And I bid You Adios.

06v11 Outing on Sunday to catch DimSum: A History of Singapore. The play was okay, the company made it great though :) I had fun that day, really missed 06v11. It just feels so comfortable being there, that sense of belonging is something I haven't felt in a long time. It was fun catching up with the girls at New York New York, with us all camwhoring, and suaning each other :) I had fun snatching the DS from Jerald at Macs and Elroy said some funny things again ;) and the way Jerald and I were trying to niao Quek to go to Bedok with us was just plain stupid haha. I know this sounds incoherant, but it was just all the small things that made my day. Yeap hope there'll be more chances for class outings. 06v11 is the love.

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Sistas Outing yesterday to celebrate Zhuofei's birthday :) Ate at central. It was fun how Sherry and I kept suaning each other.. 看脸的。。HAHA :) And it was really nolstagic how we still kept to our tradition of calling each other to eat and saying grace before eating. Yeah the whole 大姐吃，二姐吃。。 thing was cheesy but heart warming at the same time. It was just really cool how we can still have fun together after being seperated for 2 whole years now. Hope we'll really have our barcelona trip :) <3

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The only thing constant is Change, how cliche.

And yet, that is absolutely true, for you, of all people, are changing. You, whom I've always thought to be steadfast in your opinions and thinking, are changing, changing into this person that I feel is exactly the kind of person you abhorred in the past. Why is this happening to you? I thought you were special, that you were not like them at all, but now, it seems that you're becoming more and more like them. It's disappointing, and what's worse is that I feel so helpless, because there's nothing I can do to stop this.

It took us such a long time to build up this friendship, and now it's going to waste, cos you've change, and you don't care anymore. Perhaps it was all one-sided, maybe I painted too perfect a picture of you, and I thought you cared when you didn't. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.


And you. Perhaps I've never known you for who you are, that I only knew a side of you. And now, it doesn't feel good to hear so much about you, to hear that you are not the person whom I knew you to be. I don't want to hear one-sided stories, I want to hear what you've got to say, but how? How do I do that when we hardly talk anymore, when we seem like strangers? You don't seem to want to try, so what am I supposed to do?


Goodbye my friends.

Ice Cream Chefs.

Today was a good day again.

I woke up SLIGHTLY later than I was supposed to, so was about 20mins late for sectionals. Haha, but still, I wasn't late for the actual practice so YAY. haha.

I think I sang quite well today, as in, my voice was actually pretty warmed up, as compared to previous times when I could hardly hit the high notes (not that I actually hit those notes well today, but at least I could hit them). Zhi Yang does good warm-ups :)

Siglap practice was good also (even though almost all the Year 2 basses weren't there), yay so proud of the Year 1 basses. Mr Kwei was happy today, so he started talking about all the different schools with 'extra social activities' haha. Eg, St Nick's and Cat High, VS and Cedar(?!) etc. It's been ages since I heard him digress so much so I guess we're finally sounding good enough for him to start talking about random stuff again instead of worrying about our notes haha.

Went out to Ice Cream Chefs again today after choir. Out of the six guys who went out with us today, five them were from Cat High. Oh Man so terrible right, Cat High overflow haha. Anyway Steven, Zhi Yang and KaSheng are really damn spastic, their 'Lus Trans, Universa' really made me laugh like crazy haha. So yeah I had fun laughing today heh.

Grandma's house today was good too. My two nephews are super cute haha. Jaedon has a huge tummy, so nice to touch :) Toddlers are really very cute heh heh.

And now, I gotta go do my work.
GP Essay intro and Chem Redox & Bonding and Bio Lipids and Maths Trigo and Econs Essay.
There's still DimSum dollies tmr. Best man I think I'm gonna die.
Ciao Bella.

& I missed you, only a Teeny Weeny bit though.

Slow Dancing.

It was a relatively good day.

Class was zzz and kinda sad now cause quite a lot of people from the original S34 left. aw, so yeap think we all gotta take some time to get used to the new S34.

Lightning risk!
Ahhhh..
4.. 3.. 2.. 1..
Tree, Tree, Tree, Tree will Fall,
Tree, Tree, Tree, Tree will Fall,
Tree, Tree, Tree, Tree will Fall,
不三不四 S34!

Okay anyway went to do the Choir Board after school. At least it's not SO under construction anymore haha. It was fun doing the board with the CBC haha, Philip wasn't here today though. Yep we had lotsa fun, just laughing and screaming away (or maybe it's just me heh). But yeah the company was very pleasant so yeah I had quite a nice time.

So sorry okay my dear fellow CBC-ians cos I went to watch the MusicFest band auditions and pangsehhed you guys for so long. I made a promise, so gotta keep it yeah, SORRY DEARS. Anyway, the bands were quite good. Haha Desmond's band was good, the Shoulders and Down sound quite good also haha. I love the songs that both bands played, haha Won't Go Home Without You (Maroon 5) and Slow Dancing in a Burning Room (John Mayer). Yay hope they both get through! :)

Okay after that.. I went home! First time in a long time that I went home so early haha, so I'm kinda happy. Yeap Choir tomorrow, and DimSum on Sun :) Glad to finally be able to see v11 again and I'm pretty excited cause I've never been to the Esplanade for a play before so yep!

Hope tomorrow's prac will be fine, shall go rest in case I can't wake up tomorrow haha.


Random Fact:
Today I saw a girl in the canteen who looked like Wan Ting. I was really excited at first when I caught the first glimpse of that girl and was about to squeal and run to hug her when I looked closer and realised that she wasn't Wan Ting. Ah, that incident made me miss having the Year Threes around, in their VJ uniforms. Now everyone's All Grown Up and I hardly get to see them cause of school and all that.

Year Threes, I haven't forgotten you all ah! :) Sorry if I can't make it for dinner tmr, I'll try to go next time! See You ALL soon! <333

Nothing more, nothing less.

There was O2 today and obviously I ponned the whole thing, think my OG never even saw my face today haha!

Well, reached school at 10plus and climbed in, think I landed wrongly though, hurt my ankle a bit. It doesn't hurt now, and I hope it won't get worse tomorrow=/

Mainly slacked around the place and helped out for the choir booth during CCA walk about. After that, the Choir Board Comm went to start on the choir board :) Yep basically we spent the whole afternoon drawing out the styrofoam words and wrapping them with gold foil. Many people came to help too, and it was quite fun to just sit there and work with everyone else. We were singing while we were working and it was just a really nice and pleasant experience. :)

After finishing some of the things, we decided to go cycling! So Jia Sheng, Wan Ping, Cedric, Philip, Rhoda, Pock Thong and I proceeded to ECP to rent bikes. We were singing chinese songs along the way there haha, so it felt nice too :)

It felt good to cycle. The feeling of having the wind in your face is really relaxing and nice. Even though my knees were killing me, and my butt felt numb after cycling for so long, I still felt happy. Also, there weren't many people at ECP, so it felt like we had the whole park to ourselves :)

The highlight of the cycling trip was Bedok Jetty. I never really went there to sit before, but today, we all just decided to go there and rest out butts haha.

Bedok Jetty is really a very relaxing place. It felt so good to just sit there and feel the wind blowing in your face, and to hear it blowing into your ears. After a while, you start to hear notes coming from the sea, random musical notes that resonate in the distance. At first I thought there was music coming from some place that was far off in the distance and that it was just carried to us by the wind, but apparently, the physics students explained that those notes were sounds created by the passage of wind over the water surface. Those sounds were really magical. To me, they sounded like a symphony of voices, like a mermaid's song coming from the sea. Admist the raging sea waters and wind, I felt that tranquil and peaceful feeling deep within me that was caused by the musical notes emanating from the sea. It was really relaxing and the music from the sea just made me want to sit there forever to ponder about and appreciate life as it is.

Well, after sitting there for about 15 - 20 mins and just listening to the sound of the sea, we decided not to waste our cycling time and continued cycling. So yeap we cycled for quite some time and after about 40 mins we decided to stop cycling.

Yeap had dinner with Jia Sheng, Pock Thong, Ivor, Roger and Victor. It was a nice dinner with LOTS (think 15 pieces of Garlic n Lemon Mussels from Victor, and kuppable Mos Chicken from Pocks and KaSheng, Yummy!) of food and laming around. Haha I had a fun time :)

How I wish everyday could be as carefree and peaceful as today. School's starting soon, :(

& I'm Sorry.

frustrated.

WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL IT TO MY FACE?

P.S I Love You

Today was a good day.

Went out with my dears (Jing Alicea Althea Puen) to watch P.S I Love You. I think I cried for almost the whole show. It's really saddening, :(

Went to Jing's house after that while Althea and Puen left. Our plans to watch Sweeney Todd failed and so Jing and I decided to sleep while Alicea watched her Romantic Princess.

Alicea and I went to meet the class afterwards at Marina Square.

The day was a fun day generally :)

Like in a Cosine curve, when there's a max, there's a min.
I'm at Min Amplitude now, and I've a feeling it's gonna stay there.
I must thank you, for bothering to comment. Now I finally know what you think, and although it hurts, at least it helps me to move on. It hurts, really badly. But thank you, for finally saying something. Now I know what to do. Give me some time, it'll take time before things can go back to when all these didn't happened. In the meantime, just let me go cry about it.

My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

smile.

Today is a happy day :)

Choir was alright today, sectionals was fun haha. Had dinner with the bedok people plus some northies (pockthong kahsheng and victor(not sure if he's an eastie or northie)). Dinner was fun too haha.

Watched MusicFest auditions today, Sherwin, Novabelle and Melodie were good. So were Wayne, Jian and Keith. Oh the best today were Victor, Jiasheng, Abel, PockThong, and Randy though haha. Seriously they're all good :)

I don't know why I'm so happy today haha. I think it's cause I got to sleep a lot yesterday, so I didn't fall asleep during any of my lessons today, which is why I don't feel so stupid. Gossiped abit with the class girls too haha so it was fun :) Haha and of course, spillover from yesterday too :)

Oh and I'm excited for tomorrow, P.S I Love You in the morning, probably Sweeny Todd in the afternoon and class outing in the evening. Coupled with the fact that I get to sleep in more than usual, YAY :)

I'm at Max Amplitude now haha.
I can see the way, I see the way you look at me.

ARGH!

JANE LOO, IF YOU'RE READING THIS,
GO AWAY.

I wanna run.

Sometimes I keep trying to guess what you're thinking.
And I realise I can never do it.
I never know what you're thinking, and what the reasons behind your actions are.

And I keep pondering, thinking of all the possibilities, if you ever feel the same way as I do, or if everything meant nothing to you. Or maybe I was over thinking everything.

Sometimes I really wish I could dig my heart out, and stop feeling all these emotions. That heavy and depressing feeling, it really suffocates me. And when I try to approach you, the words don't seem to come out too.

I've been trapped for one year already, it really is time to get out of it. But how?

Maybe you're just seeking for attention, but I never believed that of you, not once. But maybe, just maybe, thinking that of you might help me to forget.

'Since when are normal friendships like sine and cosine curves?' Yeah I really agree with that.

I wish everything was simple, and that I'd stop trying to guess.
But I know it's impossible.

Argh, depressing! And no May is not being an emo emu, she is just ranting.
Goodbye.

Life.

I've been pretty moody nowadays, and frankly speaking, I can't quite place why.
I still don't understand why such a small matter can affect me so much.

But it's okay I guess, everything will be fine soon.
It always will be.

No, no I'm not emo. :)

And I should stop procrastinating and do my work haha ciao.

A Few Things

1. I'm supposed to be studying for the Bio Lecture Test now.

2. I miss LeeLee.

3. I wore 2 and a half inch heels out for the whole day without dying or spraining my ankle.

4. I must must must tidy my room soon.

5. My siblings suddenly got addicted to mahjong and it's just nice cos all four of us can play.

Chinese New Year this year was alright, not good but not bad either.

I wanna say sorry for not replying all the New Year well wishes because my phone was dying on that day so I didn't bother haha.

I guess the Third Day was the highlight for this year.

Met the Year Threes at Dawnie's house.

Had fun chatting, evaluating and camwhoring.

Shall let the pictures do the talking!

Proceeded to Jia Sheng's house after that. And then to WenSiu's house. And then to Ivor's house.

It was pretty alright at all three houses. Ah I really don't have the mood to type so much haha. So I guess there's no need to describe what happened.

Anyway,

Wu Zun is the Prince of all time.

fantastic :)

Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINNY!

I had a great day today! Because it was my dear Twinny's birthday! Haha, we wanted to surprise her at her house initially, but because she went to the Temple, our plan was foiled. Therefore, we surprised her at Bishan instead :D Well, at least we managed to surprise her haha.

After that, we proceeded to Orchard and met up with the rest. Went to NYDC for lunch haha. We camwhored like crazy, it was super cool cause we took a total of 160 pictures today!

The guys and girls were sitting opposite each other, so it was like, a xiang qin thingy haha!

And of course, our day was filled with spastic/unglam pics :D

Oh oh, I was fiddling around with Philip's camera. It has this super cool Macro function which allows you to take close-ups of still objects. The photos above show the keychain that my choir angel gave me, nice isn't it!

Guy and girl shots again haha.

And this is our birthday girl with her birthday cake :D


And here are some group shots :)

I had fun today! :D

Musings.

I have only one word for choir practice today; Disappointment.

It really sucked to hear Mr Kwei say that we were 'incompetent'. I was expecting him to blow his top, but surprisingly, he was very patient, and only said that we were 'incompetent'. However, the word 'incompetent' struck me more than anything else. It wouldn't have mattered so much if he had gotten downright angry and screamed at us, but the way he said that we were incompetent, coupled with the fact that the choir was really progressing really slowly, really struck me hard.

I guess that everyone is very relaxed about choir right now because the choir hasn't even settled yet, but I really think that it's time for all of us to pull up our socks. 7 months may be a long time, but we should start trying our best for each and every choir practice from now on. I think most people haven't realised the significance and importance of the Choir of the World Competition. We are VJchoir after all, and we need to prove ourselves. Most people just think that VJchoir are very good, but they fail to see all the hard work that we put in to make the sound good. Plus, the songs this year are quite tough, so we'll really need to do our very best to make good music.

VJchoir is not just all about fun and games, it is also about hard work and determination. And though it may still be early on in the year, we do need to work hard from now on. Mr Kwei's comments today should be a wake-up call for the choir. I personally find that the choir is progressing too slowly too, for eg, we shouldn't be repeating things that Mr Kwei did with us last Saturday, like what happened for Zsoltar today.

I will really try my best from now on, and I hope whoever reads my blog will do the same thing too. Let's all work hard, and make good music together, who knows, we might even get a standing ovation in Wales! That'll be a dream come true for me :D Okay, that's beside the point, but let's all do our best for VJchoir yeah?

No Man is an Island.

determined, or not.

The problem with me is that, when I want to give something up, I always want it back.
I never seem to ever have the determination to truly give something up.

I know that nothing good will come out of it, but I can't seem to just snap out of it and stop what I'm feeling about something that I know is and always will be hopeless.

When the heart and the mind clashes, which do you follow?

And I should wipe the slate clean.

It's been a tiring week.
I'm glad it's the weekend. There's choir tomorrow! I'm excited for it somehow, but I don't know why. I guess it's because we're gonna learn and sing cool songs again. :D I can't wait.

A few photos, thanks ah eng!

Don't we look like we're from RJ?


And look, same height!


TWINNY :D

Basically, these are the uniforms I tried on these few days haha. Cool eh? x)
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So many things have happened these few days.

I'm worried about history repeating itself, but if I'm always scared, I will never be able to step out of the past. Perhaps I'll just have to believe that things will go fine, or at least, try my best to make everything work. I'll know my limits this time, and maybe things will last. There's no point thinking about all these because it just doesn't make sense to be afraid of something that happened in the past.

What's more important is to cherish. Cherish every little bit of happiness. Cherish all my friends :)
That's what I will do.

咎由自取，
那是我唯一能用来形容过去发生过的一切的字眼。
对于我所做过的事，我感到很抱歉，
应为我现在终于明白你的处境了。
好人难做啊！

On a different note, I've been pretty happy these two days.
It feels good to have something to look forward to again.
:)

Everyone needs a best friend.

TWINS!

500th post!

I've found my twin, and she is none other than Wan Ping haha!

We really do look quite alike haha!

And Wan Ping, Cedric and I are like, Triplets haha!

Wan Ping and I are the identical ones while Cedric is the fraternal one.

Coolio isn't it? :D


I've missed you dearly my friend.

Trust, belief, hope.

Haha life's been fine.
JC life sucks. But the Choir Year Ones rock.





Gotta go because there's choir tomorrow so this is just a short incoherent post.
Ciao.

Are we going to be reduced to this?
Maybe I'll heed your advice.
Only time will tell.

rewind.

It's 11.14pm now and I just got home from my outing with the The Usual People who are now officially Year Threes.

How time flies. I was staring at some of them across the table from me and I could still picture them in their Secondary School uniforms. Now, they're all talking about their working lives, driving lessons, and their preparation for army. The things that I am worrying about seem so different(and childish) from what they worry about.

Somehow, after having gone through two years together with them, I'm going back on rewind and the rest of them are still continuing on play. After being a Year Two, I'm going back to being a Year One again, and going through everything that the Year Threes have gone through before two years ago. It feels like I'm trapped in time, while the rest of them are continuing and moving on with the rest of their adult lives. I feel like I know so much about JC life, but there is also still so much more that I don't know.

Deep inside, I know my place is with the Year Ones, but somehow, there is still a part of me that will never forget the Year Threes and all the experiences I've shared with them. I know I'll never find people like them ever again anywhere else, and I feel really really blessed to have been given the chance to get to know them and to spend two years together with them.

Sometimes I wonder, is it really farewell?

And now, the prospect of going to school is rather daunting. It's not so bad tomorrow because there'll be choir. But seriously, I sort of dread going to school. Schoolwork seems to be tough and I am really worried that I will not be able to keep up with the pace of lessons. I also hate having to move from class to class, cause all the classrooms give me a cold and unfriendly feeling.

Besides all that, there is still the process of making friends with and getting to know my classmates. I don't like having to make small talk with people, but it is an inevitable period that is required in the friend-making process. Sometimes, I'll rewind again in my mind and think back to two years ago when I first entered IP, and I'll be wondering if I felt as bad as I do now. I know that in the end, everything will turn out fine, but this period is really one in which you don't know what's going to happen and if the class will be fine.

A new year, a new life, new friends, a new start. I am someone who doesn't like change, who will always try my best to hold on to whatever I can. There are some people whom I would dearly like to hold on to, but who seem to be increasingly slipping out of my grasp the harder I try. Who doesn't want to have friends who will last a lifetime? However, it takes effort to maintain a friendship, and sometimes it's just unfair to expect the other party to put in the same amount of effort as you do.

Or maybe, we should all just let things go, and let it right itself. However, I do not have much faith in doing that, for I believe in our school motto, Nil Sine Labore; Nothing Without Labour. If we do not work hard and put in the effort, how can we expect things to stay the same? Afterall, the only thing that is constant is change.

Ah! It's late and I definitely will have a hard time waking up tomorrow. Sigh, and I haven't mugged my scores and finished my math tutorial. It's only the first day of school. :(