i just love to type. dont you all just love the feeling of type. that feeling is indescribable. but it really feels great you know! (:

haha. so that was just nonsense.

i feel terrible, there's this nagging worry at the back of my mind that tells me to GET DOWN TO WORK. and yet here i am now wasting my time ): this sucks! i havent done ANY work since ytd till now, and i really am starting to worry. and you know what, im REALLY worried about maths. really. ):

ohk, so i had choir today. choir prac's getting slacker nowadays, we had prac for only like, 2hrshalf? haha. but im sure prac's only gonna get tougher from now on, with the many events that will be coming. i hope my whole dec hol will be free from studying. pls just dont let me take any R-papers!

yeah, after much discussions, decided not to cycle as it was raining. yep went to pastamania and eat after which we went to rayrin's hse. somehow i had a moodswing today. dint exactly show any face to anyone, which is good. i just went outside to the swings and sat there alone for like 15mins? was just swinging and thinking. and guess what, i forgot everything that i thought about. the only thing i remember is that i came to some conclusions about myself. yes.

so basically walked around like a zombie after that. most of them were concerned, i guess. ohwell. at least there was someone that really cared. sometimes i really do expect too much of people.

what mr boy said was right: man are mostly selfish. the reason is because you can feel your own pain, but you cant feel other's pain. you can understand that someone is feeling pain, angry, hurt, sad. but you cant feel it for yourself. you can only feel what you are feeling now. that is why man is mostly selfish. you cant help it, its an instinct. you can sympatize you will never be THAT selfless. and so if you want to find out if you really love a person, think about whether you will be willing to die for a person.

i realised that mrboy is so insightful! im always quoting what he says. haha. yeah, so no matter how terrible i feel, i guess nobody can really understand? i cant feel what others feel too. so yeah, it all comes back to expectations.

im not really an emo person. but yeah. i dont know why i am so emo today. yuck i hope this doesnt continue, if not i'll become like wan ting. or worse, wayne! yuck. haha.

i shall be happy, and not let my imagination affect me.