if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world.

**

exams are irritating.
and worrying.

i wanna sleep early today.
its already 12.13am.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YUXUAN.
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHERRY.

love the two of you (:

yeah.
im really trying so hard.
you fill my thoughts.
but there is just so much i can do.
i know that whatever i do wont be appreciated.
but one day,
it will be about me.
one day you will be the one
who will experience what i am feeling now.
just one day.
one day.
im waiting.

believe.

i read somewhere
that girls are talkative.
and that they cant blame guys for not listening.
humph.
who says.
LOL.
ok so maybe it's true to a certain extent.
but still,
its not an excuse for guys not to listen.

please,
dont let it happen.
dont. let me grow to love you.
it will just destroy me.
please.

i still do love jonathan.
woots (:

friendships are so hard to mantain.
different people have different priorities.
sometimes it really hurts.
and sometimes you've just gotta tell yourself
to lower your expectations.
sometimes you really just cant help it.
i really dont like it when my friendships deteoriates.
its always like that.
all those talks of being friends forever.
never forgetting each other.
its all just crap.
we cant even be sure that our friendship will not sour
in the near future.
sigh.
i really treasure all my friendships.
esp this one.
but sometimes,
i just cant help being who i am.
im worried.
and you dont really care.
there i go again.

**

should i stay
or should i go?