miss you

sch hols are here! hahas. im quite happy actly. cos like i was so sick and tired of going to school. but haii, so what if sch hols are here? cant even go out lar. have to spend the hols piaing and doing homework.

but anyways, im just happy to be at home lar. hahas. den can wake up late late.(:

i have like a whole STACK of homework lar. should list them down here:

homework:
1) geog newspaper articles. one review, two highlight
2) art thumbnails.
3) art landscape [optional]
4) chi wsh [which i cant find]
5) read animal farm [halfway through]
6) do animal farm overview
7) past year maths exam papers, 2002 and 2004
8) past year geog exam paper
9) past year sci exam paper
10) chi zi tie
11) chi jian bao
12) chi zhou ji

projects/groupwork:
1) chinese oral with leanne

revision:
1) chinese test
2) sci test
3) revise for exams

oh mans. SO MUCH! but seriously speaking, with a little determination, all these homework can be completed within the first half of the week. HOWEVER, i lack the determination and willpower to do it. LOL. so i guess i shall have to take a much longer time to do these homework. hmm i think im gonna tackle one geog article and one jian bao today. plus 5 pages of zi tie, 10 pages if i can manage. oh and i shall finish animal farm today. LOL. wish me luck! if i manage to complete, it'll be GREAT. hahas. im gna be like so proud of myself mans. hahas.

tmr gna go out to white sands and do the exam papers with the sistas. LOL. or rather, half of the sistas? dunno who can go yet larhs, but at least i get to meet them. hahas. sigh i miss the choir famm. ARGH. really miss them lots, its been ages since we all went out. and i meant went out to shopping centres and all that. NOT places like kampong arang, which we went for the very last choir prac. haii. hopefully, we'll get to go out more often after exams. ahh. so sad.

and thinking of it now, i'll NEVER get to go overseas with dhschoir. i'll never get to take the aeroplane with them, i'll never get to see sleeping faces on the coach, i'll never get to stay in the same hotel as choir fam, i'll never get to share rooms with one of the sistas. i'll never get to do so many things with them. really regret it, but what can i do? i cant possibly stay here just for the italy trip. i know i'll regret. haii, thinking of it, there are pros and cons with every choice you make. you just know how to let go and take things easy, but somehow, i just cant let go.

i'll really miss the choir fam, really. this year has been the BEST. really. i mean, as sectwos, we are like kinda the young ones. but we have one year of jnrs to bully xP [joking nia] and like two years of snrs to dote on us and to like teng wo men. den most of us are not in the comm? lol.
even if some of us are in the comm, we dont have to take up the leading roles and to decide on so many things, so things arent so stressful. the snrs were right when they told me that sec2 year was going to be the best year. yeah true, there were some ups and downs, but in choir, i really really enjoyed myself. now im leaving, and i really cant bear to. the people i'll really fang bu xia are going to be the choir fam.

but my mind is set, im comfirm leaving, its been like my dream since sec1. but seriously, sometimes i cant help but wonder why such things as ips existed. why couldnt the whole level like go mainstream together? why cant we lke all just do the same thing as the sec4 batch. why must they like spilt us up and everything? now we have to endure the pain of leaving and the dilemma of choosing where to go. what a lousy thing. bleah.

oh, and the teachers, they more or less suck. but whatever, shant rant and rave about them. they deserve my respect! (: or rather, i should respect them.

what if i dont get into vjchoir? i'll totally like die lar. and i KNOW i'll regret ever going to vj. cos like, choir is my direction in life, if i dont have choir i dont know what i'll do. haii. i cant stand all these lor. and im so nervous about whether or not i can get into vj choir. i know that im not a very strong singer, just maybe average. so its like, haii, there'll be so much competition. i really wanna get into vjchoir, cos its the thing that kinda pulled me to vj. but thinking about it now, what if i cant get in? haii.

guess i shall go and do my work now instead of like sitting here and spouting nonsense. off to my mugger world. ciao.

i miss you. really.