im sorry. but this post will be somewhat vulgar and angsty and basically just berating a particular person. im in the com lab now btw. anyone who does not want to view vulgarities, pls go away.
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FUCK you man. wad's your bloody problem. cant you tell that everything is about you? AND YET you dont know wad is happening. i think you know wad is happening. you are just faking it, trying to act innocent so that no one will blame you for anything. yeah rite. can you just totally like FUCK OFF? stop sticking around so much, no one wants you. stop sticking around and causing so much trouble. you just so suck. i think you dont even know that so many people hate you. i think you dont even know that i am talking about YOU. you are the cause of everything, you are a total wrecker. just totally get lost. ive been trying to bear with you all day. its a wonder i dint blow my top at you. just totally SHUT UP and get your FUCKING HELL ASS out of here. you should just reflect on yourself. FUCK OFF.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
cry day!
ohmans today is such a cry day. LOL. so funny cans. ok maybe it aint really that funny. but i guess im happy about today. yeah. to an extent..
hmm, firstly, a big THANK YOU to all those who have showed me concern about my last two episodes (?) LOL. yeah, but really thanks for all the concern. i really love yall! and yeah, sistas ROCK! ((:
ok, so today i solved the majority of my problems. only left with one more, which concerns me indirectly. hmm yeah. and today lotsa people cry lar. its such an emotional day can. so sad ymy. haii.
but yeah, i guess everyone should just sort everything out. cos we care for one another rites? we shouldnt just let an individual break us up. we will always stay the same, be it this year or next. we'll might not always be the same, but our feelings will always be there! please, dont let this individual just break us up lidat. its not worth it. please. and i really dont wanna see more people getting hurt. two is enough. please just let this thing be over and we'll go back to the old days. i really love yall(: p.s. this is not targeted at the sistas. (:
yupps. and anyways ive found out today that things should really be sorted out before they take a turn for the worse. for it'll only hurt people.
hope that things will improve. and that everything will go back to normal. (:
hmm, firstly, a big THANK YOU to all those who have showed me concern about my last two episodes (?) LOL. yeah, but really thanks for all the concern. i really love yall! and yeah, sistas ROCK! ((:
ok, so today i solved the majority of my problems. only left with one more, which concerns me indirectly. hmm yeah. and today lotsa people cry lar. its such an emotional day can. so sad ymy. haii.
but yeah, i guess everyone should just sort everything out. cos we care for one another rites? we shouldnt just let an individual break us up. we will always stay the same, be it this year or next. we'll might not always be the same, but our feelings will always be there! please, dont let this individual just break us up lidat. its not worth it. please. and i really dont wanna see more people getting hurt. two is enough. please just let this thing be over and we'll go back to the old days. i really love yall(: p.s. this is not targeted at the sistas. (:
yupps. and anyways ive found out today that things should really be sorted out before they take a turn for the worse. for it'll only hurt people.
hope that things will improve. and that everything will go back to normal. (:
Sunday, September 18, 2005
bleah ><
so, it has resorted to slamming each other on our blogs. if that's wad you want, fine.
i dont hate you. im just pissed, if you want to think i hate you, den go ahead. fine.
how do you expect me to tell you to your face. yeah you said 'would you mind?' wad did you expect me to say? 'yes i do mind'?! and besides, i think you knew i was pissed. i had to act as if nothing happened, if not the rest will feel so awkward. i told her that i wasnt going to affect the rest. i promised. so i had to act like nothing happened. and seriously, i wasnt angry yesterday already, just pissed. you know i dont fake. i can be polite, but i wont fake. you wont expect me to be hugging you when im still pissed.
yeah you went cos of your fren. and what about me? im a piece of shit? something that you dont even care for? yeah the rest had other things to do, but i didnt have. i know i shouldnt expect you to just give up everything for me. but look, you were the one who was organising the thing with me. if its not called pangseh then wad is it called?
besides, you PROMISED to go with me, i was the one who asked first. not your fren. you can say you are pangsehing your fren, but what about me?
i know your reasons. i know why you went there. she told me. i told her that i wont forgive you so soon. not so soon. but i will. you should know my 'sui bian ni la' you should know it wun mean anything good. wad was i supposed to say? 'NO I FORBID YOU TO GO!'? was i supposed to say that huh? what could i say?
i was looking so forward to that outing, but in the end everything was spoiled, everything fell apart. this shows i cant really rely on yall for anything. yeah i had fun with my classmates. i dont regret going out with them, but still its disappointing. you had let me down. if you werent comfirm going with me, you shouldnt have promised me.
and you said that i accused you, i dint. he WAS a factor of your decision. maybe not the final deciding one. but he afterall WAS a factor. and you know what? he knows that himself. no one told him anything, he just KNEW. i told him you were going there, and he said that he knew why. he said that it was cos of him. like please, even HE thinks that way. im not wrong to think that way too.
and you said that i din give you a chance to explain. i was online just now, i came to talk to you, you said that you didnt want to disturb me. so what's that? you were given the chance, you din bother to explain. you should have explained right from the start. and that day when we were walking together, you just acted sian, i waited for you to explain. you dint. and that's when i went home and wrote the previous entry. dont blame me for not giving you the chance. you din grab hold of it.
ytd, i waited the whole night for your call, your sms, what did you do? NOTHING.
i do love you too. that's all i can say. but i am pissed. you should know what to do. i wont eat you up. you know i wont. if you choose to leave me alone, then fine. things REALLY wont be the same anymore.
i dont hate you. im just pissed, if you want to think i hate you, den go ahead. fine.
how do you expect me to tell you to your face. yeah you said 'would you mind?' wad did you expect me to say? 'yes i do mind'?! and besides, i think you knew i was pissed. i had to act as if nothing happened, if not the rest will feel so awkward. i told her that i wasnt going to affect the rest. i promised. so i had to act like nothing happened. and seriously, i wasnt angry yesterday already, just pissed. you know i dont fake. i can be polite, but i wont fake. you wont expect me to be hugging you when im still pissed.
yeah you went cos of your fren. and what about me? im a piece of shit? something that you dont even care for? yeah the rest had other things to do, but i didnt have. i know i shouldnt expect you to just give up everything for me. but look, you were the one who was organising the thing with me. if its not called pangseh then wad is it called?
besides, you PROMISED to go with me, i was the one who asked first. not your fren. you can say you are pangsehing your fren, but what about me?
i know your reasons. i know why you went there. she told me. i told her that i wont forgive you so soon. not so soon. but i will. you should know my 'sui bian ni la' you should know it wun mean anything good. wad was i supposed to say? 'NO I FORBID YOU TO GO!'? was i supposed to say that huh? what could i say?
i was looking so forward to that outing, but in the end everything was spoiled, everything fell apart. this shows i cant really rely on yall for anything. yeah i had fun with my classmates. i dont regret going out with them, but still its disappointing. you had let me down. if you werent comfirm going with me, you shouldnt have promised me.
and you said that i accused you, i dint. he WAS a factor of your decision. maybe not the final deciding one. but he afterall WAS a factor. and you know what? he knows that himself. no one told him anything, he just KNEW. i told him you were going there, and he said that he knew why. he said that it was cos of him. like please, even HE thinks that way. im not wrong to think that way too.
and you said that i din give you a chance to explain. i was online just now, i came to talk to you, you said that you didnt want to disturb me. so what's that? you were given the chance, you din bother to explain. you should have explained right from the start. and that day when we were walking together, you just acted sian, i waited for you to explain. you dint. and that's when i went home and wrote the previous entry. dont blame me for not giving you the chance. you din grab hold of it.
ytd, i waited the whole night for your call, your sms, what did you do? NOTHING.
i do love you too. that's all i can say. but i am pissed. you should know what to do. i wont eat you up. you know i wont. if you choose to leave me alone, then fine. things REALLY wont be the same anymore.
Friday, September 16, 2005
a bad start to a bad day.
im utterly disappointed in you. you can actly just pangseh me ldat for him. it wouldnt have mattered so much if you HAD to go, it wouldnt have mattered so much if it was cos of something else. but the fact that you pangseh me for him, it pisses me off. my life doesnt revolve around him, but clearly, YOURS do. wld it matter if he was going with us? no it wont. fine. wadever. im going wid my class ppl anyways, its been a long time since i went wid them. maybe its time for me and them to bond, ppl who will appreciate me. you can just go and do wadever you want. cos i dont care anymore.
i know i shouldnt be slamming you on my blog. but i dont care, you see it sooner or later. i was so damn miserable for the whole day, and poor fee, am and wendy had to endure my rantings. its not their fault, why should they endure all these?
i dont care anymore.
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im excited about tmr anyways, hope it'll be as fun as last yr. anyways, im starting to love my class ppl. yay. yall rock!
btw,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!
love you! <3
im utterly disappointed in you. you can actly just pangseh me ldat for him. it wouldnt have mattered so much if you HAD to go, it wouldnt have mattered so much if it was cos of something else. but the fact that you pangseh me for him, it pisses me off. my life doesnt revolve around him, but clearly, YOURS do. wld it matter if he was going with us? no it wont. fine. wadever. im going wid my class ppl anyways, its been a long time since i went wid them. maybe its time for me and them to bond, ppl who will appreciate me. you can just go and do wadever you want. cos i dont care anymore.
i know i shouldnt be slamming you on my blog. but i dont care, you see it sooner or later. i was so damn miserable for the whole day, and poor fee, am and wendy had to endure my rantings. its not their fault, why should they endure all these?
i dont care anymore.
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im excited about tmr anyways, hope it'll be as fun as last yr. anyways, im starting to love my class ppl. yay. yall rock!
btw,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!
love you! <3
Sunday, September 11, 2005
leanne's house
helllo everyone, im currently at leanne's hse with 2/3 of the sexy famm. LOL. with ching, neh, and chuck. apparently just now they were flooding my tagboard. LOL.
came to la's house at 2 oclock today. like so early ks. LOLOL. den we were just crapping and doing our dumb chinese kou yu biao da. LOL. den ching and chuck came and joined us at 5 pm. LOL. den ching the drama queen was like we are at street 21!! ohmygod, we're LOST! omg! omg! and me and la were fooled ks. maybe she can just win the oscarand then we were going to go meet them at pasir ris interchange. LOL. we are so innocent cans. LOL.
den afterdat we ate our dinner. and chuck and ching hadnt wanted to IMPOSE on neh. LOL. but they succumbed to the temptation in the end. so in the end they IMPOSED on neh too. LOL.
and me who got even lower than neh for the art landscape, im actly doing all the drawing cans? LOL. they must so thank me ks! yeah babeh yeah.
and neh says that im hogging her com!
ok they are like so hammering me now. esp ching!! arhh. help!! omg...
ching says: maymay has been RAPED!!ive gt the evidence
may says: and they are now looking at my hp! and reading my sms. bleah.
came to la's house at 2 oclock today. like so early ks. LOLOL. den we were just crapping and doing our dumb chinese kou yu biao da. LOL. den ching and chuck came and joined us at 5 pm. LOL. den ching the drama queen was like we are at street 21!! ohmygod, we're LOST! omg! omg! and me and la were fooled ks. maybe she can just win the oscarand then we were going to go meet them at pasir ris interchange. LOL. we are so innocent cans. LOL.
den afterdat we ate our dinner. and chuck and ching hadnt wanted to IMPOSE on neh. LOL. but they succumbed to the temptation in the end. so in the end they IMPOSED on neh too. LOL.
and me who got even lower than neh for the art landscape, im actly doing all the drawing cans? LOL. they must so thank me ks! yeah babeh yeah.
and neh says that im hogging her com!
ok they are like so hammering me now. esp ching!! arhh. help!! omg...
ching says: maymay has been RAPED!!ive gt the evidence
may says: and they are now looking at my hp! and reading my sms. bleah.
i love singing!
omg i love singing. i really do. i dont know how im gna live without singing. i mean, i really enjoy myself thoroughly when im singing. and when im angry, singing calms me down. like real effectively. singing really means the world to me. im so so so glad i joined choir. joining choir has let me discover my passion for singing. i really dont know what i am going to do without singing. i cant imagine a world without singing.
I LOVE SINGING! (:
whoopi!
I LOVE SINGING! (:
whoopi!
Friday, September 09, 2005
chicken invaders2
LOL. so i played chicken invaders 2 again. LOL. but poo! i finished up my twenty minutes. :( looking on the bright side, at least i got to wave 74. and YAY i got past mars and reached earth ks. so i kinda fufilled my wish! yayay. like happiness can. LOL.
chicken invaders 2 is really really nice. and oh, my score was 4 million plus plus plus. so rocks rite? hahas. i rock man. pro sia. hehehe. but on the downside, my fingers are hurting. and wads worse is that my right wrist's hurting too. sad mans. i need my right wrist to do lotsa things. i cant afford to let anything happen to it! hahas. i guess all these are signs of me using the comp too much. guess i should cut down.
oh and i got other games to recommend. yall should try pizza frenzy, diner dash, and barnyard invasion! haha. most importantly, should try chicken rush. its something like chicken invaders 2! only its more cartoon and vibrant and more messy. heehee. but i prefer chicken invaders lar. simple and fun! yay!
ohmans why am i blogging about games? shows how sianded i am like can.
hahas. ok shall blog about hwk. xP
i managed to finish my last maths paper and finish up all my newspaper articles. hahas. this means that im only left with my section C of the last sci paper, zhou ji and most importantly, my art thumbnails. of course im still have to meet neh to do the kou yu biao da and the rest to draw out the final version of the art piece.
hahas. im quite proud of myself, although i din do much. but at least i did something everyday. LOL. finally im no longer SUCH a procrastinator. hahas. but poo, i dont think i have the time to mug liaos. heehee.
basically spent my last few days sleeping late and waking up late. LOLOL. and i holed myself up in another room during the day and finished up my homework while listening to the discman and ocassionally taking breaks and figuring out lyrics. hahas. i also played com and gameboy and slacked around lar. oh and i also read my harry potter books! yay.
what a boring holiday i have, but at least its not too busy. x)
whoopi!
chicken invaders 2 is really really nice. and oh, my score was 4 million plus plus plus. so rocks rite? hahas. i rock man. pro sia. hehehe. but on the downside, my fingers are hurting. and wads worse is that my right wrist's hurting too. sad mans. i need my right wrist to do lotsa things. i cant afford to let anything happen to it! hahas. i guess all these are signs of me using the comp too much. guess i should cut down.
oh and i got other games to recommend. yall should try pizza frenzy, diner dash, and barnyard invasion! haha. most importantly, should try chicken rush. its something like chicken invaders 2! only its more cartoon and vibrant and more messy. heehee. but i prefer chicken invaders lar. simple and fun! yay!
ohmans why am i blogging about games? shows how sianded i am like can.
hahas. ok shall blog about hwk. xP
i managed to finish my last maths paper and finish up all my newspaper articles. hahas. this means that im only left with my section C of the last sci paper, zhou ji and most importantly, my art thumbnails. of course im still have to meet neh to do the kou yu biao da and the rest to draw out the final version of the art piece.
hahas. im quite proud of myself, although i din do much. but at least i did something everyday. LOL. finally im no longer SUCH a procrastinator. hahas. but poo, i dont think i have the time to mug liaos. heehee.
basically spent my last few days sleeping late and waking up late. LOLOL. and i holed myself up in another room during the day and finished up my homework while listening to the discman and ocassionally taking breaks and figuring out lyrics. hahas. i also played com and gameboy and slacked around lar. oh and i also read my harry potter books! yay.
what a boring holiday i have, but at least its not too busy. x)
whoopi!
Thursday, September 08, 2005
chicken invaders 2
ok, so i finally admit, chicken invaders 2 IS very nice. but i only have the trial version :( so i can only play it for like twenty minutes more. LOL. so i shall make full use of the twenty minutes and get to MARS! whoots.
lol. i use to hate chicken invaders when the rayrin told me to play it, he said it was fun, i thought it was super lame and boring, like you just hit and shoot and shoot those damn coo-coo chickens. LOL. so stupid sia. but i guess ppl change, right - ? ;) its actly quite fun to like shoot the chickens and to avoid the eggs. LOL.
i got to wave 47 and died. like so sad :( my score was over a million plus plus plus. SO LOUSY. argh. i shall do better. but i can only play it for 20 mins. after that i'll have to buy the thing. so sad :( anyone knows the registration key?
i turned on the com in the middle of the night just to play chicken invaders 2. ohh and my fingers are hurting due to overexertion cos i pressed on the mouse too many times. lol. this shows when you are getting addicted. LOL.
LOL. why am i blogging about chicken invaders 2? shows how bored and coo-coo im turning.
maymay's a coo-coo kia!
LOL. its 1.33am now. should i sleep?
guess not.
maybe i shall go and find other games x)
but ciao anyways. LOL.
ohh and one last thing. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to my youngest sister! (:
whoots we are going to go jack's place in the evening. yehman!((:
lol. i use to hate chicken invaders when the rayrin told me to play it, he said it was fun, i thought it was super lame and boring, like you just hit and shoot and shoot those damn coo-coo chickens. LOL. so stupid sia. but i guess ppl change, right - ? ;) its actly quite fun to like shoot the chickens and to avoid the eggs. LOL.
i got to wave 47 and died. like so sad :( my score was over a million plus plus plus. SO LOUSY. argh. i shall do better. but i can only play it for 20 mins. after that i'll have to buy the thing. so sad :( anyone knows the registration key?
i turned on the com in the middle of the night just to play chicken invaders 2. ohh and my fingers are hurting due to overexertion cos i pressed on the mouse too many times. lol. this shows when you are getting addicted. LOL.
LOL. why am i blogging about chicken invaders 2? shows how bored and coo-coo im turning.
maymay's a coo-coo kia!
LOL. its 1.33am now. should i sleep?
guess not.
maybe i shall go and find other games x)
but ciao anyways. LOL.
ohh and one last thing. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to my youngest sister! (:
whoots we are going to go jack's place in the evening. yehman!((:
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
noth
todae went for a sistas mugathon. LOL. but a pity only me sher xuan and fei were there. dada and wen couldnt make it. so sad. boo. but anyways, we saw tingpei, bernice, jiahui and zhiqian there. they left for their CO later anyways. haha.
i think studying together is so cool oks. i finished two and 1/3 papers todae within 6 hours! that's so pro lar cans. hahas. and i did EVERY SINGLE QUESTION ok. NO BLANKS! (: haha. yupps. if i did those papers at home, i would have taken 6 hrs to do less than one paper. cos i'll be so distracted by the harry potter books, the tv and the comp. hahas. so a sistas mugathon is VERY effective. LOL.
fei wear until so sexy today cans. hahas. sphaghetti straps. hahas. seh! haha. i tie my hair until so high todae can. tied at like 10am? now is 2.16 am and im still not taking them off. and its a VERY tight ponytail somemore. argh my poor head. LOL. yeah and i just really really miss choir ppl. i miss dada and wenwen and weirui and rayrin and louis and mama and stanger. haii. so long never hang out with them ler.
hmm after i went back home, my dad told me we were going swensens. LOL. seh man! and i was so damn excited can. haha. get to eat expensive food again. after such a long long time. hahas. yeah i ate my beloved sirloin steak. and i ate 1/5 of my sister's pasta and i ate a bigg chocolate icecream. LOL. i rock cans. my appetite is increasing! whoots. (:
yeah and reached home at 10? been online since then, until now. tmr i shall attempt to finish a maths paper and the remaining science paper. oh and 5 pages of zitie. LOL. i shall be a guai kia and mug!
oh and ching and chuck, if you are reading this, we have to meet up for the art! so how arhs? maybe we go neh's house? cos i need to go her house for chi oral. den i go her house in the morn, den yall go meet us in the afternoon cans? LOL. love yall! <3 ((:
ok shall go sleep so that i can wake up bright and early to mug. oh and can ppl gimme some suggestions on how to mug? LOL. im a guaikia. CHEERS! (:
i think studying together is so cool oks. i finished two and 1/3 papers todae within 6 hours! that's so pro lar cans. hahas. and i did EVERY SINGLE QUESTION ok. NO BLANKS! (: haha. yupps. if i did those papers at home, i would have taken 6 hrs to do less than one paper. cos i'll be so distracted by the harry potter books, the tv and the comp. hahas. so a sistas mugathon is VERY effective. LOL.
fei wear until so sexy today cans. hahas. sphaghetti straps. hahas. seh! haha. i tie my hair until so high todae can. tied at like 10am? now is 2.16 am and im still not taking them off. and its a VERY tight ponytail somemore. argh my poor head. LOL. yeah and i just really really miss choir ppl. i miss dada and wenwen and weirui and rayrin and louis and mama and stanger. haii. so long never hang out with them ler.
hmm after i went back home, my dad told me we were going swensens. LOL. seh man! and i was so damn excited can. haha. get to eat expensive food again. after such a long long time. hahas. yeah i ate my beloved sirloin steak. and i ate 1/5 of my sister's pasta and i ate a bigg chocolate icecream. LOL. i rock cans. my appetite is increasing! whoots. (:
yeah and reached home at 10? been online since then, until now. tmr i shall attempt to finish a maths paper and the remaining science paper. oh and 5 pages of zitie. LOL. i shall be a guai kia and mug!
oh and ching and chuck, if you are reading this, we have to meet up for the art! so how arhs? maybe we go neh's house? cos i need to go her house for chi oral. den i go her house in the morn, den yall go meet us in the afternoon cans? LOL. love yall! <3 ((:
ok shall go sleep so that i can wake up bright and early to mug. oh and can ppl gimme some suggestions on how to mug? LOL. im a guaikia. CHEERS! (:
Monday, September 05, 2005
miss you
sch hols are here! hahas. im quite happy actly. cos like i was so sick and tired of going to school. but haii, so what if sch hols are here? cant even go out lar. have to spend the hols piaing and doing homework.
but anyways, im just happy to be at home lar. hahas. den can wake up late late.(:
i have like a whole STACK of homework lar. should list them down here:
homework:
1) geog newspaper articles. one review, two highlight
2) art thumbnails.
3) art landscape [optional]
4) chi wsh [which i cant find]
5) read animal farm [halfway through]
6) do animal farm overview
7) past year maths exam papers, 2002 and 2004
8) past year geog exam paper
9) past year sci exam paper
10) chi zi tie
11) chi jian bao
12) chi zhou ji
projects/groupwork:
1) chinese oral with leanne
revision:
1) chinese test
2) sci test
3) revise for exams
oh mans. SO MUCH! but seriously speaking, with a little determination, all these homework can be completed within the first half of the week. HOWEVER, i lack the determination and willpower to do it. LOL. so i guess i shall have to take a much longer time to do these homework. hmm i think im gonna tackle one geog article and one jian bao today. plus 5 pages of zi tie, 10 pages if i can manage. oh and i shall finish animal farm today. LOL. wish me luck! if i manage to complete, it'll be GREAT. hahas. im gna be like so proud of myself mans. hahas.
tmr gna go out to white sands and do the exam papers with the sistas. LOL. or rather, half of the sistas? dunno who can go yet larhs, but at least i get to meet them. hahas. sigh i miss the choir famm. ARGH. really miss them lots, its been ages since we all went out. and i meant went out to shopping centres and all that. NOT places like kampong arang, which we went for the very last choir prac. haii. hopefully, we'll get to go out more often after exams. ahh. so sad.
and thinking of it now, i'll NEVER get to go overseas with dhschoir. i'll never get to take the aeroplane with them, i'll never get to see sleeping faces on the coach, i'll never get to stay in the same hotel as choir fam, i'll never get to share rooms with one of the sistas. i'll never get to do so many things with them. really regret it, but what can i do? i cant possibly stay here just for the italy trip. i know i'll regret. haii, thinking of it, there are pros and cons with every choice you make. you just know how to let go and take things easy, but somehow, i just cant let go.
i'll really miss the choir fam, really. this year has been the BEST. really. i mean, as sectwos, we are like kinda the young ones. but we have one year of jnrs to bully xP [joking nia] and like two years of snrs to dote on us and to like teng wo men. den most of us are not in the comm? lol.
even if some of us are in the comm, we dont have to take up the leading roles and to decide on so many things, so things arent so stressful. the snrs were right when they told me that sec2 year was going to be the best year. yeah true, there were some ups and downs, but in choir, i really really enjoyed myself. now im leaving, and i really cant bear to. the people i'll really fang bu xia are going to be the choir fam.
but my mind is set, im comfirm leaving, its been like my dream since sec1. but seriously, sometimes i cant help but wonder why such things as ips existed. why couldnt the whole level like go mainstream together? why cant we lke all just do the same thing as the sec4 batch. why must they like spilt us up and everything? now we have to endure the pain of leaving and the dilemma of choosing where to go. what a lousy thing. bleah.
oh, and the teachers, they more or less suck. but whatever, shant rant and rave about them. they deserve my respect! (: or rather, i should respect them.
what if i dont get into vjchoir? i'll totally like die lar. and i KNOW i'll regret ever going to vj. cos like, choir is my direction in life, if i dont have choir i dont know what i'll do. haii. i cant stand all these lor. and im so nervous about whether or not i can get into vj choir. i know that im not a very strong singer, just maybe average. so its like, haii, there'll be so much competition. i really wanna get into vjchoir, cos its the thing that kinda pulled me to vj. but thinking about it now, what if i cant get in? haii.
guess i shall go and do my work now instead of like sitting here and spouting nonsense. off to my mugger world. ciao.
i miss you. really.
but anyways, im just happy to be at home lar. hahas. den can wake up late late.(:
i have like a whole STACK of homework lar. should list them down here:
homework:
1) geog newspaper articles. one review, two highlight
2) art thumbnails.
3) art landscape [optional]
4) chi wsh [which i cant find]
5) read animal farm [halfway through]
6) do animal farm overview
7) past year maths exam papers, 2002 and 2004
8) past year geog exam paper
9) past year sci exam paper
10) chi zi tie
11) chi jian bao
12) chi zhou ji
projects/groupwork:
1) chinese oral with leanne
revision:
1) chinese test
2) sci test
3) revise for exams
oh mans. SO MUCH! but seriously speaking, with a little determination, all these homework can be completed within the first half of the week. HOWEVER, i lack the determination and willpower to do it. LOL. so i guess i shall have to take a much longer time to do these homework. hmm i think im gonna tackle one geog article and one jian bao today. plus 5 pages of zi tie, 10 pages if i can manage. oh and i shall finish animal farm today. LOL. wish me luck! if i manage to complete, it'll be GREAT. hahas. im gna be like so proud of myself mans. hahas.
tmr gna go out to white sands and do the exam papers with the sistas. LOL. or rather, half of the sistas? dunno who can go yet larhs, but at least i get to meet them. hahas. sigh i miss the choir famm. ARGH. really miss them lots, its been ages since we all went out. and i meant went out to shopping centres and all that. NOT places like kampong arang, which we went for the very last choir prac. haii. hopefully, we'll get to go out more often after exams. ahh. so sad.
and thinking of it now, i'll NEVER get to go overseas with dhschoir. i'll never get to take the aeroplane with them, i'll never get to see sleeping faces on the coach, i'll never get to stay in the same hotel as choir fam, i'll never get to share rooms with one of the sistas. i'll never get to do so many things with them. really regret it, but what can i do? i cant possibly stay here just for the italy trip. i know i'll regret. haii, thinking of it, there are pros and cons with every choice you make. you just know how to let go and take things easy, but somehow, i just cant let go.
i'll really miss the choir fam, really. this year has been the BEST. really. i mean, as sectwos, we are like kinda the young ones. but we have one year of jnrs to bully xP [joking nia] and like two years of snrs to dote on us and to like teng wo men. den most of us are not in the comm? lol.
even if some of us are in the comm, we dont have to take up the leading roles and to decide on so many things, so things arent so stressful. the snrs were right when they told me that sec2 year was going to be the best year. yeah true, there were some ups and downs, but in choir, i really really enjoyed myself. now im leaving, and i really cant bear to. the people i'll really fang bu xia are going to be the choir fam.
but my mind is set, im comfirm leaving, its been like my dream since sec1. but seriously, sometimes i cant help but wonder why such things as ips existed. why couldnt the whole level like go mainstream together? why cant we lke all just do the same thing as the sec4 batch. why must they like spilt us up and everything? now we have to endure the pain of leaving and the dilemma of choosing where to go. what a lousy thing. bleah.
oh, and the teachers, they more or less suck. but whatever, shant rant and rave about them. they deserve my respect! (: or rather, i should respect them.
what if i dont get into vjchoir? i'll totally like die lar. and i KNOW i'll regret ever going to vj. cos like, choir is my direction in life, if i dont have choir i dont know what i'll do. haii. i cant stand all these lor. and im so nervous about whether or not i can get into vj choir. i know that im not a very strong singer, just maybe average. so its like, haii, there'll be so much competition. i really wanna get into vjchoir, cos its the thing that kinda pulled me to vj. but thinking about it now, what if i cant get in? haii.
guess i shall go and do my work now instead of like sitting here and spouting nonsense. off to my mugger world. ciao.
i miss you. really.
Friday, September 02, 2005
teacher's day celebration
rahhs this is so sick lar. two consecutive entries disappeared! rahh. sick mans!
shall blog about teacher's day den. lol. i mean teacher's day eve. heh. the celebration was super funny lar like can. i mean, really, this celebration is prolly the best celebration i had in dhs so far.
the performances were all real cutes. and man, i LOVE the retro theme. miss seow looked so cute! (: hahas. now the retro theme's got me, sher and wen crazy. hahas. everywhr we go,when we see something retro, we'll go 'SO RETRO! so CUTE!' hahas.
i like the chinese dance. was v dazzling and like vibrant. hahas. i think that was prolly their best dance so far. i mean, it was bright enough to capture my attention. LOL. eds dance was also nubbad lars. i mean, was quite energetic and all. hahas. and i think this year's sec1s are like SUPER enthu lar. i mean, almost all the class performances come from them de lor. they did nubbad anyways.
like the sec4 guys de performance best. cos i think it was SUPER spastic. lol. i mean, its a nice change to see those 'seh' guys acting spastic for once. and somemore they having their prelims, and still took the time to come perform, quite thoughful barhs. LOL. bleah why am i like praising them?! so sick. heh. and i think the 2F03 performance was v cute too. i mean, their class must be very united lors. all sec4s now and in diff classes, but still took the time to come and arange for a performance lar. i mean, the performance wasnt perfect, but none of the performances were perfect anyways. i just really admire their class spirit. so sweet lar.
im like super happy? haha. cos like this is my last year in dhs, and they had such a great celebration, so cools like cans. (: this teacher's day ROCKED. hope next yrs will be like this too! (:
and anyways, went to catch a cab back to red swas wid shirleen, angmian and shirleen's fren. waited damn long like can. so sick lar. hmm reached red swas and walked around. sian lor. had practically nothing to do. saw some people lar. like tracy, lisa, zhengyi, ginn min, felicia, kevin, thongen. after that i left lor. cos was so sianded lar.
went to meet wen and sher at tm. lol. walked arnd toys r us. heh. so fun lar cans. den we all like going gaga over those cute children stuffs. yeaps. hahas. like so funny can. den we went to pastamania to eat. sher was like PILING her cheese on her food lar. hehe. so disgusting. wen tried cheese for like the second time in her life? hehe. and she quite liked it yeah. hehe. den we spent over an hour plus there, talking about stuffs and all. heh. remember our RAINBOWWW? lol. not referring to my chiobu rachel please, referring to SOMEONE else. hehe. so dun get the wrong idea. den we just walked and walked and walked lor. hehe. afterdat went to cs to like eat at the foodcourt.
hahas. a total coincidence, but i saw kevin, thongen, khaicheong, dunyang, shirleen, yahan, jiajun, yangsheng. LOL. big coincidence, when i saw them i got the shock of my life. din expect them to come here barhs. LOL. i think they were quite shocked to see me too? lol. and like wen and sher totally embarrassed me infront of them like can?! heh. so sad mans.
hahas. so i waited for wen to finish her food den we went home. cos wen wanted to catch her superstar. LOL. (:
hmm overall, it was a fun day lar. loved it! hahas. one of the funnest please. hehe.
due to the demand of my dearest CHING, i shall write a special dedication to the sexy fam.
heh. i had a minor fake argument wid ching in the audi on mon i think. LOL. and she said, that i din love the sexy fam? lol. that is NOTNOTNOT true! hehe. i love the sexy fam alot ks. and its like although i dont talk about yall that much, but yall still do stand for something in my heart. yall were the ones that pulled me through my toughest times in twobee, perhaps yall dont even know that. but yall were the ones who gave me the support to get through class times and all. really love yall alot. the times i had with yall are some of my most precious memories and i really wont forget yall ks. love yall lots. thanks for everything! muachs! (:
to ching: i shall schedule a sexy fam outing in my heart, but i might not be able to go out because of my dad. LOL. (:
hmm. felt abit sad yesterday. i think its time i changed, i mean, im really quite an idiot lor. like im bossy and irritatin and like acts like a know it all? i think it just has to do with myself not being able to keep my mouth shut. if i were able to keep my mouth shut and not complain about like EVERYTHING in the world, maybe i wont be so irritating. and im like quite mean sometimes lar. just like wad wen said, people already say sorry already, wad else do you want them to do? yeah that's very true. i guess i always like hold grudges to people and all. maybe i should just learn to forgive and forget barhs. yeah. and i should smile more. LOL. so people wun misunderstand. and im like offending people everywhere and making enemies. maybe i should just learn to be fake. haii. so sad. im such a failure. bleah.
shall blog about teacher's day den. lol. i mean teacher's day eve. heh. the celebration was super funny lar like can. i mean, really, this celebration is prolly the best celebration i had in dhs so far.
the performances were all real cutes. and man, i LOVE the retro theme. miss seow looked so cute! (: hahas. now the retro theme's got me, sher and wen crazy. hahas. everywhr we go,when we see something retro, we'll go 'SO RETRO! so CUTE!' hahas.
i like the chinese dance. was v dazzling and like vibrant. hahas. i think that was prolly their best dance so far. i mean, it was bright enough to capture my attention. LOL. eds dance was also nubbad lars. i mean, was quite energetic and all. hahas. and i think this year's sec1s are like SUPER enthu lar. i mean, almost all the class performances come from them de lor. they did nubbad anyways.
like the sec4 guys de performance best. cos i think it was SUPER spastic. lol. i mean, its a nice change to see those 'seh' guys acting spastic for once. and somemore they having their prelims, and still took the time to come perform, quite thoughful barhs. LOL. bleah why am i like praising them?! so sick. heh. and i think the 2F03 performance was v cute too. i mean, their class must be very united lors. all sec4s now and in diff classes, but still took the time to come and arange for a performance lar. i mean, the performance wasnt perfect, but none of the performances were perfect anyways. i just really admire their class spirit. so sweet lar.
im like super happy? haha. cos like this is my last year in dhs, and they had such a great celebration, so cools like cans. (: this teacher's day ROCKED. hope next yrs will be like this too! (:
and anyways, went to catch a cab back to red swas wid shirleen, angmian and shirleen's fren. waited damn long like can. so sick lar. hmm reached red swas and walked around. sian lor. had practically nothing to do. saw some people lar. like tracy, lisa, zhengyi, ginn min, felicia, kevin, thongen. after that i left lor. cos was so sianded lar.
went to meet wen and sher at tm. lol. walked arnd toys r us. heh. so fun lar cans. den we all like going gaga over those cute children stuffs. yeaps. hahas. like so funny can. den we went to pastamania to eat. sher was like PILING her cheese on her food lar. hehe. so disgusting. wen tried cheese for like the second time in her life? hehe. and she quite liked it yeah. hehe. den we spent over an hour plus there, talking about stuffs and all. heh. remember our RAINBOWWW? lol. not referring to my chiobu rachel please, referring to SOMEONE else. hehe. so dun get the wrong idea. den we just walked and walked and walked lor. hehe. afterdat went to cs to like eat at the foodcourt.
hahas. a total coincidence, but i saw kevin, thongen, khaicheong, dunyang, shirleen, yahan, jiajun, yangsheng. LOL. big coincidence, when i saw them i got the shock of my life. din expect them to come here barhs. LOL. i think they were quite shocked to see me too? lol. and like wen and sher totally embarrassed me infront of them like can?! heh. so sad mans.
hahas. so i waited for wen to finish her food den we went home. cos wen wanted to catch her superstar. LOL. (:
hmm overall, it was a fun day lar. loved it! hahas. one of the funnest please. hehe.
due to the demand of my dearest CHING, i shall write a special dedication to the sexy fam.
heh. i had a minor fake argument wid ching in the audi on mon i think. LOL. and she said, that i din love the sexy fam? lol. that is NOTNOTNOT true! hehe. i love the sexy fam alot ks. and its like although i dont talk about yall that much, but yall still do stand for something in my heart. yall were the ones that pulled me through my toughest times in twobee, perhaps yall dont even know that. but yall were the ones who gave me the support to get through class times and all. really love yall alot. the times i had with yall are some of my most precious memories and i really wont forget yall ks. love yall lots. thanks for everything! muachs! (:
to ching: i shall schedule a sexy fam outing in my heart, but i might not be able to go out because of my dad. LOL. (:
hmm. felt abit sad yesterday. i think its time i changed, i mean, im really quite an idiot lor. like im bossy and irritatin and like acts like a know it all? i think it just has to do with myself not being able to keep my mouth shut. if i were able to keep my mouth shut and not complain about like EVERYTHING in the world, maybe i wont be so irritating. and im like quite mean sometimes lar. just like wad wen said, people already say sorry already, wad else do you want them to do? yeah that's very true. i guess i always like hold grudges to people and all. maybe i should just learn to forgive and forget barhs. yeah. and i should smile more. LOL. so people wun misunderstand. and im like offending people everywhere and making enemies. maybe i should just learn to be fake. haii. so sad. im such a failure. bleah.
Monday, August 29, 2005
Thursday, August 25, 2005
so many things going on these fews days. hmm, really miss choir. i really seriously miss choir alot. at least there's choir tmr! (: but i think its just a very short prac rites? i mean, how long can debriefing get? but looking on the bright side, i may be able to go out with the choir peeps tmr. aint that great? after a whole WEEK of waiting. yeah really wonder how i survived my week without choir after school to motivate me. guess the prospect of having choir tmr pulled me through. see how big the impact choir has on me? (:
life these few days has been quite ok, even fun actually. i realised that my class is actually quite ok. i mean, if you dont go and think about the bad points of people, you wont see them, and it'll prolly make you enjoy your time more in class. been slacking and taking pictures with the sexy famm, and vivian and angmian too. and im actually starting to hangout with the guys sometimes. i guess things are back to normal, with the exception of a new sexy fam. love yall mans. (: yupps.
anyway, today was quite fun, after school. i mean, we were like listening to wendy sing, and i was being one of the juedui cai pan. LOL. im SHUI SHANG PIAO. lol. and audrey's lee wei song. sher's ye pei fen and vivian's i-forgot-wad's-his-name. LOL. yeah and we were like criticizing wendy's singing. hahas. hmm wendy, dont take it to heart ks? we scold you for your own good! hahas. and audrey's like pro lar can. hahas. i think she sing jj's songs v nice. JIAYOU! (:
choir tmr, i cant wait! (:
maybe it was all just a big misunderstanding.
maybe you hadnt meant it.
maybe you hadnt meant to hurt me.
right?
i guess i am just deluding myself.
life these few days has been quite ok, even fun actually. i realised that my class is actually quite ok. i mean, if you dont go and think about the bad points of people, you wont see them, and it'll prolly make you enjoy your time more in class. been slacking and taking pictures with the sexy famm, and vivian and angmian too. and im actually starting to hangout with the guys sometimes. i guess things are back to normal, with the exception of a new sexy fam. love yall mans. (: yupps.
anyway, today was quite fun, after school. i mean, we were like listening to wendy sing, and i was being one of the juedui cai pan. LOL. im SHUI SHANG PIAO. lol. and audrey's lee wei song. sher's ye pei fen and vivian's i-forgot-wad's-his-name. LOL. yeah and we were like criticizing wendy's singing. hahas. hmm wendy, dont take it to heart ks? we scold you for your own good! hahas. and audrey's like pro lar can. hahas. i think she sing jj's songs v nice. JIAYOU! (:
choir tmr, i cant wait! (:
maybe it was all just a big misunderstanding.
maybe you hadnt meant it.
maybe you hadnt meant to hurt me.
right?
i guess i am just deluding myself.
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
YOU
hmm i really dont know wad you are thinking abt.
you seem to care for me. but do you really?
i dont matter much to you. do i?
i think not.
what do you want? ive already tried my best. im not going to care about you anymore. FULLSTOP.
you seem to care for me. but do you really?
i dont matter much to you. do i?
i think not.
what do you want? ive already tried my best. im not going to care about you anymore. FULLSTOP.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
choir concert (:
Today is the best day of my life.
omg. choir concert rawked. it really did. to think that i was so worried for it, but i feel that we've really improved alot. yupps. i mean yeah, really. in just a short span of a few weeks, we've improved so much. this shows that dhschoir really does have the potential to do well.
i feel so happy today, really.
im so touched by all the support my frens gave me. really. i never did expect that from yall. yall really have made me seen something different. mayb there really is something that i will miss out of twobee when we all seperate. i am really really touched. i din expect so many people from my class to go. but i guess there are always people i can depend on. lurve yall so much. thanks ok. and i want to say a big thanks to jasvin, leanne, yunching, angmian, vivian, jocelyn for the flowers. thanks so much yeah. (: love yall lots!
today's choir concert was a success. i mean. seriously, i was shocked by how well we did. sure we did flop a few songs, but im sure many people will agree that most of the songs were quite nice. hmm. and this concert is quite touching. i mean, afterall, this is my last concert with dhschoir already. yeah. i was really touched. almost cried when i sang to everything there is a season. i was so happy when all the seniors came up and sang with us. i mean, its been so long since with last sung together with them. im really very happy and very touched. hopefully when i come back next year, i can do the same(:
i went out for a sista supper wid the sistas, except for wenwen, cos she had to go home. yupps. it was very fun talking and gossiping about stuffs. SISTA POWER!
the above reasons are just three of the many reasons i am so happy today. the other reasons are just too personal to disclose here. LOL. yupps. anyway, i really wanna say a big thank you to all those people who came for the concert and all those people who have supported me and dhschoir.
to choir famm, thanks so much. thanks thanks so much for making my life so wonderful. i love yall. yall rock my world (:
and to sexy fam, vivian, angmian and the guys, thanks for not maluating me. (:
time passes really fast. treasure it while you can. cos you might not be able to get that same feeling back again.
no we dont,
we cant,
we wont.
im just not good enough.
i think i am falling in love wit h you.
omg. choir concert rawked. it really did. to think that i was so worried for it, but i feel that we've really improved alot. yupps. i mean yeah, really. in just a short span of a few weeks, we've improved so much. this shows that dhschoir really does have the potential to do well.
i feel so happy today, really.
im so touched by all the support my frens gave me. really. i never did expect that from yall. yall really have made me seen something different. mayb there really is something that i will miss out of twobee when we all seperate. i am really really touched. i din expect so many people from my class to go. but i guess there are always people i can depend on. lurve yall so much. thanks ok. and i want to say a big thanks to jasvin, leanne, yunching, angmian, vivian, jocelyn for the flowers. thanks so much yeah. (: love yall lots!
today's choir concert was a success. i mean. seriously, i was shocked by how well we did. sure we did flop a few songs, but im sure many people will agree that most of the songs were quite nice. hmm. and this concert is quite touching. i mean, afterall, this is my last concert with dhschoir already. yeah. i was really touched. almost cried when i sang to everything there is a season. i was so happy when all the seniors came up and sang with us. i mean, its been so long since with last sung together with them. im really very happy and very touched. hopefully when i come back next year, i can do the same(:
i went out for a sista supper wid the sistas, except for wenwen, cos she had to go home. yupps. it was very fun talking and gossiping about stuffs. SISTA POWER!
the above reasons are just three of the many reasons i am so happy today. the other reasons are just too personal to disclose here. LOL. yupps. anyway, i really wanna say a big thank you to all those people who came for the concert and all those people who have supported me and dhschoir.
to choir famm, thanks so much. thanks thanks so much for making my life so wonderful. i love yall. yall rock my world (:
and to sexy fam, vivian, angmian and the guys, thanks for not maluating me. (:
time passes really fast. treasure it while you can. cos you might not be able to get that same feeling back again.
no we dont,
we cant,
we wont.
im just not good enough.
i think i am falling in love wit h you.
Friday, August 19, 2005
in schl
lol. hi everyone! im in sch now, for geog lesson. think we're supposed to surf the net or something. dun think we're supposed to hand up. so im here to blog. im such a guaikia ks. LOL.
hmm. tmr's the choir concert. there's choir later. somehow, we are not prepared enough. i mean, everything's in a big rush. and we dont exactly know wad we are supposed to do. but i guess we are gonna sort everything out today barhs. yupps. hmm. there are actions for cuidongcui, but we havent even learnt them yet. hmm. wad exactly is happening?
hmm. im not really feeling anything now, just feel like its an ordinary day. and maybe a bit of wonder that the choir concerts TMR. i mean, everything that we've been working for, these few months, there are all for the concert. but sometimes, i really feel that we need more time. the concert's very messy and everything. but i guess tmr we shall just have to get up there and give a BOOM performance. let's wow everyone! (:
somehow, i dont want the concert to come so soon. this is my last formal concert with dhschoir. and i want it to drag a little longer. i mean, after this performance, there is prolly gna be a break, and then we'll be broken for exams. after that we prolly dont really have a chance to perform. haii. that is so sad lar. and i dont want a break! really. i dont mind choir, no matter how tiring it is. anything is ok for choir. really.
and after this fri[the concert], there will be no more saturday choral workshops for a LONG LONG time i think. and that is SO SAD. no more saturday outings with the the sistas, rayrui, papa, stranger, mama etc. no more fun for me. no more outings. no more going crazy. i'll have to wait a long long time for those saturday outings again. and maybe things wont be the same anymore? i dont know. i really dont know. i want my good times with the choir fam to last a lil longer. just a lil longer. sometimes, time is passin too fast. i want to be able to be with the choir fam for as long as i can. but sometimes, the time passes so fast. ZOOM! and it wheezes away. i really cant bear to leave the choir fam. but i guess change is inevitable?
i can still come back next year, but things will be different. yeah i can still come back and hang out with the choir fam. but i wont understand all the inside jokes, and when they talk about all the things happening in choir, i wont understand too. i will feel so outcasted, that is really saddening. sometimes i envy sher. she still gets to spend another half a year with the sec3s and another year with xuan and fei. true i may be going with dada to vj. but it'll only be the two of us there. haii. everything's so sad now. maybe getting too attached to somethings and some people have a negative impact on you. but i guess right now the only thing i can do is to cherish and grab hold of all the time i can spend with the choir fam. i must always stay cheerful and have fun with the fam. yay choir fam. WE ROCK.
anyways, wen if you are reading this, get well soon and come back to sing. two days never see you le. I MISS YOU. miss you and your spastic expressions. miss your spastic way of walking and running. and i missy your voice! never hear your voice for so long le. come back tmr oks. i really really miss you. <3!
hmm. tmr's the choir concert. there's choir later. somehow, we are not prepared enough. i mean, everything's in a big rush. and we dont exactly know wad we are supposed to do. but i guess we are gonna sort everything out today barhs. yupps. hmm. there are actions for cuidongcui, but we havent even learnt them yet. hmm. wad exactly is happening?
hmm. im not really feeling anything now, just feel like its an ordinary day. and maybe a bit of wonder that the choir concerts TMR. i mean, everything that we've been working for, these few months, there are all for the concert. but sometimes, i really feel that we need more time. the concert's very messy and everything. but i guess tmr we shall just have to get up there and give a BOOM performance. let's wow everyone! (:
somehow, i dont want the concert to come so soon. this is my last formal concert with dhschoir. and i want it to drag a little longer. i mean, after this performance, there is prolly gna be a break, and then we'll be broken for exams. after that we prolly dont really have a chance to perform. haii. that is so sad lar. and i dont want a break! really. i dont mind choir, no matter how tiring it is. anything is ok for choir. really.
and after this fri[the concert], there will be no more saturday choral workshops for a LONG LONG time i think. and that is SO SAD. no more saturday outings with the the sistas, rayrui, papa, stranger, mama etc. no more fun for me. no more outings. no more going crazy. i'll have to wait a long long time for those saturday outings again. and maybe things wont be the same anymore? i dont know. i really dont know. i want my good times with the choir fam to last a lil longer. just a lil longer. sometimes, time is passin too fast. i want to be able to be with the choir fam for as long as i can. but sometimes, the time passes so fast. ZOOM! and it wheezes away. i really cant bear to leave the choir fam. but i guess change is inevitable?
i can still come back next year, but things will be different. yeah i can still come back and hang out with the choir fam. but i wont understand all the inside jokes, and when they talk about all the things happening in choir, i wont understand too. i will feel so outcasted, that is really saddening. sometimes i envy sher. she still gets to spend another half a year with the sec3s and another year with xuan and fei. true i may be going with dada to vj. but it'll only be the two of us there. haii. everything's so sad now. maybe getting too attached to somethings and some people have a negative impact on you. but i guess right now the only thing i can do is to cherish and grab hold of all the time i can spend with the choir fam. i must always stay cheerful and have fun with the fam. yay choir fam. WE ROCK.
anyways, wen if you are reading this, get well soon and come back to sing. two days never see you le. I MISS YOU. miss you and your spastic expressions. miss your spastic way of walking and running. and i missy your voice! never hear your voice for so long le. come back tmr oks. i really really miss you. <3!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
outdated
hmm. sometimes. i feel so out of place. so outdated in class.
was surfing around reading people's blogs when it struck me that all this was due to my own actions. mayb im just concentrating to much on choir ppl. and neglecting my other frens. and at the rate im neglecting them, you cant expect them to stick around waiting for me forever. they just moved on and found new replacements/substitudes, whatever you call them.
i really cannot blame them. but sometimes. i feel a pang of jealousy. is it really me? or is it them. mayb im just the one who's not making the effect to keep up with my friends, to just show them that i care. i dont know, but really. i do regret somethings ive done. im feeling the effects of what i have done wrong now. i dont what this. i feel very terrible. but there is nothing i can do now. things will never be the same. im just that hot-headed gurl who's so rash and will just do ANYTHING. and after ive done it, i'll start reflecting and regretting.
mayb its just my character. im just that type of person. should i change? i dont know. changing is hard. its not something that can be done in a day or two. but seriously, i dont see the point in salvaging the situation now. im leaving. i might as well just make do with what i have.
im really concentrating too much on choir ppl. i tink about them all the time, even in class. my whole world is about them. when i go out, i go out with them. in the morning, i will go out and look for the sistas and just spend the time with them until morning assembly. im hardly ever in class. seriously, i think all this is taking a toll on my social life. i feel that i dont have close frenships in class anymore. at most a few. and even so, im not THAT close to them.
even though i hate my class, i realized that i can get through my class. with just some acting skills and optimism, i really can get through my class. they arent all that bad. as for the people i dislike, i can just treat them as invisible people. im thankful for my frens in 2B. people lke leanne, vivian, angmian, yunjing, shunjie, weiliang, manching. they actually bought tickets for the choir concert. esp the guys, im really surprised they bought. haii. sometimes things are surprising.
but really, mayb of my frenships which have gone sour are all caused by myself. why couldnt i have just controlled myself and not be so rash to rant and rave? if i had the self control, i probably would still have my frenships with me now. this is really such a sad thing. i really regret all those things dat i have did to drive certain friends away from me. and even if we are still frens, the frenship is not as strong as before, and i feel awkward arnd them. i really want to change this, but can i?
was surfing around reading people's blogs when it struck me that all this was due to my own actions. mayb im just concentrating to much on choir ppl. and neglecting my other frens. and at the rate im neglecting them, you cant expect them to stick around waiting for me forever. they just moved on and found new replacements/substitudes, whatever you call them.
i really cannot blame them. but sometimes. i feel a pang of jealousy. is it really me? or is it them. mayb im just the one who's not making the effect to keep up with my friends, to just show them that i care. i dont know, but really. i do regret somethings ive done. im feeling the effects of what i have done wrong now. i dont what this. i feel very terrible. but there is nothing i can do now. things will never be the same. im just that hot-headed gurl who's so rash and will just do ANYTHING. and after ive done it, i'll start reflecting and regretting.
mayb its just my character. im just that type of person. should i change? i dont know. changing is hard. its not something that can be done in a day or two. but seriously, i dont see the point in salvaging the situation now. im leaving. i might as well just make do with what i have.
im really concentrating too much on choir ppl. i tink about them all the time, even in class. my whole world is about them. when i go out, i go out with them. in the morning, i will go out and look for the sistas and just spend the time with them until morning assembly. im hardly ever in class. seriously, i think all this is taking a toll on my social life. i feel that i dont have close frenships in class anymore. at most a few. and even so, im not THAT close to them.
even though i hate my class, i realized that i can get through my class. with just some acting skills and optimism, i really can get through my class. they arent all that bad. as for the people i dislike, i can just treat them as invisible people. im thankful for my frens in 2B. people lke leanne, vivian, angmian, yunjing, shunjie, weiliang, manching. they actually bought tickets for the choir concert. esp the guys, im really surprised they bought. haii. sometimes things are surprising.
but really, mayb of my frenships which have gone sour are all caused by myself. why couldnt i have just controlled myself and not be so rash to rant and rave? if i had the self control, i probably would still have my frenships with me now. this is really such a sad thing. i really regret all those things dat i have did to drive certain friends away from me. and even if we are still frens, the frenship is not as strong as before, and i feel awkward arnd them. i really want to change this, but can i?
Monday, August 08, 2005
long time no see
its been a long time since ive blogged. cos my com was like spoiled? LOL. for over a week. ohmans i so miss the internet lar. yeah. LOL.
went to mountbatten cc for the national day observance thingy today. it was quite fun. but the beginning of the day was definitely NOT GOOD for me.
woke up in the morn and felt unwell. very unwell. like who person aching. had a splitting headache. yupps. but decided to go to sch todae. as in the mountbatten cc lar. cos my fave choir peeps going marhs. LOL. fun ymy. so dragged myself off my bed and got ready. was actly supposed to meet sher and rayrin at bedok interchange de. den in the morn sher sms-ed me and said that rayrin's dad was fetching him there. den asked whether we wanted a lift. we said ok lor. we met at princess. then i was there like at 0640 ldat. den went to macs to like shit lar. so terrible oks. den finish shitting le felt even more terrible lar oks. den had to wait for sher to come. den after dat we went to the carpark behind macs to wait for rayrin lor. yupps. his sis is quite chio. LOL. den after dat we saw this 8days mag on the car. den sher was saying that one of the guys had a strand of hair poking out or something. like so LOL lar. yupps reach mountbatten. we were the earliest lar. so damn sian oks. den wait and wait lor.
after dat everyone came and all that la. den go and line up for our standing positions. mr yeo was SUPER ap. cant stand him. must he be so ap? lke i know he's frustrated. but is there a need for ap-ness? i dont think so. yupps.
newaes, weirui's kids are SO adorable! they were trained the wave their flags the min we started singing. so cute lke cans. LOL. weirui gives birth to UHH-dorable kids! lol. so bimbo. nvm. hahas. louis counted the no of kids. length x breadth arnd 208 ldat. LOL. weirui so pro. can give birth to so many kids yeah. lol.
i almost fainted during singing lar. was already feeling v not well liao. lke whole person no energy ldat. den made us stand for so long lar. i wanted to lke die. sing until the last song i couldnt continue. den just stand there and tried to keep myself standing. after dat the min finish zhuofei look at me wid the scared expression and told me to go rest. cos she said that my lips v pale and everything. LOL, i wld have liked to take a look at myself. i mean, this is the first time ive even come remotely close to fainting lar. LOL. den after dat sherry brought me to rest lor. yupps. den everyone was stuffing food to me. lke so funny lar. i ate my breakfast oks. i really did lar. LOL. but they still keep pushing food to me. LOL. thanks everyone for the concern! really thanks alot. yupps. den after dat some ppl went to play bball. den we went to go watch them lor. i wanted to join in, but i knew i din hv the energy. dno why oso leh. cos i din hv fever lahhs.
yupps. in the end decided to lke da qi jing shen. i mean, no point being so sian rites. so kinda pia-ed lor. and tried to make myself high. went wid the sistas to the playground. den i kinda succeeded getting myself to forget my pains cos we were dancing lor. i mean it was super fun lar. i LOVE the sistas! LOL. and fei's so cute! the best holder ymy. hahas. den i kinda felt better and had more energy. den we were lke dancing the chicken dance and macarena. LOL. its fun twisting butts! LOL. i tink its super fun lar. yupps den we went to do the indian dance thingy. yupps. was quite weird? cos we all din know wad to do. LOL. so funny lar. den was under the hot sun for so long. den we were all lke so hot and sweating. den once again. i couldnt tahan. yupps. so went to the shade lor. den felt v unwell again. squatted at the corner. den everyone started crowding round again. made me felt damn bad lor. so decided to da qi jing shen lai again. cos no point being so sian. den rayrin started dancing munaeru vaaliba. LOL. den i just jumped up and started dancing. den the sistas were lke looking at me wid surprise/shock? LOL. den i just told them i could do it and stuff ldat. yupps. so got high all over again lar.
den after dat went to the bball court there, the sheltered area. den we were all sitting there, sian sian one lar. yupps. den after dat munaeru vaaliba started playing again. den we all jumped up and started dancing. so funny lar. den for all the songs we just kept dancing. lke so funny cans. LOL. its real fun lar. yupps. after dat the carpainting was up. den we went over to take a look at the car. its so nice lor. lol. v v nice lar. den after dat we were cheering. at first only the choir ppl cheering. den we were all so high lar ymy. LOL. imagine 440 hard claps at your vocal cords every sec? and we were SCREAMING. lke pls. wad's gna happen to our voice lar. den after dat the scouts and guides and choir ppl were all cheering tgt. the first time we've seen such unitedness amg the dh ppl lor. really lar. yupps. quite touching lar ymy.
den after dat we were dismissed den we went to eat lunch lor. along the way we went playground again. den after dat i accidently kicked sand all over rayrin. PAISEHH- din mean it! yupps. den we were just kinda slacking arnd. and sher kicked her leg on the stairs. OUCHH. so painful lar. den dada was helping her to lke rub it. den sher was lke practically gna cry liao? dno lar. yupps. den after dat ran for the 30 bus. yupps. decided to go payarlebar. den after dat rayrin said he din wna go lahh. lke so sad lar. but i tink he's grounded or something barh. yupps. so cant blame him lar. den after dat we all went to eat kfc. yupps. fried food. GREAT. yeah. eat finish le den we just went our seperate ways lor. yupps.
in the end went to go tm wid sher. we walked the whole of tm and the whole of century square larh. lol. walked for 2 and a half hrs. yupps. den talkked alot wid sher. real fun lor. LOL. yupps. so i tink todae was quite a fun dae lar. although up until NOW, im still feeling unwell. i wonder how i am gna survive tmr. nvm. there's choir tmr. it'll keep me there. i'll go sch for choir. i dun care even if im gna die le im still gna go sch. and btw, we are gna sing the national anthem tmr. shall sing it wid pride and gusto. cos im feeling quite patriotic! LOL. dun care im gna get maluated to death i dun care. LOL. so funny lar oks. yupps.
tt's all le barh. LOL. yupps.
REACH OUT FOR SKIES
At a time when hope was low
The journey seems unsure
But through it all
We’ve kept the flame alive
Now standing proud and tall
Our spirit strong and free
Building on hopes and dreams
It’s here we want to be
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
We’ll make our destiny
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies
When I think about my dreams
The future it can be
The time has come for me
To strive and to achieve
With hopes within our hearts
As one hand in hand
For family and our friends
Let’s do the best we can
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
We’ll make our destiny
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies
We can touch the skies
i dont know wad you are thinking.
we will never be.
go awayy.
went to mountbatten cc for the national day observance thingy today. it was quite fun. but the beginning of the day was definitely NOT GOOD for me.
woke up in the morn and felt unwell. very unwell. like who person aching. had a splitting headache. yupps. but decided to go to sch todae. as in the mountbatten cc lar. cos my fave choir peeps going marhs. LOL. fun ymy. so dragged myself off my bed and got ready. was actly supposed to meet sher and rayrin at bedok interchange de. den in the morn sher sms-ed me and said that rayrin's dad was fetching him there. den asked whether we wanted a lift. we said ok lor. we met at princess. then i was there like at 0640 ldat. den went to macs to like shit lar. so terrible oks. den finish shitting le felt even more terrible lar oks. den had to wait for sher to come. den after dat we went to the carpark behind macs to wait for rayrin lor. yupps. his sis is quite chio. LOL. den after dat we saw this 8days mag on the car. den sher was saying that one of the guys had a strand of hair poking out or something. like so LOL lar. yupps reach mountbatten. we were the earliest lar. so damn sian oks. den wait and wait lor.
after dat everyone came and all that la. den go and line up for our standing positions. mr yeo was SUPER ap. cant stand him. must he be so ap? lke i know he's frustrated. but is there a need for ap-ness? i dont think so. yupps.
newaes, weirui's kids are SO adorable! they were trained the wave their flags the min we started singing. so cute lke cans. LOL. weirui gives birth to UHH-dorable kids! lol. so bimbo. nvm. hahas. louis counted the no of kids. length x breadth arnd 208 ldat. LOL. weirui so pro. can give birth to so many kids yeah. lol.
i almost fainted during singing lar. was already feeling v not well liao. lke whole person no energy ldat. den made us stand for so long lar. i wanted to lke die. sing until the last song i couldnt continue. den just stand there and tried to keep myself standing. after dat the min finish zhuofei look at me wid the scared expression and told me to go rest. cos she said that my lips v pale and everything. LOL, i wld have liked to take a look at myself. i mean, this is the first time ive even come remotely close to fainting lar. LOL. den after dat sherry brought me to rest lor. yupps. den everyone was stuffing food to me. lke so funny lar. i ate my breakfast oks. i really did lar. LOL. but they still keep pushing food to me. LOL. thanks everyone for the concern! really thanks alot. yupps. den after dat some ppl went to play bball. den we went to go watch them lor. i wanted to join in, but i knew i din hv the energy. dno why oso leh. cos i din hv fever lahhs.
yupps. in the end decided to lke da qi jing shen. i mean, no point being so sian rites. so kinda pia-ed lor. and tried to make myself high. went wid the sistas to the playground. den i kinda succeeded getting myself to forget my pains cos we were dancing lor. i mean it was super fun lar. i LOVE the sistas! LOL. and fei's so cute! the best holder ymy. hahas. den i kinda felt better and had more energy. den we were lke dancing the chicken dance and macarena. LOL. its fun twisting butts! LOL. i tink its super fun lar. yupps den we went to do the indian dance thingy. yupps. was quite weird? cos we all din know wad to do. LOL. so funny lar. den was under the hot sun for so long. den we were all lke so hot and sweating. den once again. i couldnt tahan. yupps. so went to the shade lor. den felt v unwell again. squatted at the corner. den everyone started crowding round again. made me felt damn bad lor. so decided to da qi jing shen lai again. cos no point being so sian. den rayrin started dancing munaeru vaaliba. LOL. den i just jumped up and started dancing. den the sistas were lke looking at me wid surprise/shock? LOL. den i just told them i could do it and stuff ldat. yupps. so got high all over again lar.
den after dat went to the bball court there, the sheltered area. den we were all sitting there, sian sian one lar. yupps. den after dat munaeru vaaliba started playing again. den we all jumped up and started dancing. so funny lar. den for all the songs we just kept dancing. lke so funny cans. LOL. its real fun lar. yupps. after dat the carpainting was up. den we went over to take a look at the car. its so nice lor. lol. v v nice lar. den after dat we were cheering. at first only the choir ppl cheering. den we were all so high lar ymy. LOL. imagine 440 hard claps at your vocal cords every sec? and we were SCREAMING. lke pls. wad's gna happen to our voice lar. den after dat the scouts and guides and choir ppl were all cheering tgt. the first time we've seen such unitedness amg the dh ppl lor. really lar. yupps. quite touching lar ymy.
den after dat we were dismissed den we went to eat lunch lor. along the way we went playground again. den after dat i accidently kicked sand all over rayrin. PAISEHH- din mean it! yupps. den we were just kinda slacking arnd. and sher kicked her leg on the stairs. OUCHH. so painful lar. den dada was helping her to lke rub it. den sher was lke practically gna cry liao? dno lar. yupps. den after dat ran for the 30 bus. yupps. decided to go payarlebar. den after dat rayrin said he din wna go lahh. lke so sad lar. but i tink he's grounded or something barh. yupps. so cant blame him lar. den after dat we all went to eat kfc. yupps. fried food. GREAT. yeah. eat finish le den we just went our seperate ways lor. yupps.
in the end went to go tm wid sher. we walked the whole of tm and the whole of century square larh. lol. walked for 2 and a half hrs. yupps. den talkked alot wid sher. real fun lor. LOL. yupps. so i tink todae was quite a fun dae lar. although up until NOW, im still feeling unwell. i wonder how i am gna survive tmr. nvm. there's choir tmr. it'll keep me there. i'll go sch for choir. i dun care even if im gna die le im still gna go sch. and btw, we are gna sing the national anthem tmr. shall sing it wid pride and gusto. cos im feeling quite patriotic! LOL. dun care im gna get maluated to death i dun care. LOL. so funny lar oks. yupps.
tt's all le barh. LOL. yupps.
REACH OUT FOR SKIES
At a time when hope was low
The journey seems unsure
But through it all
We’ve kept the flame alive
Now standing proud and tall
Our spirit strong and free
Building on hopes and dreams
It’s here we want to be
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
We’ll make our destiny
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies
When I think about my dreams
The future it can be
The time has come for me
To strive and to achieve
With hopes within our hearts
As one hand in hand
For family and our friends
Let’s do the best we can
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
We’ll make our destiny
Let’s reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies
Our dreams we’ll all achieve
Let’s soar and reach for the skies
We can touch the skies
i dont know wad you are thinking.
we will never be.
go awayy.
Saturday, July 30, 2005
vjc.
firstly, one piece of BIGG news to announce.
I GOT INTO VIP!(:
fine. i know many ppl will sae that im bragging and that i shud not be like telling every one abt it. but really im very happy lar. as for the people who've not gotten in yet or not had their interviews yet, the only thing i can sae now i good luck. and i dun mean to haolian or anything. what will be will be. no use worrying so much anyways. yupps. jiayou barhs.
newaes. im now kinda like a victorian liao barhs. i dno leh. i mean. i dont hv to pia so much liaos. but i still feel lke working hard. cos i want to know whr i stand. i will feel v disappointed at myself if i get bad results when i end my sec2 yrs. yupps. i must be a hardworking and guai student(: LOL.
i really wna give a big thank you to the people who were TRULY HAPPY for me when i got into vip. really, without yall the support. i prolly wuldnt have gotten so far. & a special thank you to my dearest laogong! dont know wad i will do without you. LOL(:
today had maths test. lol. the killer test as everyone said. im gna flunk it anyway. lol. nvm, everyone's gna flunk it too. -.-''' so much for the amt of work i put in trying to study for the dumb maths lor. LOL. to think that i even roped in rayrin to help me. but in the end it came to no use at all. great. absolutely great. but thanks shifu anyways. you arent shifu for nth!(: LOL.
yupps. chinese was a laugh todae. i tink its partially cos i was so high. i mean, it was after i realised i got into vip. yeah. so during chinese we were all screaming lar. yeah. scream and scream and scream. LOL. i tink that's why i could reach high A todae. LOL. the chinese sub teacher is damn GAY and spastic lar. i can talk across the aisle to viv and he doesnt even care. i mean, its so evident that he saw us. but he doesnt care at all. i mean. lke wth rites. what sort of teacher is he?
ohwells. todae was quite a happy day lar. i mean yeah. i got into vj, and the prospect of going choir later was really a happy thing lar. but yeah i got damn pissed off during choir. which kinda spoiled my day. but i felt better after singing mamamia. cos its such a long an tiring song. i kinda vented all my frustrations. yupps and after dat went off to learn on rising wind. LOL. on rising wind is SUPER nice oks. i love it lots lar. yupps(: and weirui solo SUPER nice! yeah. when she solo i can feel the goosebumps one leh. wasia. so pro rites. LOL(:
hmm. after dat we sang to everything there is a season. sat beside wen. i sang better than i usually did. LOL. dno why oso. den after dat just slack arnd in the music rm until lke 6.45. yeah. the usual bunch of ppl lar. louis, weirui, rayrin, diane, brandon, amelia, me, sherry, jiawen. yupps. den just played, sang, acted spastic and laughed and slackked arnd lar. yeah. stranger is SUPER farnie oks. i dun uds how he can be so farnie de larhs. he shud go be in eds since he acts so well. LOL. but its a good thing he's in choir, otherwise, i wudnt have know him! LOL.
after dat went to eat lors. yupps. went to bedok the burger king. den just ate le jiu went home. a typical day lars. yupps.
something impt to take note of:
-DHSCHOIR CONCERT-
I'M GONNA SING
one heart. one passion. one voice.
19th August 2005
Dhs Auditiorium
6.30 - 8 pm
Tickets priced at $8.
*flowers will be sold at the venue. no outside flowers allowed.
Prices: $1.50 - $2
I GOT INTO VIP!(:
fine. i know many ppl will sae that im bragging and that i shud not be like telling every one abt it. but really im very happy lar. as for the people who've not gotten in yet or not had their interviews yet, the only thing i can sae now i good luck. and i dun mean to haolian or anything. what will be will be. no use worrying so much anyways. yupps. jiayou barhs.
newaes. im now kinda like a victorian liao barhs. i dno leh. i mean. i dont hv to pia so much liaos. but i still feel lke working hard. cos i want to know whr i stand. i will feel v disappointed at myself if i get bad results when i end my sec2 yrs. yupps. i must be a hardworking and guai student(: LOL.
i really wna give a big thank you to the people who were TRULY HAPPY for me when i got into vip. really, without yall the support. i prolly wuldnt have gotten so far. & a special thank you to my dearest laogong! dont know wad i will do without you. LOL(:
today had maths test. lol. the killer test as everyone said. im gna flunk it anyway. lol. nvm, everyone's gna flunk it too. -.-''' so much for the amt of work i put in trying to study for the dumb maths lor. LOL. to think that i even roped in rayrin to help me. but in the end it came to no use at all. great. absolutely great. but thanks shifu anyways. you arent shifu for nth!(: LOL.
yupps. chinese was a laugh todae. i tink its partially cos i was so high. i mean, it was after i realised i got into vip. yeah. so during chinese we were all screaming lar. yeah. scream and scream and scream. LOL. i tink that's why i could reach high A todae. LOL. the chinese sub teacher is damn GAY and spastic lar. i can talk across the aisle to viv and he doesnt even care. i mean, its so evident that he saw us. but he doesnt care at all. i mean. lke wth rites. what sort of teacher is he?
ohwells. todae was quite a happy day lar. i mean yeah. i got into vj, and the prospect of going choir later was really a happy thing lar. but yeah i got damn pissed off during choir. which kinda spoiled my day. but i felt better after singing mamamia. cos its such a long an tiring song. i kinda vented all my frustrations. yupps and after dat went off to learn on rising wind. LOL. on rising wind is SUPER nice oks. i love it lots lar. yupps(: and weirui solo SUPER nice! yeah. when she solo i can feel the goosebumps one leh. wasia. so pro rites. LOL(:
hmm. after dat we sang to everything there is a season. sat beside wen. i sang better than i usually did. LOL. dno why oso. den after dat just slack arnd in the music rm until lke 6.45. yeah. the usual bunch of ppl lar. louis, weirui, rayrin, diane, brandon, amelia, me, sherry, jiawen. yupps. den just played, sang, acted spastic and laughed and slackked arnd lar. yeah. stranger is SUPER farnie oks. i dun uds how he can be so farnie de larhs. he shud go be in eds since he acts so well. LOL. but its a good thing he's in choir, otherwise, i wudnt have know him! LOL.
after dat went to eat lors. yupps. went to bedok the burger king. den just ate le jiu went home. a typical day lars. yupps.
something impt to take note of:
-DHSCHOIR CONCERT-
I'M GONNA SING
one heart. one passion. one voice.
19th August 2005
Dhs Auditiorium
6.30 - 8 pm
Tickets priced at $8.
*flowers will be sold at the venue. no outside flowers allowed.
Prices: $1.50 - $2
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
frenships >.<
frenships are very fragile.
this is not only happening to me, its happeninning to all those arnd me. we must really cherish all the times that we have together as good frens, for you will never know when they may end.
was scolded by leelaoshi todae. she said that my chi was getting worse and worse. and that i hardly paid attention in class. she sounded really angry. and for a moment there, i felt ashamed of myself. of course, she din scold me in front of the whole class, she had confiscated my oral presentation script just cos i left them on the table and had not taken out my ke ben. so i had went to get them back from her. WADEVERR. but really, wad she said struck a chord in me. i realised that my studies are really deproving. and yet i dont know how to get them back. yeah a lot of ppl will sae that im good in studies and stuff. but really, looking at my chinese results, im ashamed of myself. yet, i dont know how to improve. she asked me why my chinese results were liddat. i said that chinese is difficult. she said that it was not difficult. den she asked me whether i understood the kewens. den i said yeah. den she said, she only teaches kewen and not some chim chim stuff in class. so how can it be difficult. and how can i not understand. yeah. true. but the fact is that i just do not understand. what do you want me to do? i dont even know how to improve. also, wad is worrying me is also my maths. ESPECIALLY INDICES. i got back alot of my maths assignments todae. and for all of them, i had less than half the questions correct. sometimes, i wonder why this is happening. i am not someone to be weak at maths. even though maths has not been and will never be my stongest subject. i can generally do alright in maths. however, this time. im really getting worried for my maths now. my maths is an A1. and i want it to stay an A1. i cannot afford to fail another indices test. i really cannot. there's remedial with miss seow tmr. i think she might be able to help me. but really, seeing all those maths questions, my head starts to swirl. i really cant take it. i need help. SERIOUSLY. ive decided to study hard. but i somehow just cant seem to concentrate in class. going into class every morning fills me with a kind of sadness. and somehow it leaves me thinking abt choir and how happy i am in choir. it really distracts me. i feel so miserable in class. everyday, i look forward to recess and to after school. just so i can leave the saddening class. i guess what is saddening me is the people and not the class. but really. i just cant stand some people in class. i feel so miserable. i really should concentrate in class. but somehow i know that if i dont solve this problem with my class, i will never be able to concentrate. and that will only earn me more scoldings from teachers. but one thing i appreciate is that leelaoshi have woken me up. true, no one likes to be scolded. but really, im not someone to be scolded often, so being scolded by leelaoshi have made me seen what i am behaving in class. i write postcards the whole day long in class. if not, i spend my time daydreaming abt choir. this is really bad. and my work is getting from bad to worse.
someone help me.
i hate this. i really do. i hate my class. i will be glad to leave my class. i really will.
this is not only happening to me, its happeninning to all those arnd me. we must really cherish all the times that we have together as good frens, for you will never know when they may end.
was scolded by leelaoshi todae. she said that my chi was getting worse and worse. and that i hardly paid attention in class. she sounded really angry. and for a moment there, i felt ashamed of myself. of course, she din scold me in front of the whole class, she had confiscated my oral presentation script just cos i left them on the table and had not taken out my ke ben. so i had went to get them back from her. WADEVERR. but really, wad she said struck a chord in me. i realised that my studies are really deproving. and yet i dont know how to get them back. yeah a lot of ppl will sae that im good in studies and stuff. but really, looking at my chinese results, im ashamed of myself. yet, i dont know how to improve. she asked me why my chinese results were liddat. i said that chinese is difficult. she said that it was not difficult. den she asked me whether i understood the kewens. den i said yeah. den she said, she only teaches kewen and not some chim chim stuff in class. so how can it be difficult. and how can i not understand. yeah. true. but the fact is that i just do not understand. what do you want me to do? i dont even know how to improve. also, wad is worrying me is also my maths. ESPECIALLY INDICES. i got back alot of my maths assignments todae. and for all of them, i had less than half the questions correct. sometimes, i wonder why this is happening. i am not someone to be weak at maths. even though maths has not been and will never be my stongest subject. i can generally do alright in maths. however, this time. im really getting worried for my maths now. my maths is an A1. and i want it to stay an A1. i cannot afford to fail another indices test. i really cannot. there's remedial with miss seow tmr. i think she might be able to help me. but really, seeing all those maths questions, my head starts to swirl. i really cant take it. i need help. SERIOUSLY. ive decided to study hard. but i somehow just cant seem to concentrate in class. going into class every morning fills me with a kind of sadness. and somehow it leaves me thinking abt choir and how happy i am in choir. it really distracts me. i feel so miserable in class. everyday, i look forward to recess and to after school. just so i can leave the saddening class. i guess what is saddening me is the people and not the class. but really. i just cant stand some people in class. i feel so miserable. i really should concentrate in class. but somehow i know that if i dont solve this problem with my class, i will never be able to concentrate. and that will only earn me more scoldings from teachers. but one thing i appreciate is that leelaoshi have woken me up. true, no one likes to be scolded. but really, im not someone to be scolded often, so being scolded by leelaoshi have made me seen what i am behaving in class. i write postcards the whole day long in class. if not, i spend my time daydreaming abt choir. this is really bad. and my work is getting from bad to worse.
someone help me.
i hate this. i really do. i hate my class. i will be glad to leave my class. i really will.
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