blogger hates me! it seriously does ok, ive not been able to get into it for the past 4 days and thus the stagnant blog. bleah. so therefore i shall blog about something worthy. heehee.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUAN!!
LOVE YOU TO THE MAXEST CORE! (:

yuppies today is xuan's bdae, yay yay! we gave her some nice nice nice presents! whoots(:

hmm, was thinking through stuffs abit ytd, and i got kinda sad larhs. was thinking about the sec4s. haii. i realised that i miss them alot. its like, ages since we've all been in the music room together and having the sec4s sing with us. well frankly, i really miss syf. i feel that that was the ONLY time when we had all strived towards the same goal. sure there were people whom i disliked, but overall, i pretty much loved everyone else. it was only at that point of time when we really tried hard and sang our hearts out. i rmb the few practices just before syf, the one where we sounded super duper nice. the sound was like so 'WOW'. i think everyone really gave it their all. i could feel the elation when i was singing, i really enjoyed myself while singing at that point of time. sure i do still enjoy myself, but there are so many other things on my mind. those pracs before syf were the only ones that i feel were thoroughly enjoyable and fufilling. it felt so good to hear perfect chords coming out of us. i still rmb that time we were slacking, and xueling started playing sunset, we just anyhow sang, and in the end, we had this perfect 'SUN' chord. jerrold and jas.lin were so surprised. LOL. i could still rmb their look. i rmb that time when we sang muranokajiya really really well with miss poh conducting, i could feel all the hairs standing up and everything, and everyone was like really letting it all out, we were all singing expressively and i think we all enjoyed it very much. its just all these little things that makes our times enjoyable.

i rmb all the syf bonding sessions too, although they were not VERY wellplanned, cos they were all sports, but i still rmb how we'll sit around at the basketball courts and talk and just crap. i rmb how we all played volleyball together, the whole lot of us. it was so very fun. i rmb how the snrs were teaching us how to serve, and that's why now, the only thing i can do is to serve XP and i rmb once we had this indoor bonding session where we played murderer(the hold hands one) in the music room. lol, the whole syf choir was playing! although it wasnt exactly very fun, but thinking back, it was quite interesting, imagine playing murderer with 46 ppl? although im sure there are less than that. but still, it was a very unique experience.

and i rmb us going to tuan bai, but it was more of a whole choir thing lar. we went diane's house and slacked for awhile. we were all playing in the play ground and everything and that was actly how the choir famm started. LOL. yeah den afterdat we went to rayrin's hse. the snrs went out to buy food while we childish lil kids just played in the playground again. LOL. afterthat we played mahjong and like daidi and ate some fried stuff for dinner. that was the first time i reached home after 10 am. it was like so super fun. and since there is a first, there will be a second, and a third, and a fourth.. sure enough there were. LOL.

i rmb syf day, when we were all rushing with the makeup, all the gown stuff and everything. and we altos actly sounded horrible on that day, we kept going sharp i think. den like kinda hai the whole choir ldat. and i rmb at the singapore conference hall or something, how we were all so nervous, how we were edging each other on. i rmb that we din sing very well on stage and still rmb that i almost cried when i came out. rmb how the sec4s were so relieved, rmb how ms poh told us to get ready for a silver. i rmb how we were all so dejected and everything. i think everyone thought we'll get a silver. i rmb how me and dada went to long john's to eat and slack our time away, and then someone called and told us we got a gold. i rmb how we ran outside longjohn's and started screaming and screaming. ahh all those memories, good and bad, i feel like its all coming back to me nowadays.

oh and the outing to celebrate the gold for syf. lol. it was very very fun. one of the most fun outings ive ever had. we went jack's place at bras basah(dunno the spelling) to eat. i rmb over 20 of us going in there and eating. and i rmb how we four gurls sat at the long tables with the guy snrs and how we were so sian cos we were so isolated. and i rmb jerrold ordering his steak and offering pieces of it to everyone. i rmb how huping broke a cup when he was trying to make 'fruit punch'. LOL. it was all very fun. and i rmb weirui treating us to neoprints, the altos(: i think we took 3 machines other machines at least [with our own money larhs duh]. it was all so cool. although alot of things also happened on that day, it was really very fun.

its all these small things that is coming back to me, i dont even realise that i had forgotten so many things. i hardly even remembered all these outings we had and everything. it was really very very fun. now, ive realised that i wun be able to add on to my memories with the sec4s any more. i realised that we wun get to sing with the sec4s and the syf choir anymore. its like all very sad, because it really didnt strike me as anything big. i guess i just felt that i could still see the sec4s in school and all, but thinking about it now, its like theyve been a part of choir ever since ive joined. its hard to think that i'll never ever get to sing with them anymore. i mean, yeah i felt this before handover. but during the period after handover, i didnt really feel sad. i was touched for the sake of being touched. i wasnt like sad because i realised all these things. i just did everything for the sake of doing it. but now, i feel this incredible sense of sadness. haii. i guess you might say that im slow hurh, for realising things so slowly. but i really really miss the sec4s. choir feels so different without them around. haii. i guess somethings are really inevitable. i kept saying that i'll treasure them and cherish them, but i feel that i din treasure and cherish them enough. now im so regretting. haii.

and thinking about it, im leaving myself too. into this totally new and different environment. i wun be able to sing with dhschoir again from next year onwards, not as a dhschorister anymore. i'll really miss all the getting ready for concert stuff and everything. i keep saying that i'll cherish and treasure all these things. but seriously, a few months down the road. im sure i'll look back and lament about why i didnt cherish dhschoir and everything enough. i guess when you really miss something, even cherishing it in the past wouldnt help.

ohwell im sorry for boring yall out. LOL. i know many of you think that entries are long and draggy. and since your names are not inside, its pointless for yall to read so much rites? LOL. youre right. heehee. paiseh that yall actly bother reading this whole chunk out. heehee. its actly just me reminscing the past. LOL. just for my own personal pleasure. im sorry if i bored anyone out ks. no more such entries anytime soon. LOL. promise(:

and you hardly ever think about me anymore hurh. do i even matter to you? i dont know if you will be reading this, i guess you will. we used to be quite close, but now, you dont even bother smsing anymore. maybe you just got sick of me hurh, maybe i was just this 'new thing' that you could get to know more about. i dont even know what to do now. i dont know how things can change so much in just a few days. but even though i want to continue being friends with you, what can i do? i dont want to be that pestering thing that keeps hanging on to you. if you really feel that im irritating and have no more wish to talk to me, you know what? i wont talk to you too.

oh and incase i dun get to come online tomorrow,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHER!
<3 !

SISTAS RAWWKS!