im getting rather tired of studying, of choir, of everything in my life.

how wonderful it would be if i could just stop everything i am doing now, and just do something that does not involve stress?

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SCO's coming to an end soon, tmr'll be the last practice(the 2nd concert). im feeling bittersweet. sweet, that SCO is finally ending, all the long and tiring pracs, all gone. bitter, because i really will miss the times spent with the year0s, year1s and year2s. meeting up with rayrin and xianyong before proceeding to SCH, all those intervals where we sat in a circle and crapped, hugging people all the time, going home and bitching with isabelle (: yes. it is really a time of great bonding.

speaking of bonding, the choir somehow decided to sing sit down and hear my prayer as a kind of warm up today. as i was singing it, i suddenly felt so proud of being in vjchoir, and that vjchoir is not as clique-ish as what people outside make us sound like. yes, we may have our own friendship groups, but ultimately, we are still one choir. it really shows in the way we can always come together, anytime, anywhere and make good music. i felt really touched when i was singing, i realised that i do belong in vjchoir. everyone of us do, every single one.

through all these SCO's pracs, i've realised a lot of things. i actually DO have a lot of people who care for me. i always think too much, and let my emotions get the better of me, causing me to do or say things that hurt others, as well as myself. i really should just try to relax and be optimistic. it makes life easier anyway.

im really going to miss SCO pracs. and the year0s! they're not going to come for prac anymore, and the next time i see them is probably during carolling. sigh, it'll be a long wait ): i should really try my best to spend more time with them tmr. enjoy and appreciate every moment that comes tmr. yes.

yes and i should stop displaying my emotions. its like, i really should stop all those bitching posts. but then again, when im angry, there's no telling what i can do. and that is really bad. people think that i am such a complete bitch. sigh. but bitching helps me to feel better.. oh well. i should try, and learn to grow up, and take things in my stride. i shall try to be a nice girl.

im getting rather sick of choir, its really tiring, i really want a break on monday, there is A LOT of catching up for me to do(in terms of schoolwork). i dont want to lag behind. sigh. and even though i am rather sick of choir, i just want to say

I LOVE VJCHOIR,
no man is an island.


how ironic =/