now the night is near,

and i can make believe he's here.

**

yeah. i just wasted 5hrs of my life.

how retarded is that.

went for shuwei's voice concert.

very few people were good.

BUT, at least shuwei was good :D

and that cjc sc, super zai.

omg her voice is damn nice.

yes.

and a few others were good.

but out of the 25 singers, i can say there were AT MOST 7 good ones.

and i sat through 46songs ok, 3 HOURS. bleah.

oh and we got her a BIG GREEN BANANA.

hahaha.

its the one from action city,

can hug to sleep one.

she was SO SHOCKED when oliver revealed it.

hahaha.

hm. had to go home on the mrt myself, cos most of them took bus.

bleah.

it was like, 12am when i reached bedok interchange?

SO SCARY OK.

see that's the reason why a boyfriend is needed.

yeah confiding in sherman now.

its funny how i can tell him so many things,

when ive hardly talked to him in real life.

ha.

guess 'strangers' make the best confidantes.

not saying that we're strangers,

i knew him since last year.

but since we dont see each other much,

i feel like i can tell him more.

hmm.

everything's so disappointing.

i feel like i've just wasted my effort again.

i said so much,

it just didnt work.

reading it,

i felt heartache.

do you even know?

well i guess you dont.

you never do.

there's so much i want to say,

but so little i can say.

hm maybe i should open a private blog.

that's food for thought..

i hardly mugged today.

i cant believe i spent 2half hours on ONE pathetic chapter in bio.

transport across membrane.

wth is it so difficult that i have to spend so long on it?

no right!

omg what's bloody wrong with me.

THERE'S NO MORE TIME.

15 days to finals.

how stupid i was,

to think that i was important in any way.

im just not.

im just.

worthless.

to him.

i hope it comes true.

i hope the game goes my way.

yes it will,

may, believe in yourself.

it will.

**

i dont believe in love,

youre starting to make me believe in it.