Of random thoughts.

The past month has given me more HTHTs with my various groups of friends than I've had with my friends for the past one year.

As I'm listening to what my friends say, it strikes me hard that we've all grown up. At this age, we're all thinking about life - relationships, degrees, work, families, marriage, children. Of course, different people think about each aspect to a different degree.

But one bad thing is the negativity I hear about relationships. So many people around me end up breaking up because they're just 'not ready for a relationship'. Others complain about how there is just 'no spark'.

But, how do you know when you're ever ready? How do you create the spark? How do you know when you meet Mr Right?

The truth is, you never know.

To me, relationships are about taking the plunge, about making things work. And that's the thing I see which other people lack. I do not confess to be an expert on such things, nor do I think that I'm having the perfect relationship now, but I just think that many a times, people simply do not give their relationship a chance.

When a problem comes up, they simply say, 'this is not right', and run away from it. It just cultivates a habit doesn't it, and it cultivates the cynicism in them.

Why not give the relationship a chance? Why not try to talk things through? Isn't a relationship about compromise? About commitment?

Maybe I was just lucky to have found someone who's willing to put in as much as I do. But whatever it is, just don't lose hope. And before you blame the other party, examine yourself. Think about what you can do to make things better before you start thinking 'hey, this is not working'.

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I really must thank God for the life and friends that he's given me currently. He's given me a wonderful person to share my life with, and amazing friends which I know I can keep for a long time. He's also strengthened the bonds within my family, I can see how we treasure each other so much more now.

And I must say, God really works in amazing ways. And he always answers my prayers. He's blessed me with so much, and it's so comforting to know that I have Him to run to whenever I worry, and whenever I have any problems. Because I know that everything is in His plan, and that he'll make things right in the end.

I just have to trust in Him and believe that I will make it out eventually.

I have always been fearful of letting my family know about my relationship with God. But I think it's time for me to start to let them know about Him. My walk with God makes up such a big part of me, and I need to start embracing this, as well as letting my family know that this is part of who I am.

Hello Again.

I'm back here! After more than a year.

I wanted to come back here because I was just so happy. So happy after the v11 chalet yesterday. I wanted to write down how I feel, because I know this will be a treasured memory of mine for years to come.

Every v11 chalet, I have loads of fun and add one more fantastic memory to my stash of v11 memories. And I do love v11 so, it's the best class I've ever been in. The people there mean so much to me. They're friends that I'd want to keep for the rest of my life. Hopefully I'd get to know their spouses, attend their weddings, play with their kids, grandkids... etc and etc

And I can see that happening for a lot of these people, Althea, Alicea, Pu En, Kelvin, Yiliang, Jing...

I love jamming. Sometimes I forget how much I love singing, but whenever I sing, I feel that happiness creeping over me. That sense of contentment. I don't ever want to stop singing, even though yeah I don't think I sound that good sometimes. But it's okay, I still love singing all the same.

And the jamming session yesterday was awesome. With JT on the guitar, althea and alicea to harmonize with me. How great was that!

I just feel so happy. So happy. Unexplainable happiness, and this happiness comes from seeing all my beloved old friends.

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So much on my mind these days. The past year has been one full of ups and downs. Reading through all my past blogposts bring back waves and waves of nostalgia. All the past memories which I held so dear to my heart but have forgotten about.

I shan't forget this place anymore. I've been meaning to delete it for ages but couldn't bear to because I wanted to be able to read this for years to come.

Anyway, nobody reads this blog anymore :) So I can actually write more without worrying about others reading it.

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Note to self,

I have to stop worrying about others judging me. Because afterall, the success will be mine to achieve, and the friends will be mine to keep.