i dunno what the hell i was thinking today.
i dunno why i did what i did.
i dunno why i said what i said.

i shouldnt have. argh now its gonna be damn weird i agree. but being weird is much better than talking about all these and making things go even worse. i know i shouldnt have even mentioned it, cos i bet it sucks that i left things hanging.

well i didnt want to continue partly cos i didnt know how to phrase what i feel. and i realised there's no point in me talking about all these because its just a problem on my part.

im sorry.

**

'youre reminding me of last year'

ah i still havent grown up. childish and immature and unreasonable. that's what i am. a leopard never changes its spots. im such a failure.. no matter how much i try to change myself, to stop being so unreasonable. i just cannot do it. im still that same person from two years back. and im ashamed of that. seeing that comment really hurt. :(

we're just from two completely different worlds.
there's no point chasing the impossible.

this takes plenty of courage,
which neither of us possess.

jealousy sucks.
its just not the same anymore.
i want my triplets :(

haha this is damn crazy lah. went althea's house today, ended up camwhoring. xD

i think im obsessed. with you.

im in a dilemma.
why do i feel so much for you?

I LOVE 06v11!

thank you for all the happy memories.

inv!gorate was the BEST! yes we are all tired, most are sunburnt, and some are injured, but still, it's all these that make the memories so beautiful. :D

im really proud of 06v11. (:

ah, im sunburnt.
first time in my life haha.
quite pain leh ):

seriously. why do i effing care so much?

cos it sucks to care so much.

OH MY GOSH.

I AM FREEEEEE!

ive been looking forward to this day since 1 mth again. OMG, its been really long. all those days of endless studying, ALL GONE! muahaha.

yeah so i had class outing today, it was really really fun (: we were supposed to go cycling at first, but the rest of the class zoomed off straight after physics ended. so it was left with only the girls. and as it was raining, we decided to go bugis and have lunch before catching a movie. i was rather disappointed at first cos i expected everyone to go for class outing but the response turned out to be so =/

haha but im glad i still went for it cos it was really fun being out with the girls! puen, alicea, althea, jingjing, debby, jolyn, yiling. haha yeah i really thought it was very very fun. we talked and talked and got high and laughed like mad women hahaha! (: i love these girls man, seriously damn fun!

yeah so spent a lot of time sitting around and walking around gossiping. also went to kinokuniya for quite long. haha we were just talking about all the different books and stuff. haha intellectual ip talk :D

went for the nc16 movie- lust, caution. i thought it was really really good (: haha its got a really good plot. everybody, go catch it!

yeah the guys came to join us after that. yiliang, kelvin, jerald, alvin, cephas. haha puen, debby and yiling had to leave though. so it was left with the 10 of us. went to siam kitchen for dinner in the end cos the other places were packed.

i had fun during dinner too. what with the whole 'speed dating seating arrangement' and stuff. haha. and all the crap talk. damn fun. (:

okay so all in all, i really really had fun today. thank you to all those who made my day such a great day (: we should have more class outings, and include more people. it'll be much more fun. haha.

i love 06v11. (:

世界上最远的距离（泰戈尔）

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是生与死
而是我就站在你的面前，
你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱，
却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念，
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离，
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心，
对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

re-posting this. cos i still think this is really beautiful.

sorry :(

stupid wannabe.

oh, and 3 things made me happy yesterday.

#1 i managed to install dota onto my computer!
#2 (says in the cephas voice) dont tell you!
#3 this is a secret :D

heh, what a meaningless post right.

xianyong and rayrin bought the green meiji chocolate for me.
aww, thank you my dears (:
i was really happy to get it.

and to think xianyong made it sound like i did something wrong haha!
love you guys (:

why does it always seem like im the only one making the effort?

things to do after exams:


DOTA!!
class outings!
sims!
JAM like mad.
READ!
watch movies.
catch up on current affairs.
practice maths.
meet up with viv they all.
meet up with the sistas (:


PLAY LIKE CRAZY LA.

'may, you should join floorball cause youre the closest to the floor'

HAHAHAHA.

oh ho i was daydreaming just now, before i took my daily afternoon naps.
haha it left me smiling like a stupid retard. but when i woke up and i remembered what i daydreamed about, i realised they'll never come true.

which is why they are called DREAMS. sigh.

dont feel like studying leh.
stupid la year1s end le. make me so jealous.
and the year2s also play play now. nevermind im looking forward to the end of their A's! den can go playplay muahaha!
youre just not the one.