i dunno what the hell i was thinking today.
i dunno why i did what i did.
i dunno why i said what i said.

i shouldnt have. argh now its gonna be damn weird i agree. but being weird is much better than talking about all these and making things go even worse. i know i shouldnt have even mentioned it, cos i bet it sucks that i left things hanging.

well i didnt want to continue partly cos i didnt know how to phrase what i feel. and i realised there's no point in me talking about all these because its just a problem on my part.

im sorry.

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'youre reminding me of last year'

ah i still havent grown up. childish and immature and unreasonable. that's what i am. a leopard never changes its spots. im such a failure.. no matter how much i try to change myself, to stop being so unreasonable. i just cannot do it. im still that same person from two years back. and im ashamed of that. seeing that comment really hurt. :(