However, sometimes, you just can't help but feel as though you're not good enough. How do you believe in yourself when everyone seems to think that you're not good enough?
It's a hundred times worse when you've reached a certain level, thinking 'yes that's not bad but you're probably gonna get better', only to realise that that level was your peak, that it's the best you can ever be. It gets worse, when you realise that you're dropping, falling back to how you originally were, knowing that there's hardly any time for you to improve anymore.
It feels so horrible, and demoralizing, and you just want to give up.
Most people just tell you that all these don't matter at the end of the day, but, who doesn't want to excel in whatever they do?
To have gotten a taste of being near the top, only to have everything crashing down on you, knowing you that you'll never be anywhere near that anymore. Learning that you've disappointed those people who tried so hard to help you and have placed high hopes on you. Man, that really feels horrible.
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