in schl

lol. hi everyone! im in sch now, for geog lesson. think we're supposed to surf the net or something. dun think we're supposed to hand up. so im here to blog. im such a guaikia ks. LOL.

hmm. tmr's the choir concert. there's choir later. somehow, we are not prepared enough. i mean, everything's in a big rush. and we dont exactly know wad we are supposed to do. but i guess we are gonna sort everything out today barhs. yupps. hmm. there are actions for cuidongcui, but we havent even learnt them yet. hmm. wad exactly is happening?

hmm. im not really feeling anything now, just feel like its an ordinary day. and maybe a bit of wonder that the choir concerts TMR. i mean, everything that we've been working for, these few months, there are all for the concert. but sometimes, i really feel that we need more time. the concert's very messy and everything. but i guess tmr we shall just have to get up there and give a BOOM performance. let's wow everyone! (:

somehow, i dont want the concert to come so soon. this is my last formal concert with dhschoir. and i want it to drag a little longer. i mean, after this performance, there is prolly gna be a break, and then we'll be broken for exams. after that we prolly dont really have a chance to perform. haii. that is so sad lar. and i dont want a break! really. i dont mind choir, no matter how tiring it is. anything is ok for choir. really.

and after this fri[the concert], there will be no more saturday choral workshops for a LONG LONG time i think. and that is SO SAD. no more saturday outings with the the sistas, rayrui, papa, stranger, mama etc. no more fun for me. no more outings. no more going crazy. i'll have to wait a long long time for those saturday outings again. and maybe things wont be the same anymore? i dont know. i really dont know. i want my good times with the choir fam to last a lil longer. just a lil longer. sometimes, time is passin too fast. i want to be able to be with the choir fam for as long as i can. but sometimes, the time passes so fast. ZOOM! and it wheezes away. i really cant bear to leave the choir fam. but i guess change is inevitable?

i can still come back next year, but things will be different. yeah i can still come back and hang out with the choir fam. but i wont understand all the inside jokes, and when they talk about all the things happening in choir, i wont understand too. i will feel so outcasted, that is really saddening. sometimes i envy sher. she still gets to spend another half a year with the sec3s and another year with xuan and fei. true i may be going with dada to vj. but it'll only be the two of us there. haii. everything's so sad now. maybe getting too attached to somethings and some people have a negative impact on you. but i guess right now the only thing i can do is to cherish and grab hold of all the time i can spend with the choir fam. i must always stay cheerful and have fun with the fam. yay choir fam. WE ROCK.

anyways, wen if you are reading this, get well soon and come back to sing. two days never see you le. I MISS YOU. miss you and your spastic expressions. miss your spastic way of walking and running. and i missy your voice! never hear your voice for so long le. come back tmr oks. i really really miss you. <3!