Bored. Lyk. Shit

Hais. now im at home. all alone. wif nuth to do. ok. i hv someting to do. budden i dun feel lyk doing it cans. just all sch stuff. i got no one to chat wid now. okies. so i admit. ive no frens lors. the only frens i have are the choir ppl. n yet sometimes i feel that i dun noe dem well too. they all have their own frens in their class. i have too. duh. budden. i dun feel happie wid them. fine. truth is. they make me pissed most of the time. hais. dunno lars. realli depressed nowadays.

i feel outcasted. in mahh own class. wadeverr. i feel sad. the onli ppl who can make me happie are mahh choir mates and seniors. budden. i dont get to see them during class. i dun take classes wid them. i hate all this. i hate mahh life. i realli feel lyk ive no aim in life. before syf. there was syf to look forward to. a gold to aim for. budden. we got the gold already. not dat i am not happie. budden. i wish all this could last longer. i realli miss choir ppl.

no more choir. nuth to look forward to. i wanna go choirr!! i dun wanna have this one mth break. i wanna sing wif the sec 4s. i am so sad rite now. i realised. that we wun realli get to sing wid the sec 4s le. not as the syf team. no more. i dun wanna this to happen. i wanna the sec 4s to stay wid us forever. i dun wanna them to go. SEC 4s. dun go!! i dun wanna yall to go. i wanna be able to see yall in choirr everydae. yall n the sec 3s are the reasons i lyk choirr so much. if yall are gone. its lyk a big part of choir will be missing. i dun wanna yall to go. i may not be close to manii of euu. budden. i realli lyk yall alot. cos yall are a bunch of rocking ppl. yall rock mahh whole world cans. i realli wanna sing wid yall again. i realli wanna the choirr pracs to go on forever. realli forever. i dun wanna this beautiful dream to stop. i'll miss yall. im dreading handover. i seriously am. wad will choirr be lyk without yall around. it'll be such a boring place. it'll so totally be sucky. can yall not go? i noe all this is inevitable. budden. cant yall not go? pls? i realli realli wanna yall to stay.

i'll miss jasmine lin and her dramatic and funny actions
i'll miss jerrold and his cute ways and the way he cares so much for his jrs
i'll miss rachel who has been so nice to me and who realli rox mahh world
i'll miss lamekia ahkeat who is alwaes so lame and alwaes bullying me but i still noe he is swit
i'll miss huping and the way his basses are alwaes so farnie
i'll miss jasmine liu and her sehh ways
i'll miss shiyan and the way she is owaes so swit and determined
i'll miss juntao and his fun and straightforward personality

i'll realli miss yall alot and alot and alot. i realli lurve yall guys. all the sec 4s. i dun wanna yall to go. the past 4 mths have been a dream. the minute i got into syf choirr. the dream started. the beautiful dream has now ended. wid a beautiful ending. i am now waking up. into this cold and hard reality. i feel so numb. all this is so unreal. but. i pinch mahhself and feel the pain. i feel it. i feel the heartache. i cant bear the fact that we wun be able to sing tgt again. i will give anithing. anithing to continue the beautiful dream. please.

i feel lyk crying. but. the tears wun come. its lyk they are all locked inside. i feel sad. i feel lyk crying. but the tears just wun come out. this feeling is even worse then crying. i feel lyk there is this heavy stone in mahh heart. i feel veh sad. i feel depressed. i wanna cry. but i cant. it wont come out. i feel terrible. can someone pls help me?

i dun wanna yall to go.
i dun wanna this beautiful dream to end.
its ending.
im grasping on desperately to tiny bit dat i can still find.
but its slipping.
i cant hold on much longer.
its escaping me.
pls dun let this end.
i'll give anithing and everything for this to come back.
i'll miss yall.
i will.

luv yall

muacks

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