disappointment hits, time and time again.
ive realised im not an important person at all. whether im here or not, it doesnt make a difference. may wake up, the world revolves without you. youre nothing to this world and to the people around you, get it? NOTHING. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. so just totally wake up and stop dreaming.
anyways, life these days has been quite slack. not so much homework. yes and im trying harder to listen during lessons. actually, now, i think the only lessons i dont listen are SS and Chinese. but hey its not my fault. i have absolutely ZERO interest in chinese. and as for SS, well its boring. but anyways sometimes i think what mr yang says is quite interesting. and actually i do catch snippets of what he says. that's already an improvement yah. :D hopefully by the end of this term i'll be able to concentrate fully :DD
recently, i've been having moodswings. i dont know why. hmm maybe its cos i realised that im not as close to the people in choir as i thought i was. hmm yah i dont know. its just quite depressing, somehow. and those people whom i look forward to seeing.. i dont know, upon seeing them, i realised i've got nothing to say to them. sigh. nvm nobody will understand this. so yep. i dont know la. and i realised, im not really anybody in choir. my opinion doesnt matter, im just a freaking NOBODY. its like, it doesnt matter whether im there or not. sure people say hi and stuff to me and all, but they're all superficial talk. sigh i dont know. maybe im the one who expects too much. ah.
today's choir was both sianning and fun. the choreo for sit down is freaking nice! : D i love it. and i love my position, heh. yuting on one side, yizha on the other. heh and wanting in front! think i have jeremy yeo and marcus behind me too:D heh all the nice people. SOMEMORE, im right SMACK in the middle. heh ok maybe its not me who's in the middle, wanting maybe. but hey at least im in the middle area. heh. :DD it was really fun, the sit down choreo. we were being lame and spastic and trying to think of super spastic ways to do the YEAH part. haha.
during choir break, johnnie suddenly carried me, for dunno wadever reason. lol i was rather shocked. =/ lol. and then, yuting and johnnie decided to carry me by making me sit on their arms. and they almost wanted to dunk me into the fountain. like wth. lol. but actually it WAS rather fun :D
yep after that was choir room opening. haha just basically some people cutting the ribbon and stuff. anyway, the choir room's really different now. dont know how to put it, but the amount of space is really very little now. lol, but in a way its more cosy now. :D thanks crc! that was really thoughtful and nice of yall :DD
open house today was.. alright. basically i slacked rather a lot. and dint really usher a lot of people, cos half the time i was with the choir, singing and all that. yep anyway our hear my prayer today was FANTASTIC. ah it was probably the only song that we sang with emotion and all that. yay i could feel all my hair standing up la. :DD mass dance today was terrible. like it was all messed up and stuff. aiya dont know la.
anyway, today at my grandma hse, they celebrated four people's birthday. yep so it was one birthday cake for four of us. due to a moodswing that happened during the end of choir, i was in a bad mood throughout the whole visit to my grandma's hse. yep and i dint smile like a single time? and when they were taking photos, i dint even smile la. sigh i feel rather bad. aiya nvm. sometimes i think im so unreasonable. they dint do anything to deserve this type of attitude problem from me. sigh. ok nvm shall try to put myself in a good mood, but then again, i'll be making myself feel terrible, cos im faking. ah. how complicated.
im tired of masking my feelings. im tired of trying to hide and act all happy and nice in class. ah. i hate my life.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Friday, April 21, 2006
CHOIR GOT THE FREAKING GRAND PRIZE.
lol. alright that was abit outdated. but hey i just HAD to put it on my blog alright.
helmsman this week. freaking slack. the choir's finally back! :D heh. after a whole week and half of waiting? yeh. i seriously LOVE vjchoir. heh. yep anyway i have to declare, CHOIR ROOM ROCKS :D its almost like my third home? heh. yeh alright i only visited my class like 2 times since tuesday? yah. haha ok that was freaking random. ok i like to use the word freaking recently. i dont know why too.
class sucks. yeh that's the truth. ah im giving up. yes nvm. people dont bother. so wth then. i dont freaking care. i tried. dint work so yeh.
anyways, i wanna thank, NEHNEH and DADA. thank you all for being there for me when i need yall. at least i have the two of you. thank you so very much. i love you. i love you. :D
anyways, broke down ytd. during the zoo trip. ah freaking malu. thinking of it now, was it worth it crying over them. maybe i was crying over myself. ah nvm. weird la. sometimes i dont really know myself. ah nvm den.
i kinda know what happened. nvm. i dont freaking understand. but yah. nvm.
ah life sucks. everything freaking sucks. maybe including myself.
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VJCHOIR SYMPHONY OF VOICES 2006
16th may.
7.30pm
esplanade.
tickets from sistic. $21, $32, $42 [inclusive of sistic charges]
please buy tickets from me :D vj students can go buy from the choir booth in the canteen. yep:D
Saturday, April 08, 2006
sigh
its time for me to blog. yep. the choir left ytd. sigh it was quite saddening. being the onlookers, feeling that buzz of excitement in the air, and yet not being able to experience that feeling of anticipation for myself. sigh. but ohwell, at least im not the ONLY one left in singapore. there are still yizha, karen and francesca. yep we bought an italy diary for them:D hope they update it regularly.
no choir for the whole of next week. my life will feel so empty. hmm but i should take it as a relaxing time for me. a time to recuperate and try to rest more. ive been feeling rather exhausted and depressed nowadays. yep its time for me to rest. after they come back from italy, it'll be SOV time! :D yep and im awaiting the good news from them. CREDIAMO!
i dont know what to do seriously. im really starting to give up. im starting to think there maybe are no solutions to the problems. was i wrong to do what i did? but seriously, i dont like to fake. and i think it'll be unfair to her if i act. was i wrong to just be myself? to be true to what i feel? sigh. maybe i was wrong. maybe i should have just been a faker. and just freaking make myself be all sweet and nice. im nice, but im not a sweet gurl. everyone knows that. you wont expect me to put on a nice smiley face when im pissed. maybe i really was in the wrong. but im not entirely in the wrong. that i am sure of. but somehow, i dont know how to get it across. ive tried so hard, really so so hard. no one seems to appreciate my efforts. they think im being difficult. but am i really? do they really hate me so much. i want to talk, i want to tell them what i feel, thrash things out with them. but is that really possible? all they know to do is to gossip behind my back, and when i want to talk, they say they dont want to talk about it. they think that what im doing is unneccassary. but seriously, they dont understand why i am doing what i did. sigh. im already trying to forget about the whole thing. she wins. i give up, im letting her win. im just trying to forget about it and try to stand her. but really, you all probably think im unreasonable. like im the big bad bully. but have you all ever saw this whole thing from MY point of view? you all side her. i know. im really sad that my friendship with you guys have been affected. just because of her. i tried, very hard, to make it a thing between just the two of us. apparently, it dint work. sigh. i really dont know what to do.
you say you want to solve this, but you arent willing to talk. im so tempted to call you, to just talk to you and comfirm our friendship. why are you treating me like this? ignoring me and not even bothering to respond. you say you dont hate me, but i can feel it from you. why? what happened to the old days. when we could have a nice heart to heart talk. what happened to the 'next time, i'll explain things to you and you'll explain things to me'? what happened to 'our friendship will never change'? what happened to our friendship. now, we're barely more than strangers. the only thing we exchange is probably a hi and bye. what is this? the shoelaces.. are they even of any meaning now? please, dont shut me out the next time i try to talk to you. i regret, i really regret not cherishing our friendship last time. im sorry for all the times ive been wilful. im sorry for being so difficult when you tried, so are you trying to spite me by being difficult when im the person trying now? sigh. i know you wont read this, but really, you dont know what im feeling. sigh. in the span of 2 months, i have lost two of my initial close friends, two friends whom i thought i could depend on. two whom proved me wrong. maybe i dint know you all well. maybe we're just not meant to be good friends. but really, can we at least try? just one more time? if it doesnt work again. im really giving up.
im thinking, what's the point of living on this world? we all just die one day right. does it matter whether or not we die young or early? of course, many will just say, den go die now la! my answer will be, im afraid. im afraid of death. there are still many things i want to experience in life, getting a job, using my own money, having a family, getting a house. all those finer things in life.. sigh. i dont know. somehow, life seems to be meaningless to me now. sigh. maybe im just being angsty? but every morning, i wake up with a sinking feeling. a deep feeling of sadness in the heart. as in seriously, im not exaggerating. im kinda sick of life now. like what i was talking to althea the other day, what will happen if i just DIE? like jump off the building and DIE? sigh. i wont do that of course. i wont dare to. but im scared one day something in me might just snap. and in that moment of craziness, i might just go jump off. but seriously, i wouldnt want to do that. just like the case of the vj yeartwo student. look at the trauma it caused his family and friends? even i, who didnt even know him, felt very affected. i was sad about him the whole day. i wouldnt want to put my friends through this kind of torture. sigh. i dont know. im think im turning crazy. why am i talking about death on my blog? im not that type of person.. but then again, do i really know who i am?
no choir for the whole of next week. my life will feel so empty. hmm but i should take it as a relaxing time for me. a time to recuperate and try to rest more. ive been feeling rather exhausted and depressed nowadays. yep its time for me to rest. after they come back from italy, it'll be SOV time! :D yep and im awaiting the good news from them. CREDIAMO!
i dont know what to do seriously. im really starting to give up. im starting to think there maybe are no solutions to the problems. was i wrong to do what i did? but seriously, i dont like to fake. and i think it'll be unfair to her if i act. was i wrong to just be myself? to be true to what i feel? sigh. maybe i was wrong. maybe i should have just been a faker. and just freaking make myself be all sweet and nice. im nice, but im not a sweet gurl. everyone knows that. you wont expect me to put on a nice smiley face when im pissed. maybe i really was in the wrong. but im not entirely in the wrong. that i am sure of. but somehow, i dont know how to get it across. ive tried so hard, really so so hard. no one seems to appreciate my efforts. they think im being difficult. but am i really? do they really hate me so much. i want to talk, i want to tell them what i feel, thrash things out with them. but is that really possible? all they know to do is to gossip behind my back, and when i want to talk, they say they dont want to talk about it. they think that what im doing is unneccassary. but seriously, they dont understand why i am doing what i did. sigh. im already trying to forget about the whole thing. she wins. i give up, im letting her win. im just trying to forget about it and try to stand her. but really, you all probably think im unreasonable. like im the big bad bully. but have you all ever saw this whole thing from MY point of view? you all side her. i know. im really sad that my friendship with you guys have been affected. just because of her. i tried, very hard, to make it a thing between just the two of us. apparently, it dint work. sigh. i really dont know what to do.
you say you want to solve this, but you arent willing to talk. im so tempted to call you, to just talk to you and comfirm our friendship. why are you treating me like this? ignoring me and not even bothering to respond. you say you dont hate me, but i can feel it from you. why? what happened to the old days. when we could have a nice heart to heart talk. what happened to the 'next time, i'll explain things to you and you'll explain things to me'? what happened to 'our friendship will never change'? what happened to our friendship. now, we're barely more than strangers. the only thing we exchange is probably a hi and bye. what is this? the shoelaces.. are they even of any meaning now? please, dont shut me out the next time i try to talk to you. i regret, i really regret not cherishing our friendship last time. im sorry for all the times ive been wilful. im sorry for being so difficult when you tried, so are you trying to spite me by being difficult when im the person trying now? sigh. i know you wont read this, but really, you dont know what im feeling. sigh. in the span of 2 months, i have lost two of my initial close friends, two friends whom i thought i could depend on. two whom proved me wrong. maybe i dint know you all well. maybe we're just not meant to be good friends. but really, can we at least try? just one more time? if it doesnt work again. im really giving up.
im thinking, what's the point of living on this world? we all just die one day right. does it matter whether or not we die young or early? of course, many will just say, den go die now la! my answer will be, im afraid. im afraid of death. there are still many things i want to experience in life, getting a job, using my own money, having a family, getting a house. all those finer things in life.. sigh. i dont know. somehow, life seems to be meaningless to me now. sigh. maybe im just being angsty? but every morning, i wake up with a sinking feeling. a deep feeling of sadness in the heart. as in seriously, im not exaggerating. im kinda sick of life now. like what i was talking to althea the other day, what will happen if i just DIE? like jump off the building and DIE? sigh. i wont do that of course. i wont dare to. but im scared one day something in me might just snap. and in that moment of craziness, i might just go jump off. but seriously, i wouldnt want to do that. just like the case of the vj yeartwo student. look at the trauma it caused his family and friends? even i, who didnt even know him, felt very affected. i was sad about him the whole day. i wouldnt want to put my friends through this kind of torture. sigh. i dont know. im think im turning crazy. why am i talking about death on my blog? im not that type of person.. but then again, do i really know who i am?
Sunday, March 26, 2006
haha ok due to popular demand, i shall blog.
i really love vjchoir. like really really.
yep i never thought i would come to love vjchoir. but yah, i really do love it so. even though there are still times when i feel that i dont really belong, but its really been getting better and better. the choir's really bonded, in a sense. and the people there are really nice. the whole thing about the choir being clique-y and mean, nah its not really true. not when there are people like me :D in the choir. lol omygosh im sounding like yati. =/
im so damn sad i wont be able to go italy. its like, i'll not be having choir for one week and a half. actually wad gets me through school nowadays is choir. without choir, i dont know what im gonna do. everyday after school i siam to the choir room, during that period, there's no point going to the choir room, cos no one's inside! ): sigh. imagine, one week and a half without going to the choir room, without choir practices, and without seeing choir ppl[except yizha]. sigh. it'll be a truly depressing time for me. i wont be able to share the experience of singing, for the grand prize with them, i wont be able to wake up every morning during that period and see choir people. sighh. i'm so sad! ah let me just wallow in my self pity or something. seriously, those people who get to go italy, yall should be so thankful la. sighh.
so anyways, choir on saturday started with a 'sort of' pep talk from marcus. and we were like reciting a pledge or something? heh. but even though its rather corny, the effect was rather good. like it got us all pumped up and ready to go. yep and warm ups were good too. even though i was suffering from a bad bad sore throat, i could really feel my voice getting warmed up. yep and practice was good too :D went to meet mr kwei at siglap at 10am. yep that room was so totally dry, but still, i thought we sounded not bad. our hear my prayer was SO nice. like i could really hear that cry for help. hmm yep. after that we learnt sinsin and mu ge. omygosh i love muge. its damn nice! yep and peaceful and all that. and those two songs are REALLY easy. heh. after that they annouced the musico.
sop sl: shuwei
alto sl: sharon
tenor sl: martin
bass sl: fredrick
male sc: genrong
female sc: debbie
hmm, it was quite a duh thing. but i thought the whole announcing thing was quite abrupt. like it was more of like a 'oh they're the new musico? oh alright then.' sort of thing. yep. haha but anyways, congradulations to them! be nice to us yah :D heh. yep and after that we sang the mixed youth songs. sounded alright too. i think we're really improving :D and after that there was the nomination thingy for the new exco. here are the ten new nominees.
yizha
daniel
david
jeremy gan
elroy
jerrold
shixuan
note that there are no sops. OMG la. ))): why ldat. heh but actually, i dint vote for any sops too. haha. look at the overwhelmingly little amount of gurls. sighh. such a disgrace to us gurls la! lols. but anyway, CONGRATS to the people who are top ten. heh i voted for most of them alright! :D
so yep went with danny, sindhu, yuting to study at some cafe in parkway. yep i did like 1 half paragraphs of my zhuowen? heh. mathias joined us later. mainly we just spent our time talking about italy la. and yah i was rather sad.. but ohwell. there's nothing i can do now. sigh. yep after that went home :D
yep anyways, i realised that coming to vj as an underaged student. hmm how do i say? im like more of not here not there? cos im hanging out with people who are two years older than me. but then again, i really enjoy it here. cos people take care of you:D which i love. heh. i really dont want jnrs to come in nxt year! )): sigh, i shall enjoy the rest of my year than. lalala.
ahh and the stress.. omg la. shant think about it. im so totally procrastinating. and guess wad, there's physics test tmr, and i forgot to bring back my file. how great am i. sigh.
there's choir tmr :D lalalalala.
i really love vjchoir. like really really.
yep i never thought i would come to love vjchoir. but yah, i really do love it so. even though there are still times when i feel that i dont really belong, but its really been getting better and better. the choir's really bonded, in a sense. and the people there are really nice. the whole thing about the choir being clique-y and mean, nah its not really true. not when there are people like me :D in the choir. lol omygosh im sounding like yati. =/
im so damn sad i wont be able to go italy. its like, i'll not be having choir for one week and a half. actually wad gets me through school nowadays is choir. without choir, i dont know what im gonna do. everyday after school i siam to the choir room, during that period, there's no point going to the choir room, cos no one's inside! ): sigh. imagine, one week and a half without going to the choir room, without choir practices, and without seeing choir ppl[except yizha]. sigh. it'll be a truly depressing time for me. i wont be able to share the experience of singing, for the grand prize with them, i wont be able to wake up every morning during that period and see choir people. sighh. i'm so sad! ah let me just wallow in my self pity or something. seriously, those people who get to go italy, yall should be so thankful la. sighh.
so anyways, choir on saturday started with a 'sort of' pep talk from marcus. and we were like reciting a pledge or something? heh. but even though its rather corny, the effect was rather good. like it got us all pumped up and ready to go. yep and warm ups were good too. even though i was suffering from a bad bad sore throat, i could really feel my voice getting warmed up. yep and practice was good too :D went to meet mr kwei at siglap at 10am. yep that room was so totally dry, but still, i thought we sounded not bad. our hear my prayer was SO nice. like i could really hear that cry for help. hmm yep. after that we learnt sinsin and mu ge. omygosh i love muge. its damn nice! yep and peaceful and all that. and those two songs are REALLY easy. heh. after that they annouced the musico.
sop sl: shuwei
alto sl: sharon
tenor sl: martin
bass sl: fredrick
male sc: genrong
female sc: debbie
hmm, it was quite a duh thing. but i thought the whole announcing thing was quite abrupt. like it was more of like a 'oh they're the new musico? oh alright then.' sort of thing. yep. haha but anyways, congradulations to them! be nice to us yah :D heh. yep and after that we sang the mixed youth songs. sounded alright too. i think we're really improving :D and after that there was the nomination thingy for the new exco. here are the ten new nominees.
wanting
dawn
huping
yizha
daniel
david
jeremy gan
elroy
jerrold
shixuan
note that there are no sops. OMG la. ))): why ldat. heh but actually, i dint vote for any sops too. haha. look at the overwhelmingly little amount of gurls. sighh. such a disgrace to us gurls la! lols. but anyway, CONGRATS to the people who are top ten. heh i voted for most of them alright! :D
so yep went with danny, sindhu, yuting to study at some cafe in parkway. yep i did like 1 half paragraphs of my zhuowen? heh. mathias joined us later. mainly we just spent our time talking about italy la. and yah i was rather sad.. but ohwell. there's nothing i can do now. sigh. yep after that went home :D
yep anyways, i realised that coming to vj as an underaged student. hmm how do i say? im like more of not here not there? cos im hanging out with people who are two years older than me. but then again, i really enjoy it here. cos people take care of you:D which i love. heh. i really dont want jnrs to come in nxt year! )): sigh, i shall enjoy the rest of my year than. lalala.
ahh and the stress.. omg la. shant think about it. im so totally procrastinating. and guess wad, there's physics test tmr, and i forgot to bring back my file. how great am i. sigh.
there's choir tmr :D lalalalala.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
hello people.
its been a long long week. but rather fun, in a way i guess:D
monday
choir practice, it was rather alright la. yep actually i kinda forgot the details of the practice already. haha. bad memory -.-
tuesday-wednesday
CHOIR CAMP! haha yah the morning practice was rather, sianning la. as in people dint really have the mood to sing? yah. so we had practice in the morning and in the afternoon we had amazing race! i thought it was rather fun la. just that the race focused too much on the travelling aspect. the tasks were all rather short and easy too. lol. yep. but it really helped with group bonding la. and on the bus from orchard back to vj, bonded quite a lot with the people too.
after that was nightwalk! ohman it was damn scary la. they showed us juon before the walk. and yah it was the same juon i watched in p6, which left me with nightmares for quite some time. therefore, being the clever me, i decided to not watch it. haha. yep. after that walked the nightwalk with yuting. hmm i really have to say, it was rather scary. the route was well planned. i think i would have just like stood there and shouted chicken nehneh! upon reaching the grandstand. seriously it was damn scary there. haha when me and yuting reached there we were like, OH NO. haha. yep. so anyway we lasted the night walk without fainting. so yep! :D
went to sleep with the altos after that. haha cos we thought sops dint have room. yeh so i slept beside priscilla and we chatted for awhile yepyep. got to know her abit better :D ck if youre reading this, dont be jealous, although i slept beside her, i dint touch her. waha!
next morning, it was choir prac again! yep it was rather sianning too. i was singing the exciting bit of pamugun with my eyes closed la please. and i think i really dozed off once or twice. like so OMG. yah. after that was small group. THANK GOODNESS my group passed la. i mean, we were so stressed la alright. yep. i thought we were gonna fail, but luckily we dint fail la. luckylucky us. yep.
after that was the games. yah it was rather boring la. yep maybe because on daytwo everyone was rather tired and all that. so yep. haha GROUP 5 WON! woots. we so rock right. lalala. i love group5! jamie, oliver, irvin, martin, roy, kenny, me, siying, dawn! yay we so rock. :D yep after that they gave us this piece of paper for people to write about us. i thought that was a rather good idea, yep. i let many many people write. haha yah and my whole paper was full of 'babyish', 'kiddy', and 'little girl'. HAHA. how weird. to think they call me auntie in v11. lols.
yep went for dinner with the family. ok how funny, due to someone's [i dont know who's] big mouth, jeremy yeo officially became the family's eyecandy. HAHA. how funny, and how embarressing -.- lol!
thursday
i slept till two oclock please. therefore i hardly did any work. =/ yah.
friday
woke up feeling sick. yah i was sick anyway. slacked around the house, tried doing a bit of work. yah. and in the afternoon i went back to dhschoir. yep it was italy choir prac on that day anyway. i thought they improved quite alot. here are some comments, highlight only if you want to read: generally great improvement, or maybe its just because ive never head the tour choir before. yep. sops, be careful of your high notes, you all are screaming at your high notes. yah and sounds abit thin, try to open your mouth and lift your cheeks and eyebrows more. altos, generally alright, but sound abit rough. try to sing lighter. and there are some split notes here and there. generally not too bad la. and for the whole choir, some people are sticking out, try to listen more to each other and blend. dynamics are there, but not enough so try to do more. and the expression, its not really there. try to sing with feeling. but good points are that the phrasing is there. and the song is actually of performance standard already. so yep, good job tour choir! :D yep anyway, after that met up with the sistas! it was so much fun luh please. haha. we took lotsa crap photos and laughed and joked and caught up with each other. yep although we were only tgt for like 1hr plus, i really enjoued myself. LOVE THE SISTAS! :D
saturday
had choir in the morn. i thought we sucked. and mr kwei got seriously angry at our pamugun. yah. but anyway i seriously thought we sucked, but mr kwei said that we were alright.. hmm i also dont know. yah but anyway we had a short session ytd. were dismisses at like 1pm? 10-1. wow 3hrs only. haha first time sia. yep so anyway, went with some of the vj choir fam to eat at parkway. slacked there for quite awhile, laughed and joked about lotsa stuffs. haha. yep. it was quite fun la. after that went home and i had a terrible stomache. went to grandma's hse and ate, den i slept for a while. after that den i studied. yah. stuff ldat la. haha.
sunday[today]
woke up and tried to do some work. dint really succeed though. i have decided, from this point on, i shall not procrastinate :D yep so i shall be off to do my hwk then! bye people!
its been a long long week. but rather fun, in a way i guess:D
monday
choir practice, it was rather alright la. yep actually i kinda forgot the details of the practice already. haha. bad memory -.-
tuesday-wednesday
CHOIR CAMP! haha yah the morning practice was rather, sianning la. as in people dint really have the mood to sing? yah. so we had practice in the morning and in the afternoon we had amazing race! i thought it was rather fun la. just that the race focused too much on the travelling aspect. the tasks were all rather short and easy too. lol. yep. but it really helped with group bonding la. and on the bus from orchard back to vj, bonded quite a lot with the people too.
after that was nightwalk! ohman it was damn scary la. they showed us juon before the walk. and yah it was the same juon i watched in p6, which left me with nightmares for quite some time. therefore, being the clever me, i decided to not watch it. haha. yep. after that walked the nightwalk with yuting. hmm i really have to say, it was rather scary. the route was well planned. i think i would have just like stood there and shouted chicken nehneh! upon reaching the grandstand. seriously it was damn scary there. haha when me and yuting reached there we were like, OH NO. haha. yep. so anyway we lasted the night walk without fainting. so yep! :D
went to sleep with the altos after that. haha cos we thought sops dint have room. yeh so i slept beside priscilla and we chatted for awhile yepyep. got to know her abit better :D ck if youre reading this, dont be jealous, although i slept beside her, i dint touch her. waha!
next morning, it was choir prac again! yep it was rather sianning too. i was singing the exciting bit of pamugun with my eyes closed la please. and i think i really dozed off once or twice. like so OMG. yah. after that was small group. THANK GOODNESS my group passed la. i mean, we were so stressed la alright. yep. i thought we were gonna fail, but luckily we dint fail la. luckylucky us. yep.
after that was the games. yah it was rather boring la. yep maybe because on daytwo everyone was rather tired and all that. so yep. haha GROUP 5 WON! woots. we so rock right. lalala. i love group5! jamie, oliver, irvin, martin, roy, kenny, me, siying, dawn! yay we so rock. :D yep after that they gave us this piece of paper for people to write about us. i thought that was a rather good idea, yep. i let many many people write. haha yah and my whole paper was full of 'babyish', 'kiddy', and 'little girl'. HAHA. how weird. to think they call me auntie in v11. lols.
yep went for dinner with the family. ok how funny, due to someone's [i dont know who's] big mouth, jeremy yeo officially became the family's eyecandy. HAHA. how funny, and how embarressing -.- lol!
thursday
i slept till two oclock please. therefore i hardly did any work. =/ yah.
friday
woke up feeling sick. yah i was sick anyway. slacked around the house, tried doing a bit of work. yah. and in the afternoon i went back to dhschoir. yep it was italy choir prac on that day anyway. i thought they improved quite alot. here are some comments, highlight only if you want to read: generally great improvement, or maybe its just because ive never head the tour choir before. yep. sops, be careful of your high notes, you all are screaming at your high notes. yah and sounds abit thin, try to open your mouth and lift your cheeks and eyebrows more. altos, generally alright, but sound abit rough. try to sing lighter. and there are some split notes here and there. generally not too bad la. and for the whole choir, some people are sticking out, try to listen more to each other and blend. dynamics are there, but not enough so try to do more. and the expression, its not really there. try to sing with feeling. but good points are that the phrasing is there. and the song is actually of performance standard already. so yep, good job tour choir! :D yep anyway, after that met up with the sistas! it was so much fun luh please. haha. we took lotsa crap photos and laughed and joked and caught up with each other. yep although we were only tgt for like 1hr plus, i really enjoued myself. LOVE THE SISTAS! :D
saturday
had choir in the morn. i thought we sucked. and mr kwei got seriously angry at our pamugun. yah. but anyway i seriously thought we sucked, but mr kwei said that we were alright.. hmm i also dont know. yah but anyway we had a short session ytd. were dismisses at like 1pm? 10-1. wow 3hrs only. haha first time sia. yep so anyway, went with some of the vj choir fam to eat at parkway. slacked there for quite awhile, laughed and joked about lotsa stuffs. haha. yep. it was quite fun la. after that went home and i had a terrible stomache. went to grandma's hse and ate, den i slept for a while. after that den i studied. yah. stuff ldat la. haha.
sunday[today]
woke up and tried to do some work. dint really succeed though. i have decided, from this point on, i shall not procrastinate :D yep so i shall be off to do my hwk then! bye people!
Sunday, March 12, 2006
hello everyone!
long time no blog.
alright so yesterday was horny night. it was like OMG-ing horny. and disgusting, and the altos were distasteful.. haha it was really gross la.
yep i kinda forgot alot of stuff. so shant say so much.
btw, i CUT MY HAIR! its like short now. but a sophisticated kind of short. haha i like it! it looks damn nice and straight now. but then again, my hair was just cut, so the hairdresser undoubtly did some styling for me, making it look nice. so i shant be decieved by its niceness now. it'll prolly look horrible after a wash. =/ btw, dont be shocked when you see me. because i totally dont look like may now. haha, i look seher :D
so anyway, had a nice tim with sherry today! we cut hair side by side. and talked quite a lot. i love sherry! caught up quite a lot. and poor her got like cheated 20 bucks? haha aiya nvm la sherry take it as money well spent :D
so yep i havent really done any hwk. just did a bit here and there. there's choir tmr, and choir camp of tues and wed. im quite excited! haha. yep but im so scared of night walk la. i really will be damn scared one. sigh.
so anyway, i think choir's fun! im starting to love choir. the ppl there are like so nice. and they really take care of me and all that. i love singing. and i love choir ppl :D yeps. ge tting ready for a choir week! yay. :D
p.s. i really love my new hairstlye.
long time no blog.
alright so yesterday was horny night. it was like OMG-ing horny. and disgusting, and the altos were distasteful.. haha it was really gross la.
yep i kinda forgot alot of stuff. so shant say so much.
btw, i CUT MY HAIR! its like short now. but a sophisticated kind of short. haha i like it! it looks damn nice and straight now. but then again, my hair was just cut, so the hairdresser undoubtly did some styling for me, making it look nice. so i shant be decieved by its niceness now. it'll prolly look horrible after a wash. =/ btw, dont be shocked when you see me. because i totally dont look like may now. haha, i look seher :D
so anyway, had a nice tim with sherry today! we cut hair side by side. and talked quite a lot. i love sherry! caught up quite a lot. and poor her got like cheated 20 bucks? haha aiya nvm la sherry take it as money well spent :D
so yep i havent really done any hwk. just did a bit here and there. there's choir tmr, and choir camp of tues and wed. im quite excited! haha. yep but im so scared of night walk la. i really will be damn scared one. sigh.
so anyway, i think choir's fun! im starting to love choir. the ppl there are like so nice. and they really take care of me and all that. i love singing. and i love choir ppl :D yeps. ge tting ready for a choir week! yay. :D
p.s. i really love my new hairstlye.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Sunday, March 05, 2006
choir bbq
today was a nice day :D
haha ok today was a choir day la. went to sch early in the morn for choir, had sectionals, den we had combined. yep after that kwei came and den we had choir again. after that we were dismissed for lunch. ate with jerrold and shixuan at some hawker centre. lol.
ohh i scaled the gate to the classrooms. haha just to get my tie. damn cool la, it was scary and exciting at the same time. waha. first time scaling the gate sia. shall do that more often. haha. :D
yep after that was performance. and yeah it was so weird seeing everyone in vj uniform. haha. dont know leh esp when seeing those people who were in schs with many diff coloured uni. and cat high! haha short pants turn into long pants. haha. and yeah it was weird seeing everyone in a tie too. lol they all looked so guai la. haha.
yep the perfomance was =/ there was like only a few ppl. blah. and its like we screwed up zhuliguan. sigh. yeah after that went to change. haha i changed into my flipflops. and its like i was wearing slippers and sch u la. looked damn sloppy, according to the yati. HAHA. yeap took quite a few pictures.
DEN, we heard mass dance music. haha. den we RAN all the way to the source of the music la. and den started dancing. haha i was still wearing my tie and flipflops la. bet i looked damn weird. haha yeap so had a damn fun time dancing and den we all went to change. haha.
after that went to pit 32, for the choir bbq. haha went there and had a horny talk with the 'wet group'. haha. debbie was like telling answering my question asked yesterday and telling us about how gurls get horny. haha omg that was SO sick la! haha. yep after that we went to the sea and they started dunking ppl. lol. i got dunked =/ haha.
oh afterthat we played some games. i partnered with debbie:D haha yeah some horseman cavalier knight thingy. haha. quite fun la. in the end dawn had to forfeit. and she poledanced around irvin. LOL! how cute la. lol yep and we dunked martin too. LOL. when we were playing volleyball, we were all like hatching up a plan to dunk martin. LOL! damn funny.
so after that went to play this cat and mouse game thing. i lost la. so had to do forfeit. but i thought it was pretty easy for me. lol. i just lie on the sand, and weijie did one push up on top of me. lol. that's all so i thought it was alright. lol lucky me :D
yep and had this bury our legs thingy. was rather alright la. you just see everyone squeezing into one hole and covering our legs with sand. HAHA. so funny. yep i was busy wiping my sand filled hands on genrong's shirt. LOL!
yeap and had this bucket lifting thing. and yeap somemore stuff la. lol after that we played monkey in the sea. LOL damn funny. and den yeah just practically slacked in the sea until like 7. yeap. haha.
after that came back to shore and me and jamie went to 'bathe'. haha just rinsed our selves out outside and applied shampoo and all that. after that we went to change and blahblah. haha. yeap felt so nice and clean after that. haha.
after that me genrong and kenny kupped chicken wings and we went strolling. haha kenny was saying this sick joke, which i heard before, but it made me laugh like a lot a lot all the same. HAHA. yep i thought it was rather nice, walking around and talking. haha.
yeap after that just slacked my ass off. yah and we played the milk game. haha damn fun. and we played killer move and chop chilli. haha quite fun la. den we danced mass dance also lor. lols. hmm i was suddenly proclaimed the baby of the family too. lol. wanting's the mum, johnnie's the dad, shuwei yizha yuting my siblings, sindu the gardener, dawn the cousin, and oliver the grandfather or something ldat. lol was rather funny la. yeap and i was talking my baby talk and all that. LOL! yeap and asik was telling us some sick jokes. lol was rather funny la. and it was like SUPER sick. haha! but it was fun all the same.
yep although im very tired now, i enjoyed myself lots today. think that i'll get to like choir afterall.
and ahh! im so stressed, hwk never do, and i still have to mug my zhuliguan, cos there's voice test. DIE!
haha ok today was a choir day la. went to sch early in the morn for choir, had sectionals, den we had combined. yep after that kwei came and den we had choir again. after that we were dismissed for lunch. ate with jerrold and shixuan at some hawker centre. lol.
ohh i scaled the gate to the classrooms. haha just to get my tie. damn cool la, it was scary and exciting at the same time. waha. first time scaling the gate sia. shall do that more often. haha. :D
yep after that was performance. and yeah it was so weird seeing everyone in vj uniform. haha. dont know leh esp when seeing those people who were in schs with many diff coloured uni. and cat high! haha short pants turn into long pants. haha. and yeah it was weird seeing everyone in a tie too. lol they all looked so guai la. haha.
yep the perfomance was =/ there was like only a few ppl. blah. and its like we screwed up zhuliguan. sigh. yeah after that went to change. haha i changed into my flipflops. and its like i was wearing slippers and sch u la. looked damn sloppy, according to the yati. HAHA. yeap took quite a few pictures.
DEN, we heard mass dance music. haha. den we RAN all the way to the source of the music la. and den started dancing. haha i was still wearing my tie and flipflops la. bet i looked damn weird. haha yeap so had a damn fun time dancing and den we all went to change. haha.
after that went to pit 32, for the choir bbq. haha went there and had a horny talk with the 'wet group'. haha. debbie was like telling answering my question asked yesterday and telling us about how gurls get horny. haha omg that was SO sick la! haha. yep after that we went to the sea and they started dunking ppl. lol. i got dunked =/ haha.
oh afterthat we played some games. i partnered with debbie:D haha yeah some horseman cavalier knight thingy. haha. quite fun la. in the end dawn had to forfeit. and she poledanced around irvin. LOL! how cute la. lol yep and we dunked martin too. LOL. when we were playing volleyball, we were all like hatching up a plan to dunk martin. LOL! damn funny.
so after that went to play this cat and mouse game thing. i lost la. so had to do forfeit. but i thought it was pretty easy for me. lol. i just lie on the sand, and weijie did one push up on top of me. lol. that's all so i thought it was alright. lol lucky me :D
yep and had this bury our legs thingy. was rather alright la. you just see everyone squeezing into one hole and covering our legs with sand. HAHA. so funny. yep i was busy wiping my sand filled hands on genrong's shirt. LOL!
yeap and had this bucket lifting thing. and yeap somemore stuff la. lol after that we played monkey in the sea. LOL damn funny. and den yeah just practically slacked in the sea until like 7. yeap. haha.
after that came back to shore and me and jamie went to 'bathe'. haha just rinsed our selves out outside and applied shampoo and all that. after that we went to change and blahblah. haha. yeap felt so nice and clean after that. haha.
after that me genrong and kenny kupped chicken wings and we went strolling. haha kenny was saying this sick joke, which i heard before, but it made me laugh like a lot a lot all the same. HAHA. yep i thought it was rather nice, walking around and talking. haha.
yeap after that just slacked my ass off. yah and we played the milk game. haha damn fun. and we played killer move and chop chilli. haha quite fun la. den we danced mass dance also lor. lols. hmm i was suddenly proclaimed the baby of the family too. lol. wanting's the mum, johnnie's the dad, shuwei yizha yuting my siblings, sindu the gardener, dawn the cousin, and oliver the grandfather or something ldat. lol was rather funny la. yeap and i was talking my baby talk and all that. LOL! yeap and asik was telling us some sick jokes. lol was rather funny la. and it was like SUPER sick. haha! but it was fun all the same.
yep although im very tired now, i enjoyed myself lots today. think that i'll get to like choir afterall.
and ahh! im so stressed, hwk never do, and i still have to mug my zhuliguan, cos there's voice test. DIE!
Thursday, March 02, 2006
hello
well im at home now.
what can i say? the outing wasnt very fun.
watched big momma house 2. was rather funny la, but as althea says it, 'its very predictable'.
yep and after that we just walked around and slacked. seriously it wasnt very fun.
im not trying to be difficult or anything. but its just that none of you even bother about me. esp the two of you. try as i might, you two just always leave me out. i always thought that we'll turn out to be very close friends, being brothers and sisters and all that. but thinking about it now, you two are the ones i have the most problems with. call me oversensitive, call me attention seeking. but i nearly always feel sad when im out with you two. non of you pay attention to me, im like this invisible thing hovering around. i try as hard as i can to talk to you, but you either ignore me, roll your eyes, or just plain ask me to shut up. do you know how hurt i feel? and yet you two just dont think that you are treating me this way. seriously, dont blame me for throwing my temper, i cant help feeling sad and lost. do you think its nice feeling this way?
anyway, and here comes the fun part. we were in taka, when suddenly, we saw this bunch of tj people. on closer look, they turned out to be the ta people. LOL. saw shirleen! cephas saw clarence and althea saw debby. LOL yeah we all saw our friends. and THAT's when i found out that vivian was in taka too! omg that got me so excited and happy la.
lol so yep after they were dismissed, i met up with vivian and the two of us went off for a chat. yep. it was rather fun! haha i mean, it felt good chatting with her and all that. i really needed someone like her then. it feels so great knowing that there are still people who care and love you. yep so chatting with her for like 2 hrs and we went home.
ahh i miss my old friends so much. sigh.
what can i say? the outing wasnt very fun.
watched big momma house 2. was rather funny la, but as althea says it, 'its very predictable'.
yep and after that we just walked around and slacked. seriously it wasnt very fun.
im not trying to be difficult or anything. but its just that none of you even bother about me. esp the two of you. try as i might, you two just always leave me out. i always thought that we'll turn out to be very close friends, being brothers and sisters and all that. but thinking about it now, you two are the ones i have the most problems with. call me oversensitive, call me attention seeking. but i nearly always feel sad when im out with you two. non of you pay attention to me, im like this invisible thing hovering around. i try as hard as i can to talk to you, but you either ignore me, roll your eyes, or just plain ask me to shut up. do you know how hurt i feel? and yet you two just dont think that you are treating me this way. seriously, dont blame me for throwing my temper, i cant help feeling sad and lost. do you think its nice feeling this way?
anyway, and here comes the fun part. we were in taka, when suddenly, we saw this bunch of tj people. on closer look, they turned out to be the ta people. LOL. saw shirleen! cephas saw clarence and althea saw debby. LOL yeah we all saw our friends. and THAT's when i found out that vivian was in taka too! omg that got me so excited and happy la.
lol so yep after they were dismissed, i met up with vivian and the two of us went off for a chat. yep. it was rather fun! haha i mean, it felt good chatting with her and all that. i really needed someone like her then. it feels so great knowing that there are still people who care and love you. yep so chatting with her for like 2 hrs and we went home.
ahh i miss my old friends so much. sigh.
school
hello ppl! haha realised that im always blogging in school nowadays.
hmm im not so depressed anymore i guess. but then, i dont know, somehow i dont feel like i really belong.
i dont really feel like i BELONG to v11. and the gang.. oh well =X
and as for choir, things are getting better. recently ive been going down to the choir room to hang out. things are pretty ok la. i mean, i talk to them, they talk to me. and im starting to get out of my shell already. i realised that the choir people are rather nice actually. and that i dont actually NEED to stick to particular groups of people. yep :D hopefully things will improve more and i'll grow to love choir :D
we have the whole day off today! because the year3s did very well for their a levels. haha. yep that's cool. so anyway we're supposed to be going out. ah damn sian. still in school now, even though its already 10.30am i want to go out! and the gang's like dilly dallying. ahh im so tempted to go out with the choir ppl la, there are two bunches, one going bugis and the other going cycling. sigh i wanna go out with them! rather than stay here and slack =/ sigh.
this is SO shit. and if i make the gang hurry, they'll just ask me to relax and tell me not to be so hiong or whatever. AHH. i really have no patience la. so sickening. bleah. i hate people to dillydally. SUCKS. argh.
somehow, i dont know how you feel. i really dont know. and i dont know how i feel too. sigh.
and i wanna play puzzle fighter! haha. the puzzle fighter in the choir room is damn fun one la. :D
hmm im not so depressed anymore i guess. but then, i dont know, somehow i dont feel like i really belong.
i dont really feel like i BELONG to v11. and the gang.. oh well =X
and as for choir, things are getting better. recently ive been going down to the choir room to hang out. things are pretty ok la. i mean, i talk to them, they talk to me. and im starting to get out of my shell already. i realised that the choir people are rather nice actually. and that i dont actually NEED to stick to particular groups of people. yep :D hopefully things will improve more and i'll grow to love choir :D
we have the whole day off today! because the year3s did very well for their a levels. haha. yep that's cool. so anyway we're supposed to be going out. ah damn sian. still in school now, even though its already 10.30am i want to go out! and the gang's like dilly dallying. ahh im so tempted to go out with the choir ppl la, there are two bunches, one going bugis and the other going cycling. sigh i wanna go out with them! rather than stay here and slack =/ sigh.
this is SO shit. and if i make the gang hurry, they'll just ask me to relax and tell me not to be so hiong or whatever. AHH. i really have no patience la. so sickening. bleah. i hate people to dillydally. SUCKS. argh.
somehow, i dont know how you feel. i really dont know. and i dont know how i feel too. sigh.
and i wanna play puzzle fighter! haha. the puzzle fighter in the choir room is damn fun one la. :D
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
hello ppl
im in school now. haha just had this water fight. HOW DUMB. and i wasted like my time away ):
ohwell at least i had fun. haha.
so anyway, im gonna waste somemore time. going out to parkway with shixuan later. cos he wanna buy ankle socks -.- so lame. HAHA.
i wanna see HIM =X
ohwell at least i had fun. haha.
so anyway, im gonna waste somemore time. going out to parkway with shixuan later. cos he wanna buy ankle socks -.- so lame. HAHA.
i wanna see HIM =X
Saturday, February 25, 2006
had choir today.
somehow it dint feel as good as it did last wed.
im looking forward to mon's prac, where it'll be a year one prac. so yeah. haha hopefully it'll be better la.
went to eat with shixuan, huping and jerrold after choir. somehow dint feel very happy also. sigh.
sian.
ahh i dont know what to do. i dont know how i feel now. sigh what's it about you? i never thought that i'll like you. ahh but do i really like you? or is it just infatuation. sigh i dont know! but somehow, i feel that it might just be one sided. if you really do like me, make a move. serious. ahh, i dont know! i guess time will tell.. youre affecting me terribly. sigh.
somehow it dint feel as good as it did last wed.
im looking forward to mon's prac, where it'll be a year one prac. so yeah. haha hopefully it'll be better la.
went to eat with shixuan, huping and jerrold after choir. somehow dint feel very happy also. sigh.
sian.
ahh i dont know what to do. i dont know how i feel now. sigh what's it about you? i never thought that i'll like you. ahh but do i really like you? or is it just infatuation. sigh i dont know! but somehow, i feel that it might just be one sided. if you really do like me, make a move. serious. ahh, i dont know! i guess time will tell.. youre affecting me terribly. sigh.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
sci centre
HELLO everyone!
began the day rather badly, as always.
yeap so anyway had 'free' ss today. but also did quite some work la. haha anyway i think 11's turning into the nasi lemak class already la. lol cephas bought up like 10 packets of nasi lemak today la. LOL! yeap so any ways was quite anti la.
after that was maths, AHH so confusing and all that la. lol but when enlightenment comes, the feeling is really very good :D
haha so after that was a double period break. went to the choir room for the second period. lol shixuan and huping came up to look for me. and den after that went down with damn, huping went home though. yeap and then went into the choir room lor. i brought my maths there to do lor :D yep so there were very little people inside, genrong, daniel, jgan and this guy called frederick. lol yeap so kinda slacked around abit. was quite fun la. haha played the capcom puzzle fighter thing. heh :D i lost daniel, but won shixuan. so look who's the biggest loser around=D and i managed to do two maths questions, when i thought i would be able to do none =P lol so yep. some people were saying that lne = 0 arhs. lol. left the room at around 1.55pm. cos had to go for some sci center trip thingy.
set with jerald on the bus, had a good talk with him and sorted out somethings. so how i guess my problems are being solved la. yep so had relatively good fun at the sci centre. sang with rhoda and ylynn some of the old dhschoir songs. lol. was reliving my memories. haha was rather fun :D so anyway, yep went for this talk. damn gay la, me and althea were like fighting over who was kelvin's biggest love. lol and kelvin and althea signed the marriage papers. HAHA.
yep after that was kinda free and easy la. we moved around and looked at some of the exhibits. haha was quite fun la. the whole testing of strength thing. haha some guy managed to use his arms muscles to hit 150 arhs! lol. haha so yep it was rather fun la. you can call it kiddy/childish, but hey some of the funnest things are done when we're young alright.
after that went to macs, saw my nehneh! yep and talked quite a bit with her. lol. after that went back le. sat with jerald again. lol and he was like helping me reply my msgs to sherry because i was eating. lol forgot to say thanks, so THANKS JERALD! =DD
yep anyway, the day progressively got better la. so think today's a good day.
and i'd like to go choir room more often, lol its rather fun:D
began the day rather badly, as always.
yeap so anyway had 'free' ss today. but also did quite some work la. haha anyway i think 11's turning into the nasi lemak class already la. lol cephas bought up like 10 packets of nasi lemak today la. LOL! yeap so any ways was quite anti la.
after that was maths, AHH so confusing and all that la. lol but when enlightenment comes, the feeling is really very good :D
haha so after that was a double period break. went to the choir room for the second period. lol shixuan and huping came up to look for me. and den after that went down with damn, huping went home though. yeap and then went into the choir room lor. i brought my maths there to do lor :D yep so there were very little people inside, genrong, daniel, jgan and this guy called frederick. lol yeap so kinda slacked around abit. was quite fun la. haha played the capcom puzzle fighter thing. heh :D i lost daniel, but won shixuan. so look who's the biggest loser around=D and i managed to do two maths questions, when i thought i would be able to do none =P lol so yep. some people were saying that lne = 0 arhs. lol. left the room at around 1.55pm. cos had to go for some sci center trip thingy.
set with jerald on the bus, had a good talk with him and sorted out somethings. so how i guess my problems are being solved la. yep so had relatively good fun at the sci centre. sang with rhoda and ylynn some of the old dhschoir songs. lol. was reliving my memories. haha was rather fun :D so anyway, yep went for this talk. damn gay la, me and althea were like fighting over who was kelvin's biggest love. lol and kelvin and althea signed the marriage papers. HAHA.
yep after that was kinda free and easy la. we moved around and looked at some of the exhibits. haha was quite fun la. the whole testing of strength thing. haha some guy managed to use his arms muscles to hit 150 arhs! lol. haha so yep it was rather fun la. you can call it kiddy/childish, but hey some of the funnest things are done when we're young alright.
after that went to macs, saw my nehneh! yep and talked quite a bit with her. lol. after that went back le. sat with jerald again. lol and he was like helping me reply my msgs to sherry because i was eating. lol forgot to say thanks, so THANKS JERALD! =DD
yep anyway, the day progressively got better la. so think today's a good day.
and i'd like to go choir room more often, lol its rather fun:D
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
choir
choir today was unbelievably fun!
haha ok shall talk about my day. the day in class was alright la. hmm. the same patterns la, have lotsa fun, person X appears and i'll lose all my fun. yep. oh well whatever la, it will take some getting used to i guess. my life in ip1 & ip2 is gonna be like that from now one =/
yep so anyway had psl session today. it was rather fun la. lol better than last weeks one anyway. lol. some game whr we had to shift our butts and shoot ppl with the toy guns. lol it was rather spastic. whr at some point me and kelvin ended up squeezing into one chair, and me, being the nice may, decided to give up the fight and let kelvin win. and thus i had to have a forfeit =/ the people who stood in the middle had to go over to v13 and model or something. lol because darryl came over to do a forfeit and we had to repay them the favour. =X and althea ended up shooting darryl's *ahem*. LOL.
so yep after that was choir. today was year1 prac. quite fun la. lol. dunno how to say, but overall the atmosphere was more friendly. and it felt more warm la. haha. this is how choir's gonna be like for the 2nd semester i guess. haha.
yep after choir crapped around a lot. lol. damn fun la. crap and crap and crap with the year 1s. and there were three year 2s there also, marcus, jeremy yeo and irvin. yep crapped abit with them too. esp jeremy yeo. den he was like so -.- haha! yep so went for lunch with the people at parkway. was rather fun and crappy la. yep im starting to like choir. this is wad the type of practices that i like la. haha. yep.
i have decided to socialise more now. choir people are actually quite nice :D
haha ok shall talk about my day. the day in class was alright la. hmm. the same patterns la, have lotsa fun, person X appears and i'll lose all my fun. yep. oh well whatever la, it will take some getting used to i guess. my life in ip1 & ip2 is gonna be like that from now one =/
yep so anyway had psl session today. it was rather fun la. lol better than last weeks one anyway. lol. some game whr we had to shift our butts and shoot ppl with the toy guns. lol it was rather spastic. whr at some point me and kelvin ended up squeezing into one chair, and me, being the nice may, decided to give up the fight and let kelvin win. and thus i had to have a forfeit =/ the people who stood in the middle had to go over to v13 and model or something. lol because darryl came over to do a forfeit and we had to repay them the favour. =X and althea ended up shooting darryl's *ahem*. LOL.
so yep after that was choir. today was year1 prac. quite fun la. lol. dunno how to say, but overall the atmosphere was more friendly. and it felt more warm la. haha. this is how choir's gonna be like for the 2nd semester i guess. haha.
yep after choir crapped around a lot. lol. damn fun la. crap and crap and crap with the year 1s. and there were three year 2s there also, marcus, jeremy yeo and irvin. yep crapped abit with them too. esp jeremy yeo. den he was like so -.- haha! yep so went for lunch with the people at parkway. was rather fun and crappy la. yep im starting to like choir. this is wad the type of practices that i like la. haha. yep.
i have decided to socialise more now. choir people are actually quite nice :D
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Ive had enough
ive really had enough.
all these shit, all these crap, all these problems. from now on im not gonna care.
I HATE EFFING DAOKIAS AND PANGSEHERS.
stop talking about expectations. I TOLD yall my expectations. DONT GIVE ME THE CRAP SAYING THAT I DINT, i know bloody well that i did.
stop talking about all these problems and trying to solve them. LOOK we dont click and that's that. go live your own life and i'll live MY life. i cant stand the way you pacify me. really im not like a kid. i dont think that im in the wrong. so stop it. ive really had enough of you.
and you, stop saying that you care. you dont and i bloody well know it. you pangseh me, you dao me. and you can say that you care? SHUT UP. really. youre not worth crying over. much as i care about you, it doesnt matter anymore.
althea[&beau]'s right, dont cry over someone who wont cry over you.
i miss my friends, i miss dhschoir, i even miss twobee.
i miss the sistas, i miss the sexyfam, i miss the choirfam, i miss my laogong, i miss my feevian, i miss angmian, i miss all my old friends.
i miss all those times when i had someone always there for me.
i miss those times when i loved people whole heartedly.
i miss those times when people loved me whole heartedly.
i miss dunman high, i miss the culture there.
much as i love vj, i dont love the people there. i dont even look forward to going to school anymore. maybe i really did make the wrong choice.
***
and the hwk. WALAU what's with the teachers. give hwk like free like that. look we havent got like 50 hrs in one day. and even if we had, we prolly wont get them done.
look at the truckload of work i have:
1) chinese scrapbook
2) lang arts reader
3) maths assignment [exponential equations]
4) maths assignment [logarithms]
5) imagineering
6) electives
7) discussion for maths project
8) study for physics test
9) study for chemistry test
10) study for lang arts test
11) mug choir songs
on top of that, i still have TOTALLY hiong choir practices. and what's worse is that im not even going italy. like what crap is this la.
***
IM NOT HAPPY. i really am not. i need my old friends. ohman.
all these shit, all these crap, all these problems. from now on im not gonna care.
I HATE EFFING DAOKIAS AND PANGSEHERS.
stop talking about expectations. I TOLD yall my expectations. DONT GIVE ME THE CRAP SAYING THAT I DINT, i know bloody well that i did.
stop talking about all these problems and trying to solve them. LOOK we dont click and that's that. go live your own life and i'll live MY life. i cant stand the way you pacify me. really im not like a kid. i dont think that im in the wrong. so stop it. ive really had enough of you.
and you, stop saying that you care. you dont and i bloody well know it. you pangseh me, you dao me. and you can say that you care? SHUT UP. really. youre not worth crying over. much as i care about you, it doesnt matter anymore.
althea[&beau]'s right, dont cry over someone who wont cry over you.
i miss my friends, i miss dhschoir, i even miss twobee.
i miss the sistas, i miss the sexyfam, i miss the choirfam, i miss my laogong, i miss my feevian, i miss angmian, i miss all my old friends.
i miss all those times when i had someone always there for me.
i miss those times when i loved people whole heartedly.
i miss those times when people loved me whole heartedly.
i miss dunman high, i miss the culture there.
much as i love vj, i dont love the people there. i dont even look forward to going to school anymore. maybe i really did make the wrong choice.
***
and the hwk. WALAU what's with the teachers. give hwk like free like that. look we havent got like 50 hrs in one day. and even if we had, we prolly wont get them done.
look at the truckload of work i have:
1) chinese scrapbook
2) lang arts reader
3) maths assignment [exponential equations]
4) maths assignment [logarithms]
5) imagineering
6) electives
7) discussion for maths project
8) study for physics test
9) study for chemistry test
10) study for lang arts test
11) mug choir songs
on top of that, i still have TOTALLY hiong choir practices. and what's worse is that im not even going italy. like what crap is this la.
***
IM NOT HAPPY. i really am not. i need my old friends. ohman.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
SCHOOL
today's valentine's day.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
yep so anyway, it was a rather special day today. came into the school being rather happy and hyper. hmm was talking to jerald and was saying that i'll prolly get moodswing later on in the day.
well, im moodswinging now. what can i say? with great expectations come great disappointment. im acting yknow, now. acting happy, i was laughing so happily and all that with alvin and j.t. oh well, i enjoyed their company, but i guess i wasnt really laughing whole heartedly. im sad. i dont know why, this is so shit. maybe its the fatigue that's been accumulating. sigh. i was acting happy, but i cant possibly act happy all the time. ohwell wadever. nobody cares anyway.
maybe im being unreasonable. sigh.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
yep so anyway, it was a rather special day today. came into the school being rather happy and hyper. hmm was talking to jerald and was saying that i'll prolly get moodswing later on in the day.
well, im moodswinging now. what can i say? with great expectations come great disappointment. im acting yknow, now. acting happy, i was laughing so happily and all that with alvin and j.t. oh well, i enjoyed their company, but i guess i wasnt really laughing whole heartedly. im sad. i dont know why, this is so shit. maybe its the fatigue that's been accumulating. sigh. i was acting happy, but i cant possibly act happy all the time. ohwell wadever. nobody cares anyway.
maybe im being unreasonable. sigh.
Monday, February 13, 2006
school again
hello people! im in sch again.
lol its 2.43pm now and im waiting for choir, which starts at 4pm. the rest are all gone, because they went to parkway to get stuff. think im gonna go do my chinese hwk first. :D i think imma such a nice hardworking studious gurl.
dont know what's got into me today. im not very happy about some stuffs, and yet im not blowing my top over small things that irritate me. that's good i guess, in a way, it shows im learning how to keep my feelings to myself. i kept laughing the whole day, but somehow, i find myself questioning, am i really laughing? or am i laughing for the sake of laughing? i dont want to sound depressing or anything, i mean im not depressed la [i hope], but recently i see nothing for me to be happy about. i think sometimes i set too high expectations for myself, and for other people. thus i tend to get disappointed more easily. maybe i should just remove my expectations, that way i wont get sad and i wont get disappointed.
bah i dont know what im talking about. its craziness maybe.
im very upset now, and they dont even know. =/
lol its 2.43pm now and im waiting for choir, which starts at 4pm. the rest are all gone, because they went to parkway to get stuff. think im gonna go do my chinese hwk first. :D i think imma such a nice hardworking studious gurl.
dont know what's got into me today. im not very happy about some stuffs, and yet im not blowing my top over small things that irritate me. that's good i guess, in a way, it shows im learning how to keep my feelings to myself. i kept laughing the whole day, but somehow, i find myself questioning, am i really laughing? or am i laughing for the sake of laughing? i dont want to sound depressing or anything, i mean im not depressed la [i hope], but recently i see nothing for me to be happy about. i think sometimes i set too high expectations for myself, and for other people. thus i tend to get disappointed more easily. maybe i should just remove my expectations, that way i wont get sad and i wont get disappointed.
bah i dont know what im talking about. its craziness maybe.
im very upset now, and they dont even know. =/
Friday, February 10, 2006
welfare
HELLO everyone!
ytd was class comm elections. quite terrifying.
so anyway, results were announced today. i got the position! so happy. i get to work with kelvin =DD
yep anyway, i thought yiling did a good job. she spoke very well and professionally. and she has good sportsmanship. she told me she will really support me and stuff after the results were announced. i was quite touched. really think she's like a super nice gurl. yay yiling rocks! :D
yep afterthat went out. it was quite fun la. lol.
got nothing much to say. anyway, i just want to thank the people who've shown me so much concern. im really alright yeah. dont worry! imma happy gurl:D
ytd was class comm elections. quite terrifying.
so anyway, results were announced today. i got the position! so happy. i get to work with kelvin =DD
yep anyway, i thought yiling did a good job. she spoke very well and professionally. and she has good sportsmanship. she told me she will really support me and stuff after the results were announced. i was quite touched. really think she's like a super nice gurl. yay yiling rocks! :D
yep afterthat went out. it was quite fun la. lol.
got nothing much to say. anyway, i just want to thank the people who've shown me so much concern. im really alright yeah. dont worry! imma happy gurl:D
Thursday, February 09, 2006
resolutions
1) i will not mood swing in school anymore.
2) i will not throw trantrums anymore.
3) i shall stay happy and be understanding.
4) i shall be magnanimous and forgiving.
5) i shall work hard to do my best in school.
6) i shall not expect too much of people.
7) i shall work hard for choir.
8) i shall be friendly.
9) i shall look at people freshly.
10) i shall be a nice girl.
:D
2) i will not throw trantrums anymore.
3) i shall stay happy and be understanding.
4) i shall be magnanimous and forgiving.
5) i shall work hard to do my best in school.
6) i shall not expect too much of people.
7) i shall work hard for choir.
8) i shall be friendly.
9) i shall look at people freshly.
10) i shall be a nice girl.
:D
school
hello people! in sch now. its currently 7.15am. shall have to go down in 20 mins time :D
so a quick post here.
actually, i dont really know what to say.
i mean, what to type?
there's been many things going on recently. not all of them good. feeling quite sad about some issues. hmm i dont know what to say.
im bored! they're all gathered around my table. talking about hwk or something. LOL. such nice studious people.
i wanna watch i not stupid too! who wants to go watch with me? my friends dowan to go watch lehs. )): or rather, we dont have the time to go. sigh.
i dont know what's happening recently. im having problems with BOTH of you. and besides that, im having issues with choir. sigh. what's wrong with our friendship/s its like going downhill steadily. maybe the problem is with me. now i know what it feels like to be ignored and uncared for. then why did you make me feel so cared for last time? just when i thought i could depend on yall. you all had to treat me like that. and crash all my hopes. i dont know what to do now. having so many problems recently, i cant even be happy in class. stop blaming me for being moody and all. do you think i wanted to be like that?
so a quick post here.
actually, i dont really know what to say.
i mean, what to type?
there's been many things going on recently. not all of them good. feeling quite sad about some issues. hmm i dont know what to say.
im bored! they're all gathered around my table. talking about hwk or something. LOL. such nice studious people.
i wanna watch i not stupid too! who wants to go watch with me? my friends dowan to go watch lehs. )): or rather, we dont have the time to go. sigh.
i dont know what's happening recently. im having problems with BOTH of you. and besides that, im having issues with choir. sigh. what's wrong with our friendship/s its like going downhill steadily. maybe the problem is with me. now i know what it feels like to be ignored and uncared for. then why did you make me feel so cared for last time? just when i thought i could depend on yall. you all had to treat me like that. and crash all my hopes. i dont know what to do now. having so many problems recently, i cant even be happy in class. stop blaming me for being moody and all. do you think i wanted to be like that?
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