ohsixveeoneone, i love :D

<3 class chalet!

haha had class chalet the past two days. it was quite fun :D

didnt go for choir in the morning cos felt sick and had a sorethroat.

yeap after resting for a while, i went to join the class at the chalet!

although the chalet itself wasnt exactly up to the standards that we had wanted, the whole experience was indeed priceless. it's the first time i was allowed to stay overnight at a chalet and i found that the memories formed are really quite precious.

from the guitar and sing-along sessions, to mahjong, to talking under the stars, to walking along pasir ris park at 4 in the morning, to getting kicked awake in the morning, to walking to whitesands to shop for bbq stuff, to getting disappointed by basic instint2, to walking with puen to the spider web in pasir ris park, to climbing the playgrounds in pasir ris park together, to the bbq, to the delicious cheesecake that miss low bought for us, to the asshole daidee game, to the talks i had with the different people in the chalet..

well all these will be precious memories that will stay with me and i am really happy that the chalet was fun. yeah, im gonna miss 06v11! :( thank you everyone for the beautiful memories. well it was really a great experience, and even though some of them are still at the chalet now, im happy enough with what i've experienced and so yeah i really wanna thank 06v11 for all these.

hope there'll be more class outings! yeah, if there are, please try to go. we still have the gelare voucher that miss low gave us, which means at least 1 more class outing? haha :D

i think you got it.

and i think i got your reply.

ohwell,
thanks.

its just like a cosine graph.
and the frequency changes from time to time.
so does the amplitude.
i dont know what im actually supposed to do.

eurgh.

went for lunch today.
it was fun :D

haha going for beach blowout later.
have to meet pu ey at city hall! sigh, go all the way there just for her.

PU EY YOU BETTER THANK ME!

haha okay im quite happy now =D

went cycling with the class today. okay or rather, 'class'. haha there was only elroy, debby, althea, cephas and kelvin. haha. but oh well it was rather fun i must say.

but cycling on a public hol is really :S haha. ECP was FLOODED with people! but haha it was fun. i like to cycle, though i cycle slowly. and they kept saying that i was the limiting reagent =/ made me feel so bad. oh but we cycled for 2 hrs, and only stopped for a while. haha so i think that's not bad already. :D

yeah after that we stood around talking for a while. after which kel suggested that we went to some swimming club place to eat, and he said that it was his treat. haha. we were like 0.0! haha, but seeing that there was free food, we all agreed.

alicea, being the typical her, zoomed to the country club upon hearing that it was kel's treat. haha. so yeah we all went for dinner. sat there and talked for quite long too. it was nice :D

haha, i like gatherings like these, we must all meet up more often lah! :)

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what's mine once will not stay mine forever.

ah, the soul society arc in bleach has come to an end.
how sad :(

I LIKE AIZEN!
shant spoil it for people.. but ahh! lol.

i love bleach :D the first 20 episodes werent that good, but the next 40 were like, WOAH. the many different battles, and watching the ryoka growing and becoming stronger.. it was so cool. haha. now i know why so many people are addicted to bleach. heh.

ah im really sad that the whole soul society bit is over for now :(
i loved the soul society bit lah! the captains are all so cool, and it was damn exciting to watch them releasing their bankai. haha. yes and i loved how there are so many stories behind the different characters in the show, and how they are all interconnected.

lol okay i know its weird to blog about bleach.. but i just wanted to okay! haha. yeah everyone, go watch bleach! im serious you wont be disappointed :D

the map of the world is on you,
the moon gravitates you,
the seasons escape you.

is it my overactive imagination?

omg i am so tired now.
yawn.

watched bleach from 7pm to about 10.45 pm. close to 4 hrs. watch until my eyes so pain and everything. lol but its good cause im at episode 31 now! 2 episodes away from jerald, and im ahead of althea already :D heh.

okay so anyway, there's chinese mock tmr! rah. need to go read some fan wens later.. although im very sure i'll fall asleep. ah but who cares lah i shall try at least.

today was a good and a bad day.
i dont really know.
sigh.

**

i think its back to how it was like.
ah how naive i was to have thought that perhaps i was different.
i guess im just one of the lot afterall.
eurgh.

i wish, and i wish, and i wish.
and it never comes true.
damn.

and like i said, when there's an up, there's always a down.
it's a down now.
tmr will be worse,
we'll revert to our old ways.

of ignoring.
ah.

sometimes i wish things were different, that circumstances are not what it's like today.

if i had done things differently in the past, would things have been different? would it have progressed to be how i want it to be? it sucks that i've to sit here and watch, knowing that what i want is so distant and untouchable.

there's little time left now. what's going to happen next year? will everything just fade off? much as i try to drive everything out of my mind, there's this small part of me that doesnt want things to go away. its stupid i know, but that dumb part is hoping for something to happen, that what i want will come true.

i dont even know what in the world is happening right now. its just on and off. i hate having to play mind games, but im doing that everyday.

its exciting i agree, but tiring too. i dont want this to end, but i dont want it to continue too. ah im stupidly contradicting myself. its been going on for a whole year. when will it finally stop? will i have to be the one to put a stop to it, or will you be kind enough to stop everything?

ah i dont know.

huggies dri comfort!

i like :D

does he see what i see,
does he feel what i feel?

in my life,
im no longer alone..
now the love of my life is so near.

find me now,
find me here.


in my life,
she has burst like the music of angels,
the light of the song.

and my life,
seems to stop as if something is over
and something has scarcely begun.

**

things are going well now,
but how long would it last?

happiness,
even if that is only for a short moment.
it's enough to last me for a long long time.
:)

cyber space

sometimes i really marvel at the powers of the computer screen. especially how it helps you to hide your feelings so well. the computer screen provides a safe place for you to talk without betraying your feelings, because more often than not, what you feel is shown through your expression and your tone. and the computer screen is something you can hide behind, to prevent others from reading exactly what you are thinking, for we can only try to infer more about a situation only by the other party's diction, which doesnt really tell much.

for example, you might be holding your head in your hands one moment, and in the next, youre showing a huge smiley face (:D) to the person you are talking to, even though you probably have tears in your eyes. see how the computer screen helps you to stow away all those excess expressions and what not that give away what certain feelings that you want to hide from the other party?

you see, even right now, you dont know what i am feeling. i might be happy and high and yet im pretending to be serious while i might just be sad and emo and trying to express what i feel through this blogpost.

i think nobody will ever know. so, happy guessing. :D

i dunno what the hell i was thinking today.
i dunno why i did what i did.
i dunno why i said what i said.

i shouldnt have. argh now its gonna be damn weird i agree. but being weird is much better than talking about all these and making things go even worse. i know i shouldnt have even mentioned it, cos i bet it sucks that i left things hanging.

well i didnt want to continue partly cos i didnt know how to phrase what i feel. and i realised there's no point in me talking about all these because its just a problem on my part.

im sorry.

**

'youre reminding me of last year'

ah i still havent grown up. childish and immature and unreasonable. that's what i am. a leopard never changes its spots. im such a failure.. no matter how much i try to change myself, to stop being so unreasonable. i just cannot do it. im still that same person from two years back. and im ashamed of that. seeing that comment really hurt. :(

we're just from two completely different worlds.
there's no point chasing the impossible.

this takes plenty of courage,
which neither of us possess.

jealousy sucks.
its just not the same anymore.
i want my triplets :(

haha this is damn crazy lah. went althea's house today, ended up camwhoring. xD

i think im obsessed. with you.

im in a dilemma.
why do i feel so much for you?

I LOVE 06v11!

thank you for all the happy memories.

inv!gorate was the BEST! yes we are all tired, most are sunburnt, and some are injured, but still, it's all these that make the memories so beautiful. :D

im really proud of 06v11. (:

ah, im sunburnt.
first time in my life haha.
quite pain leh ):

seriously. why do i effing care so much?

cos it sucks to care so much.

OH MY GOSH.

I AM FREEEEEE!

ive been looking forward to this day since 1 mth again. OMG, its been really long. all those days of endless studying, ALL GONE! muahaha.

yeah so i had class outing today, it was really really fun (: we were supposed to go cycling at first, but the rest of the class zoomed off straight after physics ended. so it was left with only the girls. and as it was raining, we decided to go bugis and have lunch before catching a movie. i was rather disappointed at first cos i expected everyone to go for class outing but the response turned out to be so =/

haha but im glad i still went for it cos it was really fun being out with the girls! puen, alicea, althea, jingjing, debby, jolyn, yiling. haha yeah i really thought it was very very fun. we talked and talked and got high and laughed like mad women hahaha! (: i love these girls man, seriously damn fun!

yeah so spent a lot of time sitting around and walking around gossiping. also went to kinokuniya for quite long. haha we were just talking about all the different books and stuff. haha intellectual ip talk :D

went for the nc16 movie- lust, caution. i thought it was really really good (: haha its got a really good plot. everybody, go catch it!

yeah the guys came to join us after that. yiliang, kelvin, jerald, alvin, cephas. haha puen, debby and yiling had to leave though. so it was left with the 10 of us. went to siam kitchen for dinner in the end cos the other places were packed.

i had fun during dinner too. what with the whole 'speed dating seating arrangement' and stuff. haha. and all the crap talk. damn fun. (:

okay so all in all, i really really had fun today. thank you to all those who made my day such a great day (: we should have more class outings, and include more people. it'll be much more fun. haha.

i love 06v11. (:

世界上最远的距离（泰戈尔）

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是生与死
而是我就站在你的面前，
你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱，
却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念，
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心，
对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

re-posting this. cos i still think this is really beautiful.

sorry :(

stupid wannabe.

oh, and 3 things made me happy yesterday.

#1 i managed to install dota onto my computer!
#2 (says in the cephas voice) dont tell you!
#3 this is a secret :D

heh, what a meaningless post right.

xianyong and rayrin bought the green meiji chocolate for me.
aww, thank you my dears (:
i was really happy to get it.

and to think xianyong made it sound like i did something wrong haha!
love you guys (:

why does it always seem like im the only one making the effort?

things to do after exams:


DOTA!!
class outings!
sims!
JAM like mad.
READ!
watch movies.
catch up on current affairs.
practice maths.
meet up with viv they all.
meet up with the sistas (:


PLAY LIKE CRAZY LA.

'may, you should join floorball cause youre the closest to the floor'

HAHAHAHA.

oh ho i was daydreaming just now, before i took my daily afternoon naps.
haha it left me smiling like a stupid retard. but when i woke up and i remembered what i daydreamed about, i realised they'll never come true.

which is why they are called DREAMS. sigh.

dont feel like studying leh.
stupid la year1s end le. make me so jealous.
and the year2s also play play now. nevermind im looking forward to the end of their A's! den can go playplay muahaha!
youre just not the one.

screw maths.
screw you too.

treating you as just a friend feels much easier.

im going crazy from the stress.
feel like giving up sometimes but i know i cant.
i really have no idea how im going to do well for the exams.
and it'll be reflected on the transcrpit! ah.

i dont remember being this stressed last year.
i dont even know if im absorbing everything i studied.

):
i think i'll get over you soon. it always happens anyway, the desire will go away with time. just give me some time. i'll get over you. and you'll regret it. we'll see.

i smell of babies xD

zomg i love my nephews (:

here's the elder one.

he kissed me on the lips,

TWO TIMES.

muahaha.

even though i bribed him into doing it. LOL!

400th post.

you,
you know how to get me so low
my heart had a crash when we spoke
i cant fix what you broke.

today was a relatively good day (:

went out in the morning to JURONG EAST. haha. far right. the other end of the world man.

yes after that went to paya lebar to meet my dear xy and rr. (: studied for a while den we went to cut hair. haha. it was quite nice. a simple day but i really enjoyed it. thank yous (:

anyway, saw a few pictures in xianyong's phone. i never saw those before haha.



notice xy and i in the background?
haha. xy looks damn cute.
and whr's rayrin haha!

and this was taken in the triplet's apartment. i
i never knew this existed haha.








conclusion, i miss malacca, and the triplets' apartment haha. (:

i wanna be a harvard duck.

they all look so tranquil and peaceful on the surface,
but they're paddling hard underneath.

that was probably just it-
a beautiful dream.







ily.

that lost rainbow.
when will another one appear?

you shouldnt have.
picked up that damn reciever.
now im left hanging.

hah, and to think i thought i had you figured out.

the worst thing to doubt is your own character.

hope you had a great birthday (:

i was looking at my dp, and suddenly this surge of warmth flooded my heart (i'm serious).

and i realised, i am really lucky to still have rayrin and xianyong. i really really must treasure them haha. one year already guys, still got one more year to go! (: we must treasure okay! thank you both for showing you still care (: study session on sun okay! (: i really think im a very lucky girl xD

and it's 20mins to xy's birthday, happy birthday in advance fish brain! (:

someone go learn and learn the guy part of 你最珍贵!
then can sing with me (:

who's on?

cute right? xD

a picture paints a thousand words. what i want.

"we sat down and wondered what would change.

now we understood.

shadows and regrets"



- taken from xy's blog.






just wanted to say, that there shouldnt be shadows and regrets because everything happens for a reason. maybe the thing you are regretting about is not the triplets and kazua thing, but if you are, be optimistic, cos no matter what at least we had all that before right? and at least 3 of us are still on pretty good terms- way way better compared to the start of this year.








we will survive! rayrin said we should meet up after promos right? haha let's go bugis okay? (:

kazua still loves her ex-boyfriend (:

i remember everything that has happened in the past.
i really do.

there is something wrong with blogger, it doesnt let me post photos.
):

contagious-

when you're around i dont know what to do
i do not think that i can wait
to go over and talk to you
i do not know what i should say

and i walk out in silence
that's when i start to realise
what you bring to my life
damn, this guy can make me cry

i hat it that i always procrastinate.
normally, at the start of the day, i would decide and list down what i want to complete by the end of the day. and i can NEVER complete it. i always get so frustrated with myself. i cant seem to have self discipline.

i realised that im lazy and playful. sigh.

and promos are coming REAL soon. i havent even started revising yet. this sucks man. i know im gonna regret this in 3 weeks time but im still doing it. AH. sigh.

i really need to study hard.

its been proven that instead of making the heart fonder,
absence make the heart further.
sigh.

after having been through so long(and so much),
i still gotta say,
i love rayrin. (:
in spite of all the ups and downs, thank you for everything.
even though we're not as close now, you'll be my laylinsao forever.
3yrs and still counting xD

ah i hate it when i go back and i dont see you around.
it feels empty somehow. ):

that tongue tied feeling and that feeling where your mind goes blank and you dont know what to say?

yeah i get that. when im with you.

oh i was sims-ing today.
and i had this beautiful baby girl called kiera (:
haha i dunno why but i was really happy to see the baby.

i shall make my sims take care of her properly and make sure she gets a good life. haha.
parental instincts man. (:


oh and when you're stressed, or having a mental block when doing homework,
trust me, a few games of o2jam does the trick ;)

i dont wanna fall to pieces
i just wanna sit and stare you,
i dont wanna talk about it.

muaha. guess what, i switched rooms!

im tired and aching all over now, but im really happy, cos i switched rooms! no more sharing room with my sister already (: im getting my new bed tmr, den can sleep in my very own room already! yay. muaha.

ohh i bought new court shoes today. nice white court shoes from charles and keith. double yay.

and i managed to install that sims2 which i hadnt been able to install in the past. triple yay!

hahaha today is generally a good day.
cos it left me no time to fret over you. daoing time tmr x.x
okay i gotta do my eu already, sians! haha.

i hate it that you can affect me so much.
rah.

it's exactly one year since the end of SCO 2006.
i know i shouldnt be saying this,
but i miss the triplets.
as a whole, i really really miss them.

on this day last year, it was the start of a beautiful friendship.
it was really great being friends with them, they were the best guy friends i ever had.
yesyes no matter how suan they were, i always knew they loved me. then.

oh well good things always come to an end.
i read through all my past blog posts and i realised how ungrateful i was to them.

ah nvm, as the saying goes,
不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。

sorry okay triplets?
no matter what the three of you are always on my mind.
i'll never forget you all. (:

argh, i dont know what to do.
someone tell me please?

they are just so retarded (:
listen closely to what althea says and see if what she says is true.
heh.

having to think of you as just a friend.

why are you always like that?
blowing hot and cold all the time.

AH.

i,
i want,
i want you.

it was NDP celebrations today,
the celebration style was quite unique, and some of us got high towards the end, so i think it was quite good (:

but, the highlight of the day is
YEAR TWOS' DINNER.

well it was quite cool (: we basically just stoned around watching tv and watching youtube and laughing our heads off at everything. camwhored a bit also, but not much. haha. hm everyone's like quite old already, M18 alr! haha seems like just yesterday when we all came in as year1s together. haha. well yeah i think i had a nice time la, that warm fuzzy feeling was there, although we dint exactly do any serious bonding. haha. but still, we're bonded already la. hahaha.

yeah love the year twos (:

must treasure!

today is one of those days when i feel happy.
when i feel that maybe you do care.

i know it wont be long till i doubt everything again,
but for now, let me just get lost in my own happiness.

(:

i'm really really excited for tomorrow,
meeting up with the year 2s (:

it's been ages since we've had a really really proper outing, and we're going to jerrold's house tomorrow to cook and have dinner, just like how we always went to dawn's house to cook and bake and stuff.

im really happy that im gonna see them soon. i've missed them loads. (:

im just too excited for words la. (:


oh btw,
HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY MR PRETTY LIPS YIZHA,
and
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE MR HUGGING TREE OLIVER!

im enjoying this,
but i know its nothing.
prove me wrong?

Which Hogwarts house will you be sorted into?

Your in-depth results are:

Gryffindor - 12
Ravenclaw - 12
Hufflepuff - 10
Slytherin - 10


MUAHAHAHA.

WTH. i lost my mp3.
my beloved pictures and songs gone.
no more music in the mornings and going home.

SIGH.

i wish i knew what you were thinking.

怎么办,
感觉甜又酸。
偷偷爱你，快乐又孤单。

had helmsman week today.
it was slack. haha. salsa was quite fun, i mainly partnered guowei (: muahaha. EYE CONTACT! xD

okay so im looking forward to broadway tomorrow. alicea says its fun. and i've got guowei and puen and debby and grace they all to partner me again. YAY!

muahaha slack week ahead.
on the downside, its meant for us to mug for review week =/

and i wasted my afternoon today with guowei and alicea in subway today. haha feel so bright today xD

okay okay back to ss!

oooh i just realised that absence was spelled wrongly.
HAHA.

my engrish is so powderful (:

little bits of magic that are lost, but are found later on again.
i've learnt not to get my hopes up high.
any bit more will just be a bonus.

but it sucks though,
how many more do you actually want?

see that's called retribution.

at least i can say i deserved it.

playing others or getting played?

you'll never know.

abscence makes the heart grow fonder. (:
i'll miss you.

i got a teeny weeny bit emo the last few days,
went out of class and stared at the sky,
hoping for a rainbow to appear.
but i guess rainbows are only an illusion.

and it only appears once in a blue moon.

i know you,
i know you from once upon a dream.


i really do.