Scrapbooking goodies!

Went to Paper Market yesterday, distress inks, stickles, prima bling, stamp sets - 4 @ 40% off!

I got the prima bling, but gosh really wanted the distress inks and stickles too. Can't wait for the tim holtz clear blocks to be out too! I want I want! Oh yes and g45 curtain call paper, wanted them so badly but I just got the springtime set.

Oh welllllll.

Law school, and life

I'm so tired. So tired of being in Law School, of the endless working, and studying, and worrying.

And now as I am typing this, I should be doing my contract tutorial, reading my crim cases, doing the crim memo, doing LAWR research, reading misrepresentation and doing ILT readings.

Stacks and stacks of work to do. And every week is just an endless race to finish what I have to do, to keep up with lectures, tutorials, and seminars.

My grades for sem 1 weren't that good, and I was shocked to get those grades. It just reflects how highly I think of myself. I never thought I'd be average. Average. That's such an ugly word. Something I never associated myself with.

And there, I've said it, shown it to the world, I'm such an arrogant person.

Who am I to think that I am smarter than everyone? Who am I to think that others are less intelligent than me? I've let myself get caught up in my own success in the past, and I've gotten egotistical and big-headed.

This is a timely reminder for me to remember that I am not that different from everyone.

Past the initial shock, I am actually thankful. I'm thankful that God has shown me this 'failure' at this time, to remind me to keep a humble heart. That's what I've been trying to do throughout my JC life, why have I lost it? Now, I tend to feel insulted whenever people doubt my ability in the least. Where has that come from? I'm glad God has given me this opportunity to keep my arrogant mind in check.

I need to relearn to be humble, need to stop being arrogant, and need to be more sensitive to the needs of others.

And beyond that, I have to learn to keep the fire going, to remind myself why it is that I wanted to come to law school. To stop feeling intimidated and jaded by life, to remind myself that grades are not everything in life.

Of random thoughts.

The past month has given me more HTHTs with my various groups of friends than I've had with my friends for the past one year.

As I'm listening to what my friends say, it strikes me hard that we've all grown up. At this age, we're all thinking about life - relationships, degrees, work, families, marriage, children. Of course, different people think about each aspect to a different degree.

But one bad thing is the negativity I hear about relationships. So many people around me end up breaking up because they're just 'not ready for a relationship'. Others complain about how there is just 'no spark'.

But, how do you know when you're ever ready? How do you create the spark? How do you know when you meet Mr Right?

The truth is, you never know.

To me, relationships are about taking the plunge, about making things work. And that's the thing I see which other people lack. I do not confess to be an expert on such things, nor do I think that I'm having the perfect relationship now, but I just think that many a times, people simply do not give their relationship a chance.

When a problem comes up, they simply say, 'this is not right', and run away from it. It just cultivates a habit doesn't it, and it cultivates the cynicism in them.

Why not give the relationship a chance? Why not try to talk things through? Isn't a relationship about compromise? About commitment?

Maybe I was just lucky to have found someone who's willing to put in as much as I do. But whatever it is, just don't lose hope. And before you blame the other party, examine yourself. Think about what you can do to make things better before you start thinking 'hey, this is not working'.

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I really must thank God for the life and friends that he's given me currently. He's given me a wonderful person to share my life with, and amazing friends which I know I can keep for a long time. He's also strengthened the bonds within my family, I can see how we treasure each other so much more now.

And I must say, God really works in amazing ways. And he always answers my prayers. He's blessed me with so much, and it's so comforting to know that I have Him to run to whenever I worry, and whenever I have any problems. Because I know that everything is in His plan, and that he'll make things right in the end.

I just have to trust in Him and believe that I will make it out eventually.

I have always been fearful of letting my family know about my relationship with God. But I think it's time for me to start to let them know about Him. My walk with God makes up such a big part of me, and I need to start embracing this, as well as letting my family know that this is part of who I am.

Hello Again.

I'm back here! After more than a year.

I wanted to come back here because I was just so happy. So happy after the v11 chalet yesterday. I wanted to write down how I feel, because I know this will be a treasured memory of mine for years to come.

Every v11 chalet, I have loads of fun and add one more fantastic memory to my stash of v11 memories. And I do love v11 so, it's the best class I've ever been in. The people there mean so much to me. They're friends that I'd want to keep for the rest of my life. Hopefully I'd get to know their spouses, attend their weddings, play with their kids, grandkids... etc and etc

And I can see that happening for a lot of these people, Althea, Alicea, Pu En, Kelvin, Yiliang, Jing...

I love jamming. Sometimes I forget how much I love singing, but whenever I sing, I feel that happiness creeping over me. That sense of contentment. I don't ever want to stop singing, even though yeah I don't think I sound that good sometimes. But it's okay, I still love singing all the same.

And the jamming session yesterday was awesome. With JT on the guitar, althea and alicea to harmonize with me. How great was that!

I just feel so happy. So happy. Unexplainable happiness, and this happiness comes from seeing all my beloved old friends.

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So much on my mind these days. The past year has been one full of ups and downs. Reading through all my past blogposts bring back waves and waves of nostalgia. All the past memories which I held so dear to my heart but have forgotten about.

I shan't forget this place anymore. I've been meaning to delete it for ages but couldn't bear to because I wanted to be able to read this for years to come.

Anyway, nobody reads this blog anymore :) So I can actually write more without worrying about others reading it.

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Note to self,

I have to stop worrying about others judging me. Because afterall, the success will be mine to achieve, and the friends will be mine to keep.

Through Thick and Thin

Lovelovelovelovelove!

Really dunno what i'd do without you guys :)

:)

Acting,


For Real! :)


:D:D:D


So thankful for these people. :)

because no man is an island.

Lethargy.

I'm tired.

So tired of the incessent bitching, gossiping and rumors flying about.
Why can't people just try to be nicer? Keep their tongues in check and try to understand things from other's viewpoints?

Is that really so difficult to achieve?

If you have so much to complain about, why don't you come up with solutions for the problems you identify?

The world would be a better place without all the bitching and gossiping seriously.

I wish I could get detached from all these.


I'm just glad I have my pillar of support to lean on. The easiest way out will be to just close one eye, close one ear, pretend I don't see or hear anything wouldn't it?

Be strong May, you can get through this.

Fall.

You tried, and you gave up.
But have you forgotten that I was trying too? That I was trying my best to step out and to embrace the world you live in. How easy to get lost in your own world and your own selfish gains - that applies to me too. As I am typing this, am I not being selfish? I know you live in guilt all day, that you hate this fear and yet here I am berating you. But, am I not trying too? Have you thought about how much it takes for me to even open myself up? To take that step forward, to envision the change in my life.

You live by your values, and I am trying my best to conform to them. All I am asking for is a little time. But no, you had to take it away.

最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息

而回憶愈是甜就是愈傷人