get disappointed.

bah i dont know what im talking about. its craziness maybe.

im very upset now, and they dont even know. =/

welfare

HELLO everyone!

ytd was class comm elections. quite terrifying.

so anyway, results were announced today. i got the position! so happy. i get to work with kelvin =DD

yep anyway, i thought yiling did a good job. she spoke very well and professionally. and she has good sportsmanship. she told me she will really support me and stuff after the results were announced. i was quite touched. really think she's like a super nice gurl. yay yiling rocks! :D

yep afterthat went out. it was quite fun la. lol.

got nothing much to say. anyway, i just want to thank the people who've shown me so much concern. im really alright yeah. dont worry! imma happy gurl:D

resolutions

1) i will not mood swing in school anymore.

2) i will not throw trantrums anymore.

3) i shall stay happy and be understanding.

4) i shall be magnanimous and forgiving.

5) i shall work hard to do my best in school.

6) i shall not expect too much of people.

7) i shall work hard for choir.

8) i shall be friendly.

9) i shall look at people freshly.

10) i shall be a nice girl.

:D

school

hello people! in sch now. its currently 7.15am. shall have to go down in 20 mins time :D

so a quick post here.

actually, i dont really know what to say.

i mean, what to type?

there's been many things going on recently. not all of them good. feeling quite sad about some issues. hmm i dont know what to say.

im bored! they're all gathered around my table. talking about hwk or something. LOL. such nice studious people.

i wanna watch i not stupid too! who wants to go watch with me? my friends dowan to go watch lehs. )): or rather, we dont have the time to go. sigh.


i dont know what's happening recently. im having problems with BOTH of you. and besides that, im having issues with choir. sigh. what's wrong with our friendship/s its like going downhill steadily. maybe the problem is with me. now i know what it feels like to be ignored and uncared for. then why did you make me feel so cared for last time? just when i thought i could depend on yall. you all had to treat me like that. and crash all my hopes. i dont know what to do now. having so many problems recently, i cant even be happy in class. stop blaming me for being moody and all. do you think i wanted to be like that?

friday :D

HELLO EVERYONE!

arghh my comp conked out on me TWO times. and both times, i was like halfway through my entry. therefore, i have decided to keep shorten my entry:D


yep today was a great day! :D


tie day, got to sing victorian anthem.

bio was like super fun! :D taught althea beau and jerald the degedege lang dang part of zhuliguan. yep and we used the microscope and stuff. waha.

ss was like, amusing. its quite interesting seeing HER flirt with the guys hurh. i mean, its amusing watching her whack jerald and making eyes at them and all that. but she totally crossed the line when she STROKED KELVIN'S EAR. i was like !@#$% la. damn bloody pissed off at her la. its like, old cow eating new grass [lao3 niu2 chi1 nen4 cao1]. HOW COULD SHE TOUCH OUR KELVIN?! sucking asshole. arghs.

hmm anyways, i like my present group! :DD damn super fun la. jerald and his fetish for bullying alicea, which is very amusing to watch. alicea, who get's flustered so easily. lol althea and her contagious high pitched laughter. lol. alvin with his life-saving provisions. alicea and her fragileness. and sanchit and his smartness. waha. quite fun la lesson time.

yep and anyways, electives rock! videomaniac rocks la. i've got althea, alvin, and ian in my group. damn fun ok. we can like borrow the camcorder and like record videos and stuff. its like damn fun and its all hands-on. at first i was afraid that i would regret choosing videomaniac as second choice but in the end i guess it was all worth it :D yay i like electives! its fun. lol.


yep after school went out with the tcsgang, minus june and cephas. went to popular and bought stuff and then after that went to macs to go and eat lunch/dinner. lols. was quite fun la. looking at the spoilt lift, and the maid/mistress and a man playing footsie. lols it was like GROSS. haha. yep slacked around a bit more and than beau and althea left first.

so it was left with me, kelvin and jerald. yep we were like walking around in circles and like going up and down the elevators and stuff. haha. talked quite a lot and all that la. was super fun! suddenly feel like i know them better now and its like i am so thankful for having them as brothers.

THEY ARE THE BEST seriously. ok i saw this chocolate today, the meiji green one, in a big tube. and so the conv goes:

me: this chocolate is nice! reminds me of the days in dhschoir.
jerald: you want i buy for you?
me: nah dowan.
jerald: you want kelvin buy for you?
kelvin: yeah.
me: dowan!
jerald: ok den me and kelvin buy for you.
me: dont want la!
kelvin and jerald: why?!
me: because you all always treat me.
jerald: i never treat you before what.
me: got, you treat me drink.
kelvin: ah but you dint finish the carrot cake ytd.
me: nvm la nvm la. *walks away*

SEE?! they are like so nice la! so damn sweet and all that. i feel so loved! they are like, the best brothers EVER! they take care of me and all that. AHHH. i love my brothers! its like so easy to talk to them and all that. they rock. like infinity times. I AM SO GLAD I HAVE THEM. like seriously really. =DDD waha. in the end they bought the chocs. but im gonna bring it on mon to share with the tcsgang:D

i love my brothers! yay :D

my blog ):

had x country yesterday. wad can i say? it was super darn tiring.

but hey my position was 315. which was quite good already :D

so anyways, i have one thing to say, KELVIN IS SO SEH. he got 53 ok. and it was among the guys. is he seh or is he seh?

im so darn proud of my brother. he is the sehest person around. everything about him radiates coolness:D


anyways, my blog is/was screwed. like real bad. think i edited the template by mistake, and i thought i dint have a back up copy. so i got like damn sad. HOWEVER, after searching through my comp for quite some time, i discovered a back up copy of template. YAY. so happy. i love my skin yeah, so i was quite happy to find the copy. my blog has officially returned to normal =DD


anyway, kelvin rocks! he treated me, jerald and cephas to carrot cake. how much does he rock man. yay i triple love my brother.

before jerald gets jealous and say that im biased, i would like to say that jerald rocks too! although he doesnt run as fast as kelvin, nor is he as seh as kelvin =P no offence jerald, but he is still a very nice brother! he treated me to a drink before too yeah. and lots of stuff la. & he's always been there for me:D ok maybe not always, but SO FAR he's been there for me=D and he was going to make a blogskin for me. (x ok so maybe he likes making blogskins, but i still count it as a plus point yeah :D yep jerald, so stop saying that im biased every morn ok. =D and stop patting my head all the time, im not your dog -.-


i love my brothers! and of course i love the TCSgang too! =D