finally

LOL, finally i can get in. it always seems to be the case, i tell people that i cant get into blogger, but everytime i try after i say that, i can get in. so sickening rites? LOL.

28oct
one of the saddest days of my life. seems like things are passing so fast. i remember that i hated this class last year and the larger part of this year. i thought that we were so ununited and that everyone hated me and that i hated everyone. i was always sticking to the choir people and spent all my time wishing for the year to end soon and for the time for me to fly away.

but all these bad feelings evaporated. towards the end of the year, i started loving 2b more and more. i realised that the class didnt suck as much as i thought it did. i realised that the majority of the people were actually very nice. i realised that the class was very fun. i actually had a lot of fun and enjoyable times with the people in 2B. seems like we only cherish the times as the end draws near. but ohwells, i spent the last few weeks of my 2B times in perfect bliss. i felt so happy and peaceful in class. it was only at that point of time when i suddenly realised how much it would hurt to leave this class.

the last day of school was so sad. almost everyone cried. i dont know, it just feels so sad to know that i will no longer get to see the whole of 2B in this class again. i took a good long look at all the distinctive parts of the class. the class logo, the class board, the traffic light thingy and the dustbin at the corner. all the many many details that make up twoBEE. and i took good long looks at the many people in the class. cried very hard too. guess i was trying to get all the sadness out of my chest. but still, i seem to be unsuccessful. so anyways, we took a great many photos and i hugged a great many people. everyone were friends with each other on the last day.
oh and i let many many people sign on my shirt. i think i got the whole class! im gonna treasure. i think if there's ever any showandtell in vj, i'll talk about this shirt.

so anyways. i LOVE 2b. please please everyone try to go for the class chalet oks. its the last one already. im really looking forward to it, and hey im even ponning choir for it. so im really really hoping that everyone will be there yeah. LOVE YALL MUACKS! 2bonafides rocks forever!


29oct
dint do anything much


30oct
dint do anything much too. just spent all the time being in a bad mood and moping around the house because i couldnt see the twobee people anymore. bahs.


31oct
woke up super late and moped around the house again. felt very sick and unable to sing. so sickening, arghs. oh and i spent the most of my morning poking at my crossstich and muttering the name of a particular person. ARGH. nevermind. therefore this has left me in a bad mood. arrived in school for choir and felt even more in a bad mood. but i was acting super hyper too. guess i was trying to cover up my lethargicness and my badmoodness. but dont think it really worked. got so many things to get off my chest. guess i'll just say it.

firstly, choir is SO unfair! i mean, maybe it was all for the good of the choir, but.. haii. the people who are leaving have to seat in one corner by ourselves? that is like labelling us and saying 'we are the extra people' i mean like, we come for choir because we want to collect more memories and to just spend some more time with our section and everything, NOT to just sit in one corner and feel like the most extra people in the world. but i guess we have to spare a thought for the choir also, and not think that just cos we are going, we have to be the centre of attention. but seriously, all i am asking for is to just treat us normally and not treat us like some traitors and extra people. it takes all the fun out of choir, and singing seriously.

sometimes, i really dont feel like coming back for choir anymore. i can just jolly well stay at home and slack the whole time through. what's the point of coming back when you are treated like an outcast and you dont even get to enjoy fun times anymore? i used to look forward to the after choir outings, but now, no one goes for those outings anymore. only me sher and wen go out after choir. its like, so sian. and all those fakeness that's oozing out of some people, i really prefer 2B now. also, i HATE learning new songs, its like, what's the point of learning all these new songs when i dont even get to sing them next year? i can feel all my enthusiasm for choir draining out. and some discoveries that i have made recently have greatly changed my thinking about choir, guess it has somehow affected me. the only thing that is keeping me in choir is the performance in paragon and the sec4s graduation. i guess i'll probably not be coming back for choir after the performances, ohwell i dont know larhs. haii. perhaps im just in this class mood now and not really in the choir mood, guess it wont be long until i look forward to choir again. hopefully.. =X

oh and some people! omygosh why are they like that? arghs! made me in an even badder mood! you! i really want to say all these to you. i guess you'll know who you are when you read this. but ohwells, im leaving soon anyways. it doesnt really matter that much. can you just stop acting innocent and acting like you dont know why the whole world hates you? you are just so FAKE! who knows what you say behind my back when you are acting all goody and nice in front of me. oh and you were such a complete asshole on monday! i really cannot stand you. everything you say have underlying meanings. it really makes my blood boil when i hear it. stop saying those stuff with double meanings while acting all nice and innocent at the same time. of course, other people who dont know as much will just think you are making a comment, but PLEASE! i, for one, know what you are talking about, as well as many other people. so please, stop acting like you dont know why all these is happening. reflect on yourself! argh i really dont want to carry on anymore. i should just not carry on these rantings.


i think im falling sick, as in really sick. can feel my breathing going all wheezy and stuff. asthma coming on i guess. hope i'll get better before the 2B chalet, if not i'll KILL MYSELF.


so.. tata everyone! that's all to keep yall going until my next update, which will prolly be a long time away:D